Hey guys
Today is day 12 off being on the hydros. It was funny too, fed ex had called me. There was a package there, i went down, it was a refill of 120 15mg/200 compounded meds I used ot get. I said reject it! I walked out.
I am down to 5mgs of sub, started 12 days agao on 16mgs weaning down. il be off within a week or so. I had a drea of my ex girl friend last night. Im still crying right now. Here i am this young 28 year old guy and I have such low self esteem right now i cant even imagine having another special girl come in my life. I mean it would be soo wonderful. I am off this week from work and all i do is study for my tests for school., I feel like such a loser, on weekends i stay in my basemwent and do nothing, i dont ever see how i wil find a girl whom i care about very much ever again. Maybe i was better off on the pills, at least it numbed this pain.
Red, you know that you are NOT better off with the pills...life can be painful at times, no matter what...
You are doing great! Even though it may not feel like it!
You are doing great! Even though it may not feel like it!
hey reddog
down to 5mgs---thats great! youre going in the right direction. just take baby steps and do one thing at a time. get clean first, then the chics and entertainment will roll in. Have you tried going to the gym or any type of exercise? if not, try it. Youre doing good, give yourself some credit.
down to 5mgs---thats great! youre going in the right direction. just take baby steps and do one thing at a time. get clean first, then the chics and entertainment will roll in. Have you tried going to the gym or any type of exercise? if not, try it. Youre doing good, give yourself some credit.
Hey Red;
I've been there Buddy, My GF of six plus years broke my heart at 28. It was horrible, I felt like everything good in my life was taken away, all my self-esteem was wrapped up in our relationship, my heart physically ached! Every song on the radio took on great significance, and seemed to speak to me, they apparently were all about breaking up...It sucked
At the time I was not abusing drugs, so I self medicated with extreme exercise....I ran like Forrest Gump....I competed in marathon's for three years!
Two years after she dumped me I met my wife, up to that point I too felt no one could compare, we have been together now 20 yrs, and I couldn't be more in love.
You will be fine Red, it will take time and seem like eternity, heart break is part of life, unfortunitly you are concurrently dealing with addiction....THAT is a b****!
You are greiving two loses....your girl and your DOC, you WILL get over the girl, the addiction can kill you.
Hang in there....it will get better....rigth now you are being forged in the fire
Paul
I've been there Buddy, My GF of six plus years broke my heart at 28. It was horrible, I felt like everything good in my life was taken away, all my self-esteem was wrapped up in our relationship, my heart physically ached! Every song on the radio took on great significance, and seemed to speak to me, they apparently were all about breaking up...It sucked
At the time I was not abusing drugs, so I self medicated with extreme exercise....I ran like Forrest Gump....I competed in marathon's for three years!
Two years after she dumped me I met my wife, up to that point I too felt no one could compare, we have been together now 20 yrs, and I couldn't be more in love.
You will be fine Red, it will take time and seem like eternity, heart break is part of life, unfortunitly you are concurrently dealing with addiction....THAT is a b****!
You are greiving two loses....your girl and your DOC, you WILL get over the girl, the addiction can kill you.
Hang in there....it will get better....rigth now you are being forged in the fire
Paul
Red...hang in there...I just broke up with my girlfriend after 5 years..
Pain pills not only dull the pain but they dull your personallity..You
will come out of this and you will find the woman of your dreams..I
promise you that....Hang in there...Better days are ahead...
Doug
Pain pills not only dull the pain but they dull your personallity..You
will come out of this and you will find the woman of your dreams..I
promise you that....Hang in there...Better days are ahead...
Doug
Hi Red;
Just a suggestion stay away from the woman for a bit. I left my family feb 2004 and started dating within a month. Caused only problems.
Just a suggestion get some good sobriety under your belt before starting another realationship. The woman will be waiting for you.
Feel good--Jeff
Just a suggestion stay away from the woman for a bit. I left my family feb 2004 and started dating within a month. Caused only problems.
Just a suggestion get some good sobriety under your belt before starting another realationship. The woman will be waiting for you.
Feel good--Jeff
Thanks i feel a littel better. You aall are soo cool. Really u are. I was thinking about a gym too. It would be very nice to join one
Im down to 5mg os sub after 12 days someone said that is good. IS that true. I can takre any kind of good words right now Im not having much wds just little things im strong. The little pills are soo small now lol, compared the to the 8mgs. i must be nearing the taper!
Im down to 5mg os sub after 12 days someone said that is good. IS that true. I can takre any kind of good words right now Im not having much wds just little things im strong. The little pills are soo small now lol, compared the to the 8mgs. i must be nearing the taper!
Red that IS AWESOME. Are you working with a doctor for weaning off of sub?
Is there therapy. Meetings? The sub is only for the withdrawal the easy part.
Changing your character defects and learning coping skills takes meetings and therapy. Hard work but man does it pay off.
Jeff
Is there therapy. Meetings? The sub is only for the withdrawal the easy part.
Changing your character defects and learning coping skills takes meetings and therapy. Hard work but man does it pay off.
Jeff
