I am just sitting here looking at this prescription for methadone for my husband.. I want so bad to go to the drugstore to get it filled I have had it for about 30 min.. wondering if I was strong enough to do this myself and not steal some of them and I know that I am not.. I just called my daughter to tell her that she needed to come straight home from work and get this prescription and go and have it filled, because I am too tempted.. It has really brought my first really hard cravings on since I have quit.... I am scared I am going to leave before she gets back and do it myself so I am trying to keep my self busy till she get here and takes it out of my hands...
Can you call one of the people you know from the Program?
Rachel Thanks for replying I had not thought about that.. My daughter just walked in the door though and is going to go and get them filled for me.. I dont know why this hit me so hard.. I have not had many cravings since I quit but when I saw this prescription I just went nuts.. LOL..
Just remember, this prescription is not for YOU, it's for your husband...
I wish you luck in resisting this temptation.
I wish you luck in resisting this temptation.
I didn't know they filled prescriptions for methadone at pharmacies? Or are you writing from another country?
Janet Matt thanks for the reply... No I live in Georgia and I guess they do filled them at the pharmacy I called when he brought the prescription to me and got a price on it to see if we could afford to get it filled today.. I also asked the pharmacist if my hubby was taking these would it be hard on him when he had to come off of them and he said the Dr.. had him on such a low dose that he should be fine.. I just know that I cannot take them or any other pain prescription to have it filled when he has gotten others it did not freak me out that bad.. but for some reason this being methadone my mind went wacky and my addict side started screaming oboy oboy
This may work - you may want to think about it.
If it won't be a while before your daughter gets there, take that 'script to the nearest pharmacy with a drive-thru - they won't let you wait there while it's being filled and leave. Let your husband pick it up - or your daughter.
Just a thought. If it's too hard to go near a pharmacy, afraid you may go in, then don't even consider it.
I hope s'thing works for you.
My prayers are with you. I know how powerful those pieces of paper are.
Love, Jean
If it won't be a while before your daughter gets there, take that 'script to the nearest pharmacy with a drive-thru - they won't let you wait there while it's being filled and leave. Let your husband pick it up - or your daughter.
Just a thought. If it's too hard to go near a pharmacy, afraid you may go in, then don't even consider it.
I hope s'thing works for you.
My prayers are with you. I know how powerful those pieces of paper are.
Love, Jean
Jean, Thank you my daughter just left with the prescription.. Thank God... I was afraid I was going to go runninng out of here with it like a banshee.. LOL...Yes it is crazy what effect those prescription have on us...
Paula,
I'm glad she came and took it out of the house. As addicts, its hard to trust ourselves. Its good that you fought it and came here and talked about it. Have you got someone in your life that you can talk to about this? I have someone who keeps me accountable and it really helps.
And yes, pharmacies fill methadone scripts. We used to fill 240 at a time. It can't be called in though. Patients have to physically bring in CII narcotic prescriptions. Unless your a hospice patient, then it can be faxed.
DeNae
I'm glad she came and took it out of the house. As addicts, its hard to trust ourselves. Its good that you fought it and came here and talked about it. Have you got someone in your life that you can talk to about this? I have someone who keeps me accountable and it really helps.
And yes, pharmacies fill methadone scripts. We used to fill 240 at a time. It can't be called in though. Patients have to physically bring in CII narcotic prescriptions. Unless your a hospice patient, then it can be faxed.
DeNae
Paula, How and why was that prescription in your hands? How did the safety nets fail?
Regards,
Tom
Regards,
Tom
Tom, My husband always comes in when he goes to the dr. and hands me the prescription.. and I usually have no problem giving them to my daughter to have them filled.. but today was different somehow, it set off a big craving... I need to tell him not to give them to me any more to give them directly to my daughter should have done that before now..
Denae... Yes I have my sister and of course aa, this just smacked me hard for some reason today.... How are you doing?
WOW Paula I could tell just by your writing that you had a BAD one.You say this is the first since quitting?Well if thays true give yourself alot of credit.I really dont know if I wasnt on the Sub if I could resist.What you did was hard but dont you feel alittle stronger?You should.Its these battles that we will have to face with our addictions but for everytime we make the right choice the stronger we get,Good Job & I hope your ok & that feeling passes fast....mj
Paula,
Quick, take a walk, jump rope, drink water, call a friend, just get away from the situation for awhile .....Remove yourself have some icecream........
xoxo.Shel
Quick, take a walk, jump rope, drink water, call a friend, just get away from the situation for awhile .....Remove yourself have some icecream........
xoxo.Shel
Paula,
Good idea about having your husband giving them directly to your daughter.. and good for you for closing another avenue of the source of pills.
Regards,
Tom
Good idea about having your husband giving them directly to your daughter.. and good for you for closing another avenue of the source of pills.
Regards,
Tom
Hi Paula, this is unfortunatly one of those situations that will come up from time to time for people like me and you.
After fourteen months, I still cannot and do not go get scripts filled for my husband. I don't want them in my hands or within my line of vision. I refuse to accompany him to the dr as well, although he still gets pissy about that.
Odds are fair that I could handle filling a perscription, but I'm still not doing it. Fair isn't good enough for me.
Plus I don't want to put myself through all rotten thoughts that tend to rear their ugly heads at times like that.
Out of sight, out of mind.
You could tell your husband what I've told mine. Don't show me or tell me or in any way let me see anything involving your drug use. While I still see some things because I'm in tune to that sort of thing, at least some of the major temptations are gone.
Sharon suggested to me a long time ago to have a serious talk with my husband. She had a unique word for it but I can't recall it. (it will come to me at three am)
It wasn't a nice conversation for him but it felt good to me. Anytime I take charge of my disease, I feel empowered.
Good luck.
Love, Kat
After fourteen months, I still cannot and do not go get scripts filled for my husband. I don't want them in my hands or within my line of vision. I refuse to accompany him to the dr as well, although he still gets pissy about that.
Odds are fair that I could handle filling a perscription, but I'm still not doing it. Fair isn't good enough for me.
Plus I don't want to put myself through all rotten thoughts that tend to rear their ugly heads at times like that.
Out of sight, out of mind.
You could tell your husband what I've told mine. Don't show me or tell me or in any way let me see anything involving your drug use. While I still see some things because I'm in tune to that sort of thing, at least some of the major temptations are gone.
Sharon suggested to me a long time ago to have a serious talk with my husband. She had a unique word for it but I can't recall it. (it will come to me at three am)
It wasn't a nice conversation for him but it felt good to me. Anytime I take charge of my disease, I feel empowered.
Good luck.
Love, Kat
hiya paula - sammy here, a grateful recovered addict.
how about a shift in your perception?
whenever i would have a craving to use, instead of fearing it, i learned to welcome them. all a craving is, is a signal that there is some underlying issue that i need to address. to use was one way that i would cope with those issues; however, when i made the decision to embrace recovery, with that decision came the effort i wanted to take to uncover new ways of learning how to cope with all that baggage/issues. if i don't use, and get down to the brass tacks of addressing what it is that made me perceive the need a drug to cope, my spirit awakes.
so good to see you are in AA. did you call your sponsor? what step are you working?
hugs and tons of encouragement to you.
xoxoxoxo
sammy
p.s. a miracle is a shift in our perception from a negative to a positive - sounds like from your additional messages in this thread you are a miracle!
p.s.s. my problems are as large as i allow them to be. when you find peace within yourself, you become the kind of person who can live at peace with others. inner peace is not found by staying on the surface of life, or by attempting to escape from life through any means. inner peace is found by facing life squarely, solving its problems, and delving as far beneath its surface as possible to discover its verities and realities.
how about a shift in your perception?
whenever i would have a craving to use, instead of fearing it, i learned to welcome them. all a craving is, is a signal that there is some underlying issue that i need to address. to use was one way that i would cope with those issues; however, when i made the decision to embrace recovery, with that decision came the effort i wanted to take to uncover new ways of learning how to cope with all that baggage/issues. if i don't use, and get down to the brass tacks of addressing what it is that made me perceive the need a drug to cope, my spirit awakes.
so good to see you are in AA. did you call your sponsor? what step are you working?
hugs and tons of encouragement to you.
xoxoxoxo
sammy
p.s. a miracle is a shift in our perception from a negative to a positive - sounds like from your additional messages in this thread you are a miracle!
p.s.s. my problems are as large as i allow them to be. when you find peace within yourself, you become the kind of person who can live at peace with others. inner peace is not found by staying on the surface of life, or by attempting to escape from life through any means. inner peace is found by facing life squarely, solving its problems, and delving as far beneath its surface as possible to discover its verities and realities.
Hey Sammy
I Just wanted to tell you how much your posts help ME........You just have it going on girl.........How are you feeling??
Love Dottie
I Just wanted to tell you how much your posts help ME........You just have it going on girl.........How are you feeling??
Love Dottie
Sammy.,,, No I did not call my sponser in fact I dont have one right now, I do have a temp. sponser thought but could not get in touch with her I just held on till my daughter got home... and took the script to get it filled... I have not gone to a meeting this week and I told myself to get my but back there quick.. I need to stay close to aa... Love ya
