Hey, Con...thinking of you...you can still fight the good fight. Forgive yourself.
(((Hugs))) M&M
weird...I was just logging on ..waiting on getting to a meeting...just wasting time until its time..and there you are...i dont know....thanks M&M...gonna take awhile...no idea what to say anymore...im sorry doesnt really cover it...freakin possessed maybe
Hi con
I have also been thinking about u don't ever give up u r a great person and have ment so much to me and my son with ur encouraginpg postings
Your in my prayers always
Prisciila
I have also been thinking about u don't ever give up u r a great person and have ment so much to me and my son with ur encouraginpg postings
Your in my prayers always
Prisciila
Sorry to who, Con? Certainly not to us...do you mean to H? You've been struggling...you can do it...time takes time...say sorry to yourself and then move on...
((HUGS)) ~ M&M
((HUGS)) ~ M&M
ok...sigh...im working it...clean up my mess and drive on...relief in a way to just have made a descison...im done...just not worth all the worry this time round ...discouraged but feeling like i can do it...i just dont want it anymore...ive changed too much...not good , not bad...just different....i think i might always want it but im just not up for the merry go round anymore...get off before i cant...hard enough as it is...using on top isnt the best of ideas anyways...maybe i just needed to put something to rest in me...i dont know...been a loooong week....brutal descsion in ways...but i think i know what i want now..and i dont want this...not anymore...at least not now ....
con
con
It's funny, Con, reading your post could've been me talking about my stuff with R...it all applies, just a different kind of being done and realizing what I wanted. You actually sound pretty good...I hear the tiredness, but you still sound more or less okay...are you?
Love ~ M&M
Love ~ M&M
Im as Ok as I can be ....last night the Sponsor pulled the NA stop on me so Im not allowed to work the steps unless i get off the methadone...he wanted me to go IP and do it like, right now..uh, i said no...whatever...he thinks being on the methadone is like being too close to heroin and will keep me jonsing...who knows, i see his point...but...we both know the methadone equation doesnt work like that...anyways, he wants to keep working with me, but no steps..so ya...tired i guess...I basically havent a program to work even if i want one..lol...got to love it...whatever...im gonna go shopping...mum always said...when the going gets tough...the tough go shopping...if anything...she always knew how to shop...still does...thnx 4 asking M&M
Honey, you need a new sponsor...JMHO...no place for that kind of judgment in sponsorship, at least that's what I think. I'm going to put it out there and ask other folks what they think...hmmmm...interesting topic.
Love ~ M&M
PS Start sponsoring yourself and doing the reading and writing.
Love ~ M&M
PS Start sponsoring yourself and doing the reading and writing.
i dont think any person other than you should make that decision..your sponsor may have mixed up sponsor and God.. you are a smart gal who knows their limits and from what i have seen made very insightful choices and observations about herself. i looked at a site on rational recovery and find so many positive things about that program maybe its time to look at all recovery options....glckliches Leben
