dont mean to be nosey and u can tell me to f***-off but we spoke more when u were in the us,me,myself and i,well i tend to hide out of everyones road when i relapse,kick me if im wrong con,but do u not feel like talkin,f***,using,kleen,meth whatever,i thought thats why we were here,c,mon babes and lets here your sweet fingers do some typing,,,the pest,,,eck
Moin....Hi Eck...Im sorry...I guess I hide out sometimes too but its when Im feeling like this ...ive been really frustrated latley thats all...this morning I went back to the Doc and we talked Methadone program...Im so relieved I could cry...its going to be difficult though...its in Mainz and I will have to travel every morning to get the damn s*** before I go to work...and I have a job interview tommorow for work up in K Town...the logisitics are killing me...you know the deal...no methadone or subs without a program...and I cant go inpatient..but I cant say the Doc is a bad sort...he's doing what he can and he's trying to help....but....I have GOT to work....so anyways, he put me on a different benzo this morning just for the day and I have to go back in tommorow morning...he is checking out the options for methadone and what can be done to get me on something that at least resembles an opiate . cuz Im 3 inches from the scream Eck...theres just nothing cutting it right now...ya I know I got thru the detox but truth is I was subbing 1500 mg of codien a day and had some morphine tabs I was munching on when things got to much for the last 3 weeks just so I could be level...well...Im out of them now and maybe Im dancing the kick all over again albeit not the H kick...all I know is that Im really not hanging well without the H...I need to be as calm as the H made me...I functioned well on it...believe it or not...but ya...ok...I was spending 180 - 260E a week, which Im sure isnt a whole lot compared to a lot of people but it was getting crazy...im sorry Eck...I dont mean to sound all poor me s***...Im really trying to get on with this the legal way...im just ...like I said...3 inches from that big black scream and I really cant afford to be...Im really sorry If I sounded stupid...I dont mean to...I know youve got beautiful kids and I know your doing the best you can...I didnt mean anything by it...you can slap me up side my head when I need it...cuz Im so irritable and cranky and out of it right now that I know I deserve it..and hey....Thanks for asking Eck....
con,if u dont mind me askin,where in g do u live and what kind of mileage do u have to go to get the juice.me personally,im not against meth,i believe if u use it properly and dont use on top of it u can get your life back,looks the lot,someone close to me is on the juice plus i was on it myself years ago,its not an option for me now neither is telling the doc as i drive for a living when(only when)ive got my s*** together and i would lose my licence if they even had a sniff of that ive still got a d-problem,theres also subutex which is a partial blocker,ive also seen people write about suboxone or something which i know nothing about.con u can offload to me anytime and i will always try to be there for u,so even if its just a shoulder or to joke and carry-on,get in touch(promise from me)i know i mess and kid-on but i would help anyone if i could.a funny thing just happened to me,i,ll keep it short,i joined the bebo site the other day,reason i joined was bcoz i had to ,to get in to look at something,well now im getting accepted as pals by all the people i never see now,all clean living and it made me feel so good that they were all happy to hear from me again.think ive bust the page here,will tell u more l8r con,but a big hug from the rhino,take care and let me know where u r based if u dont mind.lol..eck
I'll take the rhino hugs anytime :) Im out in Bad Kreuznach (BK)..actually outside of BK in a small village. Mainz is about 30 min....I commute to Wiesbaden every day which is about 45 min. I should be a driver too as much as I drive around here ;) Whats a bebo Eck ? Is it a football team ? Whatever it is Im glad they missed you and were happy to see you. Ive never been a big advocate of Methadone but then on the other hand...Ive never thought I would need it...thanks for listening eck and being there. The ears go both ways BTW...Im here for you too :) I'll let you know if this juice stuff works...that is if I can figure out the logitics...the benzo he gave me today actually feels ok....wasnt like that other one he gave me ...at least I feel the scream backing off a bit...
Con ive been on Methedone 7yrs its let me get my life back although at the start i just used it to cover all bases whilst still using....and have done many times ....but as i said ive got adecent job ...bring up my 8yr.old girl on my own ...with the help of my Ma.....Sians mum is still a hardcore smack&crack addict and has no contact.....my daughters gets a bit down i have to lie or bend the truth regarding her mum......but its her mums loss ...i do my leval best and my lil girl is one of the many reasons i try to stay clean....im rambling now.Give the meth.a go its seems like yer only option....but watch out at the clinic if it s anything like mine its like an open air drug market but luckily i only have to go every 2nd.week ...i get 13day takehomes.Con girl im really rooting for ya.....but yer clean now although the methedone will help with the intense cravings but it does have its sideeffects which im sure yer aware of.....what benzo did yer Doc.give ya?Anyway Ms.take care......il be about a bit if ya want a chat.....Davey
con doesnt have a street there called finkenweg or bahnstrale and near a village or town called hargesheim or eremitage if it does ive got a m8 that stays there,she,s 40ish,gem of a girl but she doesnt know if she,s comin or going at the minute,maybe she could meet u,f*** u might even know her,cant be to many yanks in that part of the world.
Hi Guys....damn Davey your a hard core angel with wings of metal...and you too Eck...ment to ask how that boy of yours is doing...my niece just went in for her checkup and is below 50 on the CFPs...but she says she feels good...Im hoping...shes 22 now
Davey...they gave me durananil...sp ?...its ok...he upped the dose this morning...he can get the meth at his office...going to wait a week on the meds and then if Im still climbing the freaking walls after the upped dose of this med then im going for it...I swear to God Im a lucky one to have a doc in the neighborhood who actually has taken the time with me to get it right.
Eck...the ermetage is close enough to walk to...but its only for guys...I think I am out where your M8 is...be glad to say hello...Im in Bretzenheim...use this if you need too: brijda@hotmail.com
Davey...they gave me durananil...sp ?...its ok...he upped the dose this morning...he can get the meth at his office...going to wait a week on the meds and then if Im still climbing the freaking walls after the upped dose of this med then im going for it...I swear to God Im a lucky one to have a doc in the neighborhood who actually has taken the time with me to get it right.
Eck...the ermetage is close enough to walk to...but its only for guys...I think I am out where your M8 is...be glad to say hello...Im in Bretzenheim...use this if you need too: brijda@hotmail.com
only toying with u con,i looked it up on google earth,will store the e-mail in my contacts and drop u short one so u can save it,if rangers r back in germany at kaiserluitein or somewhere near,my bro was in stuttgart not too long ago,u maybe able to meet me in the middle somewhere,that,d be nice.
