Hi there
I have been using crack cocaine for at least 5-6 years, with increased usage in the past year and 1/2 or so. I quit drinking two years ago and substituted crack cocaine. I was a heavy drinkwer and died a couple of times as a result. Went pretty psycho. I have been very proud that I quit drinking, I was sure that AI was hopeless. But now my crack use is out of control. I have jsut s[ent more than $10,000 dollars on the drug in less than two weeks, ( for boyfriend too ) and am wondering where my progressin is leading to nex? I have been up pretty much all of the two weeks, my boyfriend is becoming a paranoid psycho, we are skinny, and looking very old! He has hep C, and is not going tpo the doctor. I had alcohol hepatitis 6 years ago, and am avoiding doctor too. My feet are a funny color and shape due to poorcirculation. My boyfriend is a skeleton, and is getting in trouble at work. What What pray tell is next? I doubt I will die of a heart attack any time soon, but wonder how serious this is... (knowing very well I ned to quit). Been thru all the rehabs for alcohol, and am rhab educated, what is next medicallty for us?
Maybe going to yet another rehab and this time really working the program?
Just a thought.
Karen
Just a thought.
Karen
I'm feeling really sad for you. You are headed for a major medical crisis in your life...but, you know that already; don't you? As I reply to you, my friend is on a respirator in a hospital...doctors say "no brain activity".
So young, so vibrant, so beautiful, now gone.
We can't let go. We can't say goodbye. This is not the way it's supposed to be.
Please get a grip. Once you go over, you really have no choices left. Please choose to get a grip.
Peace out.
So young, so vibrant, so beautiful, now gone.
We can't let go. We can't say goodbye. This is not the way it's supposed to be.
Please get a grip. Once you go over, you really have no choices left. Please choose to get a grip.
Peace out.
if you have been to rehab then you should well know that your disease progresses whether you use or not.
it seems to me that you are headed for death, so why worry what medical problem will be next? what is the difference?
i hate to be ugly and say this, but i personally hope you are not draining your states medicaid program...i think it's extremely selfish of you to put the burden on the taxpayer. there are people out there like my grandson who needs proper health care because his mother is a widow, i don't think she is being selfish, she lacks the education to get a job that will pay well enough to support herself at this time. she does plan on taking advantage of the system to get a job or education that will enable her to take care of her family.
and that is where you are eventually headed...the money runs out...you steal, you get caught and go to prison where the state has to deal with your medical problems, that's about as selfish and stupid as you get.
you don't seem like you really care whether you live or die or not...so the next 10,000 you have, why don't you invest in two burials, its also selfish that you expect your family to bury you because you refuse to work a program, go to meetings and get clean.
i may be entirely wrong voicing my opinion, the other night i was worried sick about you, but you just seem to not care, so why should i?
i am trying to get on with my life, to work through my cocaine addiction and to live till i have a natural death. i know what it's going to take, and even though i have relapsed, i have climbed back up, dusted my a** off, and got back to the program.
i really would like to care more about you, but right now, you don't seem to want help.
it seems to me that you are headed for death, so why worry what medical problem will be next? what is the difference?
i hate to be ugly and say this, but i personally hope you are not draining your states medicaid program...i think it's extremely selfish of you to put the burden on the taxpayer. there are people out there like my grandson who needs proper health care because his mother is a widow, i don't think she is being selfish, she lacks the education to get a job that will pay well enough to support herself at this time. she does plan on taking advantage of the system to get a job or education that will enable her to take care of her family.
and that is where you are eventually headed...the money runs out...you steal, you get caught and go to prison where the state has to deal with your medical problems, that's about as selfish and stupid as you get.
you don't seem like you really care whether you live or die or not...so the next 10,000 you have, why don't you invest in two burials, its also selfish that you expect your family to bury you because you refuse to work a program, go to meetings and get clean.
i may be entirely wrong voicing my opinion, the other night i was worried sick about you, but you just seem to not care, so why should i?
i am trying to get on with my life, to work through my cocaine addiction and to live till i have a natural death. i know what it's going to take, and even though i have relapsed, i have climbed back up, dusted my a** off, and got back to the program.
i really would like to care more about you, but right now, you don't seem to want help.
i hope i didn't sound bitter, like a certain other person, i know crack is the most difficult thing for you to kick. i know i may be setting myself up for some criticism from my peers here, but i just couldn't help it.
Please read carefully what I have written above, I do feel that way but I am going to release it as a resentment and ask God to help you.
I will put you and your bf in my prayers...
just one more question, you said that you went to a dr the other day, didn't he tell you what was to come if you didn't stop?
Please read carefully what I have written above, I do feel that way but I am going to release it as a resentment and ask God to help you.
I will put you and your bf in my prayers...
just one more question, you said that you went to a dr the other day, didn't he tell you what was to come if you didn't stop?
you should try going to the message board again and going to the crack cocane site, they have many people there who are going through what you are, they might be able to help you. also crack reality.com please dont give up the fight............. good luck christine
