Hi everyone,
As most of you know, I'm having surgery on my ankle and its a pretty big one because it'll be about a two month recoop time and I'll have a metal rod in it, etc.
It is crutial that I stay completely off of it for at least the first week, just to the bathroom and back to bed on crutches. This has been stressed alot by my foot doc and regular doc.
Anyways, my regular doc knows me pretty well (except for my addiction) and decided, he says he's not trying to be mean or anything, but cut my prescription in half for the recovery. He said that knowing me, I'll be up before I'm suppose to be and if I have a little pain, it'll slow me down enough to do what I'm suppose to do for the recovery, does that make sense? It does to me somewhat but I'm a little nervous.
I'm trying to look at this as a good thing. I'll need them and be pretty limited, so I'll have to use them as prescribed. He postdated the script to June 1st too, surgery is on the second. So I can't get it before then, which is good.
This may be a turning point for me. Most of my reading material that I've collected for when I'm down is about recovery.
I'm also working on getting my tolerance down before the surgery so Im down to not much at all. I've been waiting to take a pill until I'm either in alot of pain, or until I feel really sick and then just one, not a handful like I used to.
Do you guys think all this is a good idea? I'm really scared and nervous about the surgery and after, but on the other hand, can't wait till its over. My ankle's in pretty bad shape and in the past week or so, I've had to go back to the crutches, even tho I'm in a walking cast.
Hey Roe, your plan sounds really positive and so does what you're doing right now. Congradulations on all your progress! I mean, wow, you could have really balked about less meds AFTER surgery!!! How many of us still in active addiction would have thrown a fit? lol, alot of us I bet. Good for you. You know the drill, Roe, give your meds to someone else to control for you and all that. I hope you have someone for that after surgery cause that's going to be tough. Good luck and you'll be in my prayers. Love, Kat
Hi Roe,
I'm praying for you. I know you see me type that alot, but it's true, I really do pray for everyone. And, I'll shoot up a special one for you. *wink* It's hard I know just having gone through it, but try not to project or have any expectations on how your gonna feel or not feel. For me, I'm usually wrong as I was with this latest surgery. Although I choose to not take meds, thats for me, I truely believe it's absolutely ok in situations such as yours.Thats exactly what the meds are made for and you shouldn't feel 1 bit guilty for needing them. Getting your tolerence down as best you can is a good idea, and having a plan for your home care is a must. I'd suggest not medecating yourself, stick to the way it says to take it. If ya' wanna chat while your laid up, you know my email addy, and I'd be happy to chat over the phone, which we were gonna do anyway a while back, but got side tracked for some reason, to be honest I really don't remember, but I'm sure it was silly. Anyway, wanted to post to ya' and say hi, good luck, and until the surgery day arrives, try not to think about it too much, stay in today.
Take care...............Bob
I'm praying for you. I know you see me type that alot, but it's true, I really do pray for everyone. And, I'll shoot up a special one for you. *wink* It's hard I know just having gone through it, but try not to project or have any expectations on how your gonna feel or not feel. For me, I'm usually wrong as I was with this latest surgery. Although I choose to not take meds, thats for me, I truely believe it's absolutely ok in situations such as yours.Thats exactly what the meds are made for and you shouldn't feel 1 bit guilty for needing them. Getting your tolerence down as best you can is a good idea, and having a plan for your home care is a must. I'd suggest not medecating yourself, stick to the way it says to take it. If ya' wanna chat while your laid up, you know my email addy, and I'd be happy to chat over the phone, which we were gonna do anyway a while back, but got side tracked for some reason, to be honest I really don't remember, but I'm sure it was silly. Anyway, wanted to post to ya' and say hi, good luck, and until the surgery day arrives, try not to think about it too much, stay in today.
Take care...............Bob
Thanks Kat,
I really want to say that after this surgery and recoup time, then thats it, I'll still have my shoulder and knee problems, but truthfully, I don't know how much I need, as i have always gotten as much as I could.
But I will say I'm going to try. I've come on here too many times saying I'm done, I quit, only to go back, so I won't say that as I don't know. But hopefully maybe, I can just quit after this and get by on other stuff. I know I don't take vitamins like I should, I don't eat like I should, etc. Maybe something to look into instead of taking narcotics all the time.
My friend Lisa will have the pills, she knows about me. And she lives right around the corner, our kids play together and she's going to help me with that. But you know, this may sound sick, but when I take them for the high, I like to get things done, wash windows, clean, go places, etc. so maybe I'll tend not to abuse because I'll just be in bed and thats a waste of a high to me if I don't get anything done. So even in my addict state, I'd rather not waste them by laying in bed. ya know?
Love ya Kat,
Roe
I really want to say that after this surgery and recoup time, then thats it, I'll still have my shoulder and knee problems, but truthfully, I don't know how much I need, as i have always gotten as much as I could.
But I will say I'm going to try. I've come on here too many times saying I'm done, I quit, only to go back, so I won't say that as I don't know. But hopefully maybe, I can just quit after this and get by on other stuff. I know I don't take vitamins like I should, I don't eat like I should, etc. Maybe something to look into instead of taking narcotics all the time.
My friend Lisa will have the pills, she knows about me. And she lives right around the corner, our kids play together and she's going to help me with that. But you know, this may sound sick, but when I take them for the high, I like to get things done, wash windows, clean, go places, etc. so maybe I'll tend not to abuse because I'll just be in bed and thats a waste of a high to me if I don't get anything done. So even in my addict state, I'd rather not waste them by laying in bed. ya know?
Love ya Kat,
Roe
Thanks Bob,
You've always been there for me. And I love ya for it. I'm glad your surgery went well. I've got all these recovery books. A little on called twenty four hours, an na one, one called big book and a few other ones, so maybe I'll call and we can talk about stuff I read if thats ok with you,
Love,
Roe
You've always been there for me. And I love ya for it. I'm glad your surgery went well. I've got all these recovery books. A little on called twenty four hours, an na one, one called big book and a few other ones, so maybe I'll call and we can talk about stuff I read if thats ok with you,
Love,
Roe
Hi,
Sure it's ok, if I say it, I mean it, that simple. Anytime. I love my Twenty Four Hours A Day book. I'm also re-reading my "Sing Me Back Home" Merle Haggard's Auto Biography, the first one. He wrote a second one a couple years ago I just finished, so I went back and started the first one again. lol I have no idea why I thought you'd be intrested in what I'm reading! lmao but there ya' have it. lol
Take care............Bob
Sure it's ok, if I say it, I mean it, that simple. Anytime. I love my Twenty Four Hours A Day book. I'm also re-reading my "Sing Me Back Home" Merle Haggard's Auto Biography, the first one. He wrote a second one a couple years ago I just finished, so I went back and started the first one again. lol I have no idea why I thought you'd be intrested in what I'm reading! lmao but there ya' have it. lol
Take care............Bob
Hey Roe, I admire your courage..what a tough situation huh? But I can see why they want to cut it in half..when you don't feel much pain, you are more likely to put more weight on it, than you normally would. And that would be bad, especially in that first week. I'd have to get someone to hold them for me, and give me my meds at the right time, and the right amount. I am not that strong yet! LOL..anyway, good luck to ya, and hope the surgery goes well. Take care, Kim
Hey Rosie-
Ya know, you are really sounding so positive now - of course you know that you definately have to not abuse any painkillers b4 surgery - cuz of course, what they give you afterward will not help you at all (not to scare you, but, yeah, maybe -I know you wont get offended by anything I say) - having your friend hold them is a great idea. I know when they are in my house it is impossible for me not to say to myself, well, just one more wont hurt.
I wish you all the best on the surgery, hon, and I'm glad your hubby is there with you to help with the kids. My kids last day is tomorrow (1/2 day)!!!
I went to the dr. today - good news and some not so good - I want to make a separate post to everyone about it, but I think I will wait til the a.m.
Ya know I love ya -
Marie
Ya know, you are really sounding so positive now - of course you know that you definately have to not abuse any painkillers b4 surgery - cuz of course, what they give you afterward will not help you at all (not to scare you, but, yeah, maybe -I know you wont get offended by anything I say) - having your friend hold them is a great idea. I know when they are in my house it is impossible for me not to say to myself, well, just one more wont hurt.
I wish you all the best on the surgery, hon, and I'm glad your hubby is there with you to help with the kids. My kids last day is tomorrow (1/2 day)!!!
I went to the dr. today - good news and some not so good - I want to make a separate post to everyone about it, but I think I will wait til the a.m.
Ya know I love ya -
Marie
hello sweety im wishing you a good surgry ...and remember you can do it ...IM happy that you sound so positive I belieave if I took the pills even if I were in bed all day I would have a party in the bed with food tv ect ...so it would not work with me ...you sound like your doing great angel... take care love poopie
Oh Well......................tried to offer my support - dont know what I did, but f*ck it
Marie,
Whats up? You ok?..........Bob
Whats up? You ok?..........Bob
Marie,
I'm so sorry, I just re-read this thread this minute and saw your posts of support to me. I'm sorry I didn't respond till now. I didnt see it.
Can you email me your number again? I lost it in the move. I want to talk to you, we have alot to catch up on. I'm worried about you with everything thats been thrown at you lately.
I'd be scared to death, but you are a survivor and I know you'll be okay. Your a strong person, and you are very much loved by many, email me and I'll call you ok? I'm going to lay down for a bit, but I'll call ya tonight when the kids settle down. I've been jumping around here and haven't read everything. So much goes on when your absent for even a little while.
Anyways, lets talk soon.....
Love and miss you,
Roe
xoxoxox
I'm so sorry, I just re-read this thread this minute and saw your posts of support to me. I'm sorry I didn't respond till now. I didnt see it.
Can you email me your number again? I lost it in the move. I want to talk to you, we have alot to catch up on. I'm worried about you with everything thats been thrown at you lately.
I'd be scared to death, but you are a survivor and I know you'll be okay. Your a strong person, and you are very much loved by many, email me and I'll call you ok? I'm going to lay down for a bit, but I'll call ya tonight when the kids settle down. I've been jumping around here and haven't read everything. So much goes on when your absent for even a little while.
Anyways, lets talk soon.....
Love and miss you,
Roe
xoxoxox
Roe,
The first thing that came into my mind after reading your post about your Dr was... blessing in disguise....
Regards,
Tom
The first thing that came into my mind after reading your post about your Dr was... blessing in disguise....
Regards,
Tom
Yea Tom,
Your right. I'm nervous, but this is probably going to be a blessing. I mean I KNOW I'll need them and am going to be really limited, so I don't think I'll be abusing them, in fact, I'll need them after surgery more than ever. And beleive me, I'm used to taking twice as much (most times more than that).
I've been working on turning my whole thinking process around, have about eight days to do it. I'm also going to have my husband move the computer from the den to the bedroom so I can come on and talk to you guys. I wish I had a laptop, but I have alot of room in the bedroom and I can put it close to me.
Thank God for the big bedroom, Tommy already moved his little desk in there so that he can draw me pictures and lay in bed with me to watch movies. His knee is doing good, I re-dress it everyday and next week he gets his stitches out. Last night was his first shower. For the first forty-eight hours I had to sponge bath him and he hated it. Thank God that didn't happen after my surgery, there's no way I wouldn't have not been there with him. Anyways kiddo, hope things are good with you and I'll be talkin to ya along the way.
Roe
PS: Alex, my eleven year old moved his 13"tv and PS2 in my room too. And the day of surgery is the last day of school. (I bought some earplugs)
Your right. I'm nervous, but this is probably going to be a blessing. I mean I KNOW I'll need them and am going to be really limited, so I don't think I'll be abusing them, in fact, I'll need them after surgery more than ever. And beleive me, I'm used to taking twice as much (most times more than that).
I've been working on turning my whole thinking process around, have about eight days to do it. I'm also going to have my husband move the computer from the den to the bedroom so I can come on and talk to you guys. I wish I had a laptop, but I have alot of room in the bedroom and I can put it close to me.
Thank God for the big bedroom, Tommy already moved his little desk in there so that he can draw me pictures and lay in bed with me to watch movies. His knee is doing good, I re-dress it everyday and next week he gets his stitches out. Last night was his first shower. For the first forty-eight hours I had to sponge bath him and he hated it. Thank God that didn't happen after my surgery, there's no way I wouldn't have not been there with him. Anyways kiddo, hope things are good with you and I'll be talkin to ya along the way.
Roe
PS: Alex, my eleven year old moved his 13"tv and PS2 in my room too. And the day of surgery is the last day of school. (I bought some earplugs)
Roe,
I know your nervous, that comes with the territory, we as humans tend to think things will be worse than they turn out to be, hopefully this is the case for you.
Sounds like you will be recoupin with the whole family around, thats great! If it was me, I would find a PS2 now that you and your son can play together. 6 year olds draw the BEST pictures... Tommy made a family portrait that was so funny looking we had it made into t-shirts, coffee mugs, and mouse pads...lol..
Best Regards,
Tom
I know your nervous, that comes with the territory, we as humans tend to think things will be worse than they turn out to be, hopefully this is the case for you.
Sounds like you will be recoupin with the whole family around, thats great! If it was me, I would find a PS2 now that you and your son can play together. 6 year olds draw the BEST pictures... Tommy made a family portrait that was so funny looking we had it made into t-shirts, coffee mugs, and mouse pads...lol..
Best Regards,
Tom
Good advice Tom,
I thought about your last post. I tend to worry too much anyway. About everything, yesterday I thought to myself "I don't even have a will" Not that I have anything, but its only foot surgery, how retarded is that?
Also, about the boys moving they're stuff in, I thought they'd get in my hair, but your right, why not have fun with them, I could learn a couple ps2 games. And six yr olds do draw the funniest pics. If they start fighting tho, they're dad's!
Love,
Roe
I thought about your last post. I tend to worry too much anyway. About everything, yesterday I thought to myself "I don't even have a will" Not that I have anything, but its only foot surgery, how retarded is that?
Also, about the boys moving they're stuff in, I thought they'd get in my hair, but your right, why not have fun with them, I could learn a couple ps2 games. And six yr olds do draw the funniest pics. If they start fighting tho, they're dad's!
Love,
Roe
