Could Use Some Help Here

Good Afternoon,
I am an alcoholic and have decided to stop drinking. I have been a pretty heavy drinker for quite a while now. Yesterday, I only had a little Kaluah in my coffee last night and that was it. Today I'm about to go out of my mind thinking about it. My body is craving it so badly. I have been given Buspar by my doctor and it helps some but not enough. I have not gone to AA and don't look forward to it at all. I live in a small town and I'm sure someone there would recognize me.
I know my values as I would not mention seeing someone I know there but not sure about others intentions in reverse. I am taking it one hour now at a time.
Anyone know of any suggestions to keep me from stopping by the ABC on the way home? Perhaps something I could snack on that would be beneficial to get me over the cravings? Any help on all of this would be appreciated.
One thing that I found real helpful for overcoming cravings was tomatoe juice with tobasco sause in it. For a large can I would put 2 TBSP of Tabasco and then put it in the fridge and have a glass of it whenver I had cravings.

Other thing that helps is scented candles, I found. Plus I had a bottle of lavendar essential oil lying around and whenever I had a craving I would take a whiff of that and that would also help.

Viatamins that can help are folic acid, b complex and Viatmin C.

As far as not stopping at the ABC can you try and just not stopping there today? Just today. Don't concern yourself with any other day, just today only. OK?

Cailyn
One more thing, If you can eat try to eat high protein foods such as nuts, cheese, fish eggs and meat. Protein powder also can be used too in fruit shakes.

I found this better than taking Amino Acids as protein rich foods help the body produce amino acids.

Amino acids are important in restoring levels of serotonin in the brain, which is what makes you feel good naturally and therefore helps reduce cravings.

Cailyn
Hi Girly

Good to hear from you .It reminds me of what it used to be like for me. I remember going to my first meeting of AA I was walking up the driveway to the meeting thinking ,what if there is someone in the meeting that I know or someone who knows me. When did I become the centre of the universe and so important. That false pride of mine almost killed me.
I didnt realise the people in the meeting where there because alcohol was costing them more than money the same as myself. What I mean by costing me more than money.

That people where talking about my drinking. My life had become unmanageable to some degree mentally and emotionally. It was affecting my relationships mainly with family then my work. I was lying about the amounts I drank; I was hiding my alcohol on and on. My problem wasnt stopping from drinking; my problem was stopping from staring. AA has helped me with that .They have a beautiful 12 step program for living.

It was explained to me in simple terms if I dont have the first drink I wont get drunk. Simple but not easy. I used to think it was sixth class of wine or beer or spirit that done the damage but if I didnt have the first it couldnt set up that physical craving that alcoholics get you know where one drinks to many and 50 is not enough then the mental obsession where all I think about is where is my next drink coming from.

When a social drinker has one or two drinks some get a tipsy out of control feeling feel a little sick and want to sleep afterall alcohol is a posion but when an alcoholic like me has one or two drinks I get an in control feeling and want to party.

Girly today I have a life beyond my wildest dreams I am free from the bondage of self. I am still not immune from what life throws at me but I dont need to drink and I handle things a lot better .Its true AA does not help everyone only 2 % of people who come stay .But it has helped me and it may help you.

Life is about taking risks now and then. This is only my opinion I cant talk about others because we all have opinions like we all have anyway.

Now to you enough about me No one can stop you from going into ABC but you dont need to. Look into the bottom of that next bottle or cask you may buy from ABC and ask yourself do you want all the misery, guilt or remorse the next morning or do you want to be free from the bondage of self. Youre the only one who can make that decision .

If you feel like a drink have a couple of chocolate or vanilla milkshakes you wont want to drink after that. You may need help and people in AA can direct you to that help. If I can help in anyway please let me know. There are a lot of good people in these rooms who will listen so please keep in contact and let us know how you are going. God bless LionelC
When it comes down to it you are alone. When you pass the store you are alone. When you pass the bar you are alone. You can call people you can write on these boards you can go to meetings. But when it comes down to it you are alone. Nobody can do it for you. You have to tough it out sometimes a minute at a time. But you can do it. YOU can do it.
AA has worked for me even though I don't very often.

I have one thing that works as well in addition to a better died. Well, it's more of a mindf*** thing.

I absolutely hate seafood and chocolate (I am probably the one girl in the world that hates chocolate......lol.) Also, I hate the smell of cigarettes.

I associate booze with all the above, then it makes me think just how much of a disgusting poison it is. Hey, whatever helps!

Or think of it as rat poison, and that you are poisoning your body whenever you take a drink.

Good luck to you.

By the way I have been sober since January 1st! It's not going to be easy, but you have all the support here.