Hi all
not sure how it happened, but I have somehow agreed to be treasurer for my home group.
Don't know what the heck I'm supposed to be doing but no doubt I'll get it all figured out.
It seems so strange to have found a place I belong.
Idgie
That's wonderful news, Idgie!! Service helps us stay sober. Congratulations on your commitment. Isn't it great to find that people trust us again?
Idgie, that is fantastic! You are immersed in the program and are a shining example of recovery! You are a part of, just not on the outskirts, doesn't it feel good? Commitments helped me walk thru fear, I was afraid to have the coffee commitment, cause I really don't know how to work those big coffee pots and all...I also was worried about if everyone would like it...heck it helped me deal with yet another fear issue I have...and giving back, hey that's what it is all about. You're doing it girl!
thanks 12-step and VW - yep it does feel good though I'm kind of scared too.
To be honest I don't really know what I'm afraid of, the unknown I suppose.
Perhaps the idea of committment itself but I'm just pushing through the fear anyway.
VWGirl - don't worry I can't make coffee either :)
To be honest I don't really know what I'm afraid of, the unknown I suppose.
Perhaps the idea of committment itself but I'm just pushing through the fear anyway.
VWGirl - don't worry I can't make coffee either :)
Hey Idgie the fear is only because they are going to see the real you and your addiction wants you to be scared, cunning, baffling and powerful the bstard. Kick its arse and hold your head high as you are doing really well.
Light and love Zac
Light and love Zac
Hi Idgie
Good to hear your kicking goals, Home group, Treasurer and youll do great.
God Bless
Lionel.
Good to hear your kicking goals, Home group, Treasurer and youll do great.
God Bless
Lionel.
Idg
I'm the treasurer of my home group of 5 years and I still get in my head too much and think "what if the money gets stolen or lost or I miscount and they think I stole it" then I smack myself in the head for old thinking. You'll be fine.
I'm the treasurer of my home group of 5 years and I still get in my head too much and think "what if the money gets stolen or lost or I miscount and they think I stole it" then I smack myself in the head for old thinking. You'll be fine.
Great Idgie, wonderful to be of service isn't it.
It is a commitment. We have a very young na group in my city, and I was made librerian after only 4 months clean. Its quite a responsibility as I need to sell the books, hand the monies to the treasurer, keep the orders going in. I am terrible at admin, and was really worried.
But it did 2 things for me.
One, I get to give the gift of the big book to people. How cool is that. Thats the book that had my life in it dso many times over. Its my treasured possesion
Two
It keeps me going to meetings, even when I dio not feel like it, cos I always think maybe someone needs some literature. So i have an incentive to go.
You go man, may the road to recovery be filled with opportunities to serve our fellow addicts
With love
Calabash
It is a commitment. We have a very young na group in my city, and I was made librerian after only 4 months clean. Its quite a responsibility as I need to sell the books, hand the monies to the treasurer, keep the orders going in. I am terrible at admin, and was really worried.
But it did 2 things for me.
One, I get to give the gift of the big book to people. How cool is that. Thats the book that had my life in it dso many times over. Its my treasured possesion
Two
It keeps me going to meetings, even when I dio not feel like it, cos I always think maybe someone needs some literature. So i have an incentive to go.
You go man, may the road to recovery be filled with opportunities to serve our fellow addicts
With love
Calabash
Calabash, Thanks for sharing your view about your literature commitment I have one too at the Saturday night meeting and I never quite looked at it as the way you described. Just another something I learned from you...again I will never forget what you posted about being "in love with your recovery" ~ I feel that way too (most of the time) ~ I use to literally be in love with the drugs and alcohol and now I've found a new way and am so much better for it....thanks for sharing that.
thansk for the posts guys - much appreciated.
I had an incident at my bookclub the other night - part of the story was about a woman who had married an alcoholic and it described in great detail some of the arguments and fights they had when he was drunk that led to deterioration of their marriage.
I had found it so difficult to read because it was so true to life and wrenchingly emotional for me. In the discussion all the others didn't like the woman, and some even blamed her for 'driving him to drink.' and other stuff. And hated the woman for how controlling and stuff she became with her children afterwards.
I tried to explain what its like to be an alcoholic and to live with one - but I couldn't get through to my friends at all. I felt like an outcast - I didn't really say I was talking from personal experience, I said this is how I see it. But they didn't see it like that.
What I'm getting at is that for me, this experience made me realise how grateful I am to AA. The night before someone shared that they came to meetings to "be amongst their own kind". After the bookclub experience I understood that 100%.
If you are not an alcoholic, or lived with one - you can never, never truly understand what its like. For me, AA and the friends I've made on this board are the only things that take the "aloneness' of my situation away. I know my HP is there, but to be able to express these things to another human being and know that they truly understand is a blessing and a gift beyond anything.
I had an incident at my bookclub the other night - part of the story was about a woman who had married an alcoholic and it described in great detail some of the arguments and fights they had when he was drunk that led to deterioration of their marriage.
I had found it so difficult to read because it was so true to life and wrenchingly emotional for me. In the discussion all the others didn't like the woman, and some even blamed her for 'driving him to drink.' and other stuff. And hated the woman for how controlling and stuff she became with her children afterwards.
I tried to explain what its like to be an alcoholic and to live with one - but I couldn't get through to my friends at all. I felt like an outcast - I didn't really say I was talking from personal experience, I said this is how I see it. But they didn't see it like that.
What I'm getting at is that for me, this experience made me realise how grateful I am to AA. The night before someone shared that they came to meetings to "be amongst their own kind". After the bookclub experience I understood that 100%.
If you are not an alcoholic, or lived with one - you can never, never truly understand what its like. For me, AA and the friends I've made on this board are the only things that take the "aloneness' of my situation away. I know my HP is there, but to be able to express these things to another human being and know that they truly understand is a blessing and a gift beyond anything.
Idgie, Thanks for sharing that...I too feel like I came "home" finally, it was kinda like when I found the drinking and drugging crowd when I was 16 years old, I felt like "oh man, I've finally arrived, I've finally found people who understand, and I finally feel comfortable"; well that's how I felt when I walked into the rooms of AA on 22 November 2003, hopefully for the last time; I found "my people" like I've heard around the meetings.
Idgie...
Thanks for sharing that...amazing how alone or not "a part of" I always felt, even amongst my own family until I walked into the rooms...I was like WOW, I still am WOW at how in almost everyone's share, I find a piece of what I am feeling there....I always thought I was so alone and so unique, only to realize there are hundreds just like me and "get me"....again, thanks for sharing...I don't post much on this board but always read and you are a shining inspiration...
Have a great weekend,
Stacey
Thanks for sharing that...amazing how alone or not "a part of" I always felt, even amongst my own family until I walked into the rooms...I was like WOW, I still am WOW at how in almost everyone's share, I find a piece of what I am feeling there....I always thought I was so alone and so unique, only to realize there are hundreds just like me and "get me"....again, thanks for sharing...I don't post much on this board but always read and you are a shining inspiration...
Have a great weekend,
Stacey
Hey everyone i to felt alone when i was drinking everyone wanted to talk about the news and sport and they seemed happy, all i wanted to talk about was drinking and then i didn't want to talk, i just wanted oblivion and blackout. When i went to rehab i found where i belonged and the people with whom i could identify also i seen a photo of a convention centre or stadium where they had an AA convention 30,000 people....bloody hell still can't fathom it,and one day i will be at one of those conventions.
Hey Stacey hows things?
Light and love Zac
Hey Stacey hows things?
Light and love Zac
Thanks for asking Zac...
Things are great today...and I am so blessed to be able to say that...It's Friday, I'm looking forward to 3 days off, I received a couple kudo's at work and hopefully I'll be able to attend my women's meeting tonight (if not, I go to Saturday morning's meeting)....all in all, today is a good day. When I started to work my program and open myself up to my HP, even when I have really trying days, I still am clean and sober and for just that, I am a lucky woman...I always read this board and I see so much compassion and love here, I thought it was time to post (share) and get to know you guys....
Take care,
Stacey
Things are great today...and I am so blessed to be able to say that...It's Friday, I'm looking forward to 3 days off, I received a couple kudo's at work and hopefully I'll be able to attend my women's meeting tonight (if not, I go to Saturday morning's meeting)....all in all, today is a good day. When I started to work my program and open myself up to my HP, even when I have really trying days, I still am clean and sober and for just that, I am a lucky woman...I always read this board and I see so much compassion and love here, I thought it was time to post (share) and get to know you guys....
Take care,
Stacey
