I am only 10 days clean, but of those 10 days I was in a detox treatment center. I am now on clonadine and feeling woozy, and all I can think about is how bored my life is without my pills. I have a huge addictions to pills. I was up to almost 30 a day. I know that if I do not stay sober I will die. I am terrified that for the rest of my life my thoughts will be centered on how I am lacking. I feel like I am lacking the high, the good feelings I would get taking all my pills. I am going to meetings and doing the program, but am angry that my insurance company discharged me early. I could have used the 28 days of rehab. I am just feeling alone today, and really do not know why!
I have tried to do things to take my mind off these cravings but nothing works, any advice?
Megan
Hi Megan..I am clean about 30 days now and still crave daily. What I can tell you is that it does lessen. I dont know if it ever goes away and thats why we stay in recovery, stay on boards, go to meetings etc. I have never been to a meeting myself..though I know I should.
I think calling your sponsor if the cravings get really bad would help. Also, do you have a local friend to lean on? We are here for you on the boards. Stay busy..idle hands are the devils workshop. SO TRUE. I find when I get a really bad craving..I push myself to go do something either physicla..or out of the house..and then once I am involved in that, I realize that the impulse is gone or very much lessened. I also write in a diary daily to let out my feelings.
If anyone else has any advice...I could sure use it as well. Congrats on your time clean..the insurance companies suck..if you feel you needed more time, they should have let you stay.Sorry to hear about that..Laurie
I think calling your sponsor if the cravings get really bad would help. Also, do you have a local friend to lean on? We are here for you on the boards. Stay busy..idle hands are the devils workshop. SO TRUE. I find when I get a really bad craving..I push myself to go do something either physicla..or out of the house..and then once I am involved in that, I realize that the impulse is gone or very much lessened. I also write in a diary daily to let out my feelings.
If anyone else has any advice...I could sure use it as well. Congrats on your time clean..the insurance companies suck..if you feel you needed more time, they should have let you stay.Sorry to hear about that..Laurie
Laurie,
Thanks, I am trying to stay busy, but this medicine the primary doc has me on lowers my blood pressure and I get winded very easily. I feel weak, but know that this shall pass. My problem is my short attention span. My mind wonders when I try to do stuff.
I called a friend that was in the detox unit with me and she calmed me down a bit, got me remembering that I need to work on me, and me is number one.
Funny how addicts can give great advice!
I will always listen to anyone who is in recovery, even if it is one more hour sober than I am, it is still one more hour that they have and can help me out with.
Thanks
Megan
Thanks, I am trying to stay busy, but this medicine the primary doc has me on lowers my blood pressure and I get winded very easily. I feel weak, but know that this shall pass. My problem is my short attention span. My mind wonders when I try to do stuff.
I called a friend that was in the detox unit with me and she calmed me down a bit, got me remembering that I need to work on me, and me is number one.
Funny how addicts can give great advice!
I will always listen to anyone who is in recovery, even if it is one more hour sober than I am, it is still one more hour that they have and can help me out with.
Thanks
Megan
If the meds the doc prescribed made you that weak..maybe he can lower the dosage? Or possibly your body needs time to adjust..its been through alot.
I had the chills and aches for 2 weeks after..it was hell.That restless leg syndrome..did you have that? That was worse than all the other wd's put together.Not sure why that happens!
Let's see what other advice we get here..I am with ya..I think after the physical wd's stop, the hardest part is the emotional..which is where I am at.I feel like I lost my friends..though they were truly my enemies..those damn white pills!
I had the chills and aches for 2 weeks after..it was hell.That restless leg syndrome..did you have that? That was worse than all the other wd's put together.Not sure why that happens!
Let's see what other advice we get here..I am with ya..I think after the physical wd's stop, the hardest part is the emotional..which is where I am at.I feel like I lost my friends..though they were truly my enemies..those damn white pills!
Oh the wonderful world of detoxing. I have the chills but am so hot, restlessness, aches, VERY SHAKY LEG, digestional problems, and to top off all that I am eating like a horse. I know that the last is because while I was on my pills I would not eat too much and my body is playing catch up. Sleeplessness is one of the worst.
Reading over the physical things I am going through makes me wonder the good of taking the pills. I destroyed my body for 3 years.
2 weeks you say, damn...... only a few more days to go!!!!!!!!!
YIPPEEEEEE
Megan
Reading over the physical things I am going through makes me wonder the good of taking the pills. I destroyed my body for 3 years.
2 weeks you say, damn...... only a few more days to go!!!!!!!!!
YIPPEEEEEE
Megan
And let's try to remember that we abused our bodies for many years and we cant get physically or emotionally well in a week or a month..its takes time so please..be kind to yourself! Stay in touch..I'll be here..
Almostme:
Bless your heart. YOU HAVE COME TO FAR TO GO BACK NOW! Please keep telling yourself that. We havent met yet but Im Mikaela and I would like to welcome you to the board and encourage you to post often or just read if that is all you feel like doing.
Are you familiar with over-the-counter meds to help you? Hot baths ect.?
Let me know if you need some otc relief and I will list the otc's for you.
God bless you for making the realization that continued use at your rate would eventually lead to death and doing something about it. I am very proud of you.
Please remember if you take one today it will probably be 30 a day by this time next week if you are like most addicts. Please dont let how far you have come already be in vain. The worse should be over by now, minus the head stuff.
Bless your heart. YOU HAVE COME TO FAR TO GO BACK NOW! Please keep telling yourself that. We havent met yet but Im Mikaela and I would like to welcome you to the board and encourage you to post often or just read if that is all you feel like doing.
Are you familiar with over-the-counter meds to help you? Hot baths ect.?
Let me know if you need some otc relief and I will list the otc's for you.
God bless you for making the realization that continued use at your rate would eventually lead to death and doing something about it. I am very proud of you.
Please remember if you take one today it will probably be 30 a day by this time next week if you are like most addicts. Please dont let how far you have come already be in vain. The worse should be over by now, minus the head stuff.
Thank you everyone!
I am going to just stay with the meds my primary doctor gave me, (I did cut it down a bit, instead of on clonapin every 3 hours I am taking at 4-5 hrs). I find I am less duh brained that way. I am also sleeping less during the day. I am getting ready for a meeting in 30 min so I will pop online after the meeting.
Thank you again,
sometimes it just makes me feel better to know that the symptoms are not made up in my head as an excuse to go out and take the "just one more pill"
Megan
I am going to just stay with the meds my primary doctor gave me, (I did cut it down a bit, instead of on clonapin every 3 hours I am taking at 4-5 hrs). I find I am less duh brained that way. I am also sleeping less during the day. I am getting ready for a meeting in 30 min so I will pop online after the meeting.
Thank you again,
sometimes it just makes me feel better to know that the symptoms are not made up in my head as an excuse to go out and take the "just one more pill"
Megan
Your honesty is appreciated. I am very glad you found the board. Speaking for others, we are ready willing and able to help you all we can.
Honesty is crutial to recovery, especially in this forum so you are starting out on the right foot!
Honesty is crutial to recovery, especially in this forum so you are starting out on the right foot!
Thanks Ms!
Im off to the meeting, have a good few hours!
Meg
Im off to the meeting, have a good few hours!
Meg
"Please remember if you take one today it will probably be 30 a day by this time next week if you are like most addicts. Please dont let how far you have come already be in vain. " - Mikaela
Megan - these are the truest words I've ever read. I stopped twice in the past 3 months, went through all of the withdrawal and all that, and each time after a few weeks once I was feeling good and ok and like myself again found myself missing the high and wanting to block out the stresses in my life, told myself I could just have a couple of pills once, and within a few weeks was (and currently am) back to the same old self-destructive behavior, taking more pills (up to 20 a day) than I had been before. You don't want to be where I am right now. For some of us staying clean is much harder than getting clean. You're doing great... keep it up.
Megan - these are the truest words I've ever read. I stopped twice in the past 3 months, went through all of the withdrawal and all that, and each time after a few weeks once I was feeling good and ok and like myself again found myself missing the high and wanting to block out the stresses in my life, told myself I could just have a couple of pills once, and within a few weeks was (and currently am) back to the same old self-destructive behavior, taking more pills (up to 20 a day) than I had been before. You don't want to be where I am right now. For some of us staying clean is much harder than getting clean. You're doing great... keep it up.
She is doing all the right things, thats for sure. Another success story in the making!
mRS,
these are your words.....
Honesty is crutial to recovery, especially in this forum so you are starting out on the right foot!
What a shame that you cant front up to all of your dishonesty,that is all I really want,is for you to front up to all of your lies.Then I could read your postings without feeling like you are lying.
Im sorry to butt in,but whenever Mrs posts,I feel that she leaves her self open to someone fronting her on her dishonesty,Mrs if you dont like someone calling you on your lies,why dont you get your old man to get one of his employees to give me a bashing,or maybe scrape my head along the pavement.
these are your words.....
Honesty is crutial to recovery, especially in this forum so you are starting out on the right foot!
What a shame that you cant front up to all of your dishonesty,that is all I really want,is for you to front up to all of your lies.Then I could read your postings without feeling like you are lying.
Im sorry to butt in,but whenever Mrs posts,I feel that she leaves her self open to someone fronting her on her dishonesty,Mrs if you dont like someone calling you on your lies,why dont you get your old man to get one of his employees to give me a bashing,or maybe scrape my head along the pavement.
