Well tonght's the night. I'm going to meet with a group friends and aquaintences, we get together every thursday night. It will no doubt be noticed when I don't order my usual mug of pale ale. I will have to tell them that I have quit drinking. I know it shouldn't be that hard, these are good people, most of them exceedingly light drinkers, however I must admit I am nervous. First it will be the first time I will have ready access to alcohol; I think I can handle that. However, as I am preparing to go out, it seems that there are different layers of acceptance of an alcohol problem.
Its been one thing sitting at home hiding by the fire and feeling safe from all the bad things drinking brings and philosophising about being a non- drinker. Its another to look friends in the eye and say "I've decided to quit" it makes it more real.
It might seem a little silly but I thought I would post this so I will feel stronger while I'm out. Like the skipper of the fish boat I once worked on used to say,"don't use nuthin' ya don't got" . Any way its not as silly as putting a six pack in the fridge before I went to the bar so that I would find it easier to come home..... I used to do that....
Well this is me again 3 hours later, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be....
All's well
Cookster.
All's well
Cookster.
Gidday Cookster
My mind has a tendency to complicate things to the negative pretty quickly if i let it, so i try not to go in my mind alone negatively and by posting, talking, laughing out loud at myself for allowing the insanity in and trusting in God and myself, i can get over everything that i allow myself to.
Light and love Zac
My mind has a tendency to complicate things to the negative pretty quickly if i let it, so i try not to go in my mind alone negatively and by posting, talking, laughing out loud at myself for allowing the insanity in and trusting in God and myself, i can get over everything that i allow myself to.
Light and love Zac
Hi,
I think you were far from silly in preparing yourself to meet your friends. Quite courageous actually; you could easily have made an excuse not to go, but you didn't. Good for you. I hope you had a great evening!
Love Lacey.
I think you were far from silly in preparing yourself to meet your friends. Quite courageous actually; you could easily have made an excuse not to go, but you didn't. Good for you. I hope you had a great evening!
Love Lacey.
