Yo, Danie what's going on?
Hope you are alright......hoping your boyfriend is O.K. as well.
Just checking on ya.
Hey Bryn,
Ya know what? Things are s***ty. I can't f***ing stand my life. I knew he wasn't normal yesterday so I questioned him of course and he told me he popped a morphine pill. WHAT THE f***??!! Your trying to quit dope so you just pop something else? (if he was even telling the truth) Obviously he could give two s***s about me because I told him I am done if he shows up high. I am so sick of this. I guess the only thing that will help him is to get arrested. Losing his job didn't do the trick. Thanks for asking. Funny how strangers could care more about me than he does.
HUGS
D
Ya know what? Things are s***ty. I can't f***ing stand my life. I knew he wasn't normal yesterday so I questioned him of course and he told me he popped a morphine pill. WHAT THE f***??!! Your trying to quit dope so you just pop something else? (if he was even telling the truth) Obviously he could give two s***s about me because I told him I am done if he shows up high. I am so sick of this. I guess the only thing that will help him is to get arrested. Losing his job didn't do the trick. Thanks for asking. Funny how strangers could care more about me than he does.
HUGS
D
Dani,
It dont mean he dont love you or give a sh*t. I have often asked the same questions but its so difficult for the user/addict. The dont do it to hurt anyone they just do it cos they need to. Its like medicine. As soon as they take it they think everything is better. It doesnt matter what they loose, they will continue to use. Most addicts loose everything before they decide to give up. I do know one thing, they can only help themselves regardless of who they are with, how much they love someone and what they have got. It doesnt mean to say that you have to stay with him though. I only chose to do so because of my daughter and the fact that he is going to try coming off the gear because although addicts do tell you what you want to hear he really is convincing that he wants to stop and is sick of having to use just to get out of bed in the morning...I do know one thing....he has once chance and one chance only. If at first he doesnt suceed, he can f*ck off and find someone else!!
Take care hun and keep ya chin up. Thinking of ya..no it aint easy.
Love BunnyRocker xx
It dont mean he dont love you or give a sh*t. I have often asked the same questions but its so difficult for the user/addict. The dont do it to hurt anyone they just do it cos they need to. Its like medicine. As soon as they take it they think everything is better. It doesnt matter what they loose, they will continue to use. Most addicts loose everything before they decide to give up. I do know one thing, they can only help themselves regardless of who they are with, how much they love someone and what they have got. It doesnt mean to say that you have to stay with him though. I only chose to do so because of my daughter and the fact that he is going to try coming off the gear because although addicts do tell you what you want to hear he really is convincing that he wants to stop and is sick of having to use just to get out of bed in the morning...I do know one thing....he has once chance and one chance only. If at first he doesnt suceed, he can f*ck off and find someone else!!
Take care hun and keep ya chin up. Thinking of ya..no it aint easy.
Love BunnyRocker xx
Danie,
Bunny is right......has nuttin to do with love.......it's heroin........can't really explain it to someone ain't been there......unfortunately you're IN IT though.
Well, I was going to say if he made it to help somebody do something he's got something......Danie, not that you want to POLICE him, but how ya said he never left the bed......only to use the toilet........well Danie welcome to the world of "I will scam your a*s even more now that ya gave me an ultimatum"....I mean maybe he was trying to kick and he did lay there and all that......kicking ya go NUTS......ya get jumpy........sleep while in withdrawl well he's a living miracle then........not saying it ain't possible, BUT I ain't ever known a heroin addict kicking could sleep.........ever.
Danie, my dad was a cop..........for over thirty years......he locked me in a room.
Threw a bucket in.....didn't trust me to go to the bathroom......no phone period.
You got a phone....somebody out there got the dope.......well about two weeks into that kick.......he had to take me to the Doctor or dentist......I snuck the phone real quick......had my old freaky heroin addled boyfriend stand outside that office......well a ways over......he TAPED the bags of dope.....TAPED them
to the inside of a pizza circular......and walked past me......dropped it and Ipicked it up.....with my dad right there.
So, unfortunately what ya see sometimes is not what you're getting.....a heroin addict will jump in Niagra Falls.......to get that dope.
Now what's all that mean? Means it's on you now.......it's now all about YOU!
How you going to handle this........how much longer ya wanna live that way?
I'm sorry sweetie.......sorry you're dealing with that, but you got YOU and us.
How ya going to move forward....what would your mom do in that situation?
How would she advise ya? Ya think?
Bunny is right......has nuttin to do with love.......it's heroin........can't really explain it to someone ain't been there......unfortunately you're IN IT though.
Well, I was going to say if he made it to help somebody do something he's got something......Danie, not that you want to POLICE him, but how ya said he never left the bed......only to use the toilet........well Danie welcome to the world of "I will scam your a*s even more now that ya gave me an ultimatum"....I mean maybe he was trying to kick and he did lay there and all that......kicking ya go NUTS......ya get jumpy........sleep while in withdrawl well he's a living miracle then........not saying it ain't possible, BUT I ain't ever known a heroin addict kicking could sleep.........ever.
Danie, my dad was a cop..........for over thirty years......he locked me in a room.
Threw a bucket in.....didn't trust me to go to the bathroom......no phone period.
You got a phone....somebody out there got the dope.......well about two weeks into that kick.......he had to take me to the Doctor or dentist......I snuck the phone real quick......had my old freaky heroin addled boyfriend stand outside that office......well a ways over......he TAPED the bags of dope.....TAPED them
to the inside of a pizza circular......and walked past me......dropped it and Ipicked it up.....with my dad right there.
So, unfortunately what ya see sometimes is not what you're getting.....a heroin addict will jump in Niagra Falls.......to get that dope.
Now what's all that mean? Means it's on you now.......it's now all about YOU!
How you going to handle this........how much longer ya wanna live that way?
I'm sorry sweetie.......sorry you're dealing with that, but you got YOU and us.
How ya going to move forward....what would your mom do in that situation?
How would she advise ya? Ya think?
I just wanted to add don't take it personal "him getting high" HONESTLY it has nothing to do with not loving you. I loved my kids dearly I KNEW i was going to be drug tested I could not stop..... even knowing getting high would cause them to be removed. I don't even go to NA or AA but this brings me comfort when in bad situations: grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
it's simple fix what you can what you can't accept it for what it is and move on. You already know you can't fix him you can fix what you do and what you feel about the situation. You can let it not bring you down.
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
it's simple fix what you can what you can't accept it for what it is and move on. You already know you can't fix him you can fix what you do and what you feel about the situation. You can let it not bring you down.
wow, your words hit home tonight......sat and watched the hockey game tonight with my dear friend Lori (New Jersey Devils) and enjoyed myself. she brought her kids over. I really needed a friend. but when i try to talk to her about this stuff, she freaks out. tonight she said to me, "Dan, your such a good person, I can't believe that your with him". that really hurt. i can't stop loving him just because he has a mental disorder! what if i had cancer and was doped up all the time? would he leave me?? how do you cut off someone you love?
Bunny, your right. I KNOW he WANTS to stop. we have both cried to each other and had very deep and spiritual moments over this. like you said, he SWEARS he hates his life and his dependency on the gear, but it's like medicine. how do you STOP needing it though?
BRYN, your last sentence hit me right in my gut. My Mom died so young. I was 22 when I lost her. (now am pushing 40). she was my best friend. i think she would really like my boyfriend as a person, but would not tolerate me being miserable. she was the type of person that would take him away and lock herself up with him until he got clean.....no matter what happened. she was that type of selfless person. anything to help someone she cared about.
thanks guys, i appreciate every stroke of your keyboards.....it means ALOT to me.
Bunny, your right. I KNOW he WANTS to stop. we have both cried to each other and had very deep and spiritual moments over this. like you said, he SWEARS he hates his life and his dependency on the gear, but it's like medicine. how do you STOP needing it though?
BRYN, your last sentence hit me right in my gut. My Mom died so young. I was 22 when I lost her. (now am pushing 40). she was my best friend. i think she would really like my boyfriend as a person, but would not tolerate me being miserable. she was the type of person that would take him away and lock herself up with him until he got clean.....no matter what happened. she was that type of selfless person. anything to help someone she cared about.
thanks guys, i appreciate every stroke of your keyboards.....it means ALOT to me.
