Hello
I have just registered on this sight. My journey has sprung immence awarenesses of self. I respect others Spiritual beliefs. I have a relationship with the Higher power of my understanding. Part of the teachings state, "With much wisdoms comes much sorry, with much knowledge comes much sorrow". I can relate to the first meesage I read. I am not aware if I should mention the name, so I won't. I have been clean from drugs for over two years. My challenge is that I have become aware of codependency, and how deep it goes. It's my belief that once the obsession of doing drugs is lifted, the codependency comes forward full tilt. Attempting to recover from both drug addiction, and codependency at the same time, brings me to a very lonely place. I work the N.A. program here in Victoria B.C. Finding ones who have awareness of these issues, is very challenging. For me, its the only way to go. I used drugs to numb the pain of codependency. Being that I can't recover on my own, my challenge is in finding a support group. I have gone to seperate fellowships for both. One doesn't understand the other. I have come to believe that the traditions of the various 12 step fellowships, are all about codependency. Yet translating knowledges becomes a not so honest approach in finding support. I do resect the traditions, as a newcomer can become very confused. I would like to find a support group that uses all of the knowledges from the various groups, as well as "outside" material. Addictions cross all barriers. Why wouldn't recovery. The problem doesn't stand still, why should the solution? I just recently stepped down from vice president of the local Alano Club. What I found is interesting. When a new solution comes along, its not so much adapting to the new solution, as it is conflicting with the hiearchy of yesterdays solution. This is nothing new. In the eighteen hundreds, it was thought that the cure for various ailments was to plurge, (bleed), the body. Many people died as a result. It was thought that woman with epilipsy had it centered in thier utuerus. Many woman suffered the removal of thier uterus. Recovered alcoholics can help other alcoholic, yet they don't know how to help recovering drug addicts. The problem is in the funding from charities, who are close-minded in trusting recovering drug addicts. This leads down to a personal level. Todays solution, can be tomorrows denial. With so many avenues of recovery, it can become very confusing for one to find thier way out of the darkness of addiction. One person's solution, can be another ones poison. I have recovered from cocaine, in any form, and other drugs. I age myself, 51, by stating that there is new-age drugs I haven't done. I don't know what a young person goes through. I believe the way to go, is through creativity. I believe creativity is a reflection of ones spirituality. Having a recovery club that enhances ones ability to utilize thier own creativity. Writing steps, is personal creativity. Having a center that utilizes any of the arts, would give a recovering person an outlet to get in touch with themselves, while at the same time having the vehicle for continued recovery between meetings. We all release tremendous energies when we clean-up. The energy needs a place to go. The unfortunate fact that a very small percentage of people who come to recovery stick around, gives testiment that something is missing. This web sight is a vehicle.
Well. I didn't think I would be going off so long. When the energy flows, it is amazing. I would like response on any or all of this. For the one going off to work and not believing that someone cares, you are not alone. I care for you. Words on a screen may seem distant. Unity in spirit is universal. I would suggest reaching like you already have. If the one you are with doesn't support you, it because of his fears. Find a support group that hears you. CODA, (codependents anonymous), material is very good. They are on the web. N.A. is good for drugs. I would encourage you to keep writing to this sight. You are a child of God's. like all of us.
God Bless everyone
Dave P.
Victoria, B.C.
dwpoyntz@canada.com
You might want to try this great book that I just finished reading called "Rebuilding Relationships In Recovery: A Guide To Healing Relationships Impacted By Addiction" by Catherine Patterson-Sterling. I heard about it from a friend and ordered it on-line from www.amazon.com This book addresses the exact same issues that you are talking about.
Best of Luck,
Myra
Best of Luck,
Myra
