I have a little over 4 months, almost had a slip last night but I'm okay. Was taking 10 norcos and 4 xanax bars a day (roughly). Tried to quit on my own so many times. I gave up and thought that i would die addicted, and was okay with that. Thinking that I would never be normal or okay with myself again was the sadness and desperation (powerlessness). Made the last ditch effort and quit my job, did outpatient rehab etc. That first month was bizarre, it just flew by and no obsessions to use--but I did think I was insane, but thats the detox. I was given lithium --I know that I am not manic depressive, I just couldn't relax and sleep. Not on that anymore, just trazodone to sleep (its non-addictive)
Serenity my friend--it comes back.
hi tak,
i think we all have our down days. at least i know that i do. i know for me especially when i am having one of those days i hit an extra meeting and after i get with people in the program and go for coffee etc.. to talk and vent just how i am feeling and ask for advice/suggestions. if i have to and there has been times i had to be with recovering addicts in aa/na all day.when those not so good days hit me it has always made me feel alot better when at a meeting i say i am having a ruff day and i need help. anytime i have done this i always have a good response. i do alot outside the meetings with other recovering addicts.they have become my family. it sure has helped me.
hang in there and maybe getting with a sponsor or call someone in the porgram may help you. just a thought.
take care
i think we all have our down days. at least i know that i do. i know for me especially when i am having one of those days i hit an extra meeting and after i get with people in the program and go for coffee etc.. to talk and vent just how i am feeling and ask for advice/suggestions. if i have to and there has been times i had to be with recovering addicts in aa/na all day.when those not so good days hit me it has always made me feel alot better when at a meeting i say i am having a ruff day and i need help. anytime i have done this i always have a good response. i do alot outside the meetings with other recovering addicts.they have become my family. it sure has helped me.
hang in there and maybe getting with a sponsor or call someone in the porgram may help you. just a thought.
take care