Kat and Rae, I lost it because of a medical condition I have. HOWEVER, I feel much better. thats why I started on this stupid pills to begin with. It's funny, you look at pictures of me in April and pictures of me in September, and it looks like a completely different person. I met friends on the street who did not even recognize me. I mean, I should of lost 15 pounds probably..now, I'm gaining weight again, feeling stronger (still have pain though) and going to stick to my normal 180..I was at 195...gained a lot back already...I'll SOON be back to my fighting weight..hehe..but droping from 195 to 125 for a guy who is 5'11 is nuts..I gained back about 35 pounds so far..another 15 and I am good to go..
danny, I just read some of the Ashton Manual, why didnt you follow a taper schedule when you quit the xanax? Or were you not aware of it at the time, seems like it would've been a lot easier on you.
Oh so it wasn't a diet... Sorry to hear the medical condition made you lose that much weight. I know it is hard to gain weight as it is to lose it. Many people talk and talk about gaining weight but not a lot of options for those who want to gain it. My ex-husband of 8 years had Crohn's disease and 2 surgeries later,still had it. He lost a lot of weight to and felt horrible about himself. He is at a good weight now but it took him a long time to get there.. So I know the struggle you went through to gain the weight you wanted. It sucks to be too skinny and try to eat a lot but your stomach is so small that you get full fast. Here's hoping you get back up to the weight you want!!!!!!:-) Rae
Rae, I'm well on my way. Rode 10 miles on the bike today and ate a lot of meat, so I'm finally building some muscle like I used to have..I used to pedal all over the Tampa area whem I lived there...it was SOOOOO nice..'cept the gators..
Thanks for all the posts. Today, I really needed to hear it.
I am getting sick. My throat hurts, and I almost feel achy. This is sooooo stupid, but I am trying to tell myself that I deserve the pills, because I am truley sick. It is so strange how your mind works.
I keep telling myself that I have been sick so many times before, when I didn't even know the effects of pills. So I should be able to get through this.
Normal people don't get a cold, and expect pain killers. They get antibiotics.
So, my plan is: if I get sick enough to go to the Doc (ear pain, coughing up green stuff, ect) then I will go to my old doc, who NEVER gives out pain meds. The most you will get from him is 800mg ib-profen. And that is pushing it. lol
Obviously I don't see him much, but I think it's time to start again.
So again, thanks for the post. This is day 15, and I am trying very hard.
-britney
I am getting sick. My throat hurts, and I almost feel achy. This is sooooo stupid, but I am trying to tell myself that I deserve the pills, because I am truley sick. It is so strange how your mind works.
I keep telling myself that I have been sick so many times before, when I didn't even know the effects of pills. So I should be able to get through this.
Normal people don't get a cold, and expect pain killers. They get antibiotics.
So, my plan is: if I get sick enough to go to the Doc (ear pain, coughing up green stuff, ect) then I will go to my old doc, who NEVER gives out pain meds. The most you will get from him is 800mg ib-profen. And that is pushing it. lol
Obviously I don't see him much, but I think it's time to start again.
So again, thanks for the post. This is day 15, and I am trying very hard.
-britney
Hey Brit,
Hope you feel better........not the greatest time to be sick.
Way to go on 15 days! Take care of yourself.......
Tina
Hope you feel better........not the greatest time to be sick.
Way to go on 15 days! Take care of yourself.......
Tina
Thanks Tina. I really think I need to go to an NA meeting, but it isn't until 10:30pm, and I am so tired. I should probably just get some sleep. Besides, it is a smoking meeting. I smoke, but not too much when I am sick. Being around all that probably would make things worse.
-britney
-britney
Day 15,,,, YOU GO GIRL!!! Know what you mean about the sore throat thing. I am getting sick too. Yes that is a great choice going to a doctor that will give you 800mg motrin. That is what you need plus a good antibiotic.Hopefully you will feel better tomorrow and won't need to go at all... I am so proud of you.... You are a great inspiration for all of us..I just love hearing from you and knowing that you are feeling a little better after 15 long days. It will get easier and the cravings will slowly fade... Keep up the good work.... Rachel
Thanks Rachel. I am really having a bad night. I have been very short with my son (who has been sick the past 4 days), and my husband is not even talking to me. oops.
I don't know what it is. Maybe it is because I am sick, or maybe it is because I want pills. Maybe it is because I think I deserve them, and I am really mad at myself??? or possibly a mix of all??
Anyway, maybe I will go to burger king and get a milkshake?
what do you think.
-britney
I don't know what it is. Maybe it is because I am sick, or maybe it is because I want pills. Maybe it is because I think I deserve them, and I am really mad at myself??? or possibly a mix of all??
Anyway, maybe I will go to burger king and get a milkshake?
what do you think.
-britney
Danny since you love Florida sooo much why don't you move back??? Or why did you live should I say???? Weather here now in December is wonderful. high 70's low 80's during the day!!! I know exactly where you lived in Palm Harbor. I am in Port Richey we were practically neighbors. You couldn't pay me money to move back up north. I love to visit Ohio but to live No thanks... Glad to hear you are building back your muscles... If I rode a bike that many miles I would have a heart attack..LOL I thought I would die when I was on the stair master the other night for 15 minutes,LOL Rae
Brit.....comfort food sounds great.......get to the meeting if you can, but don't beat yourself up about anything you do right now. Just don't take any pills and you have won half the battle. Hug and kiss your son and tell him you love him........also tell him you aren't feeling good just like him.......he will understand.
Feel better........
Tina
PS Whats up with the oops.........
Feel better........
Tina
PS Whats up with the oops.........
No you don't deserve pills... Just think about day 1 and day 2 I know you don't want to go back there again. If you took a pill it would be like everything you have accomplished so far was a waste. So STOP THINKING ABOUT IT,go to burger king and get us both a milkshake. I want a strawberry one. I love the shakes from steak n shake. Do you have one there? What state are you in anyway?? I am in the tampa area. Anyway yes go get you a shake and go kiss your husband and your son... Have a great night!! Rachel
Mistyeyes, great minds think alike. You and I were writing her about the same advice,read what I wrote.....LOL Hope you are doing good this evening? Rae
Seen the times we posted a minute apart.......I am doing good tonight all is quiet, all my big and little monsters are in bed sleeping peacefully.........Bed time is mommies favorite time of day........lol
Yes I agree. I love the peace and quite when my kids are in bed,even though I am so tired I can barely enjoy the time I have before I fall asleep. My 8 month old fell asleep ay 7pm tonight and she will probably keep me up in the middle of the night now..oh well..it's all worth it... Take care! Rachel
I know all about that.......the 17month old isn't feeling real well I am sure she will be in bed with the hubby and I at some point tonight!
shhhh....I am hiding in my room, away from the 8 kids in the living room...two neighbor kids came over as well...they asked me to make them juice!! lol...8 cups of juice! I wonder how people feed large families..
Still......LMFAO
8 kids sounds like my house.........
8 kids sounds like my house.........
Britney:
I know what it's like to think you need pills for, well, just about any ache or pain. I get a headache and think I need Morphine. It seems like your NA meetings are few and far between. Have you ever thought about going to AA? They are more readily available here in Los Angeles and there is tons of sobriety in those rooms. Just a suggestion, most people are cross-addicted nowadays. I started in NA but now only go to AA.
Love,
Rachel
I know what it's like to think you need pills for, well, just about any ache or pain. I get a headache and think I need Morphine. It seems like your NA meetings are few and far between. Have you ever thought about going to AA? They are more readily available here in Los Angeles and there is tons of sobriety in those rooms. Just a suggestion, most people are cross-addicted nowadays. I started in NA but now only go to AA.
Love,
Rachel
Hi Racheal, good morning to u and all and going to NA really worked for me, i call it a 60 min miracle!, it really works if ya work it and trully wasnt it, just some advise from me to you , cant hurt, please take care, mitzy
