Hi all, Thanks for the replys, yesterday. Today at work went fine. Seem to be getting somewhat back to myself. Iam in the middle of cooking me something to eat. But, wanted to post a few lines... tyring to save money by cooking instead of eating out all the time. Bills, Bills , Bills, well I don't want to go there. Funny how God can take care of us, I was worried about my phone bill, then I got in the mail a check where I had overpaid my car insurance, just enough to pay phone bill. I had tried not to worry about it much, just prayed about it, turned it over to God, and wham , check in the mail....Now, I know that check would probably have came anyway, but the difference in dealin with it clean and compared to using. When using I would have worried about that phone bill and would have used who knows how many percs and would have gone into more dept to get more to take away that feeling of worry. But, by deciding to stay clean and turn my worries over to my higherpower, I was able to get through the days prior to this with out using... of course the sub helps, but the thinking that leads up to us using. Is seems for me, I allow myself to get into fear, worry, shame, anger, afraid, etc. then in order to make these feeling go away, well I would use to take those feelings away and one pill was to much and 100 was never enough... And when out those feelings would still be there. But, with the sub. giving me time to stop and check myself how Iam feeling about something I can choose to reconize those negative feelings. For me, I choose to pray and turn those fears and worrys over to God and ask that his will be done not mine.This works for me if I allow it too. Its not easy and I have to work on it all day. Its easy to get into that stinking thinking....Today, my boss was on me to get some things done and I was getting all nervous and got into fear. I had to stop and pray and get in realinment with my higher power. Usually if I do this, I stettle down and am able to get through that moment... Before I got clean this time, I would have left the office and went and used some pills.... Trying to hurry just a little hear,, got the hamburger helper cooking, yuk, but what ever I got to do to save some money... Anyway, I guess , what my lesson was today, is how my thinking, my additive thinking can lead me to using. But, by using the tools that are suggested at A.A. I can arrest my addiction for the day. One day at a time. I know Iam not guarnteed anything, I know Iam not cured and know I never will be. Iam an addict for life but can be a grateful recovery addict. If I take it easy and apply the simple kit of the 12 steps that will reveal my shortcomings that causes me to use. But, by applying these suggestions I can stay clean one day at a time..... Iam grateful to be clean today. And hope to be able to apply the tools tomorrow and stay clean again tomorrow.... And I hope this for all addicts... Catch ya'll in a bit, got some Hamburger helper to choke down..... Thanks All
T-
tak,
wow, you truly are inspiring : ) i just wanted to drop a line and tell you that everyday you practice those principles will get easier and easier and become 2nd nature instead of feeling like work. isnt it awesome to have a god and faith that yuo can trust in? it truly pays off huh? pretty much always without fail and its as simple as trusting and believing that god will provide. especially when he sees just how hard you are working too better your life in his name : ) what an awesome story about the check. if that isnt god i dont know what is. how cool. i look forward to reading about your daily progress. another success in progress. you offer so much hope. your story is showing people just how its done and that it actually works if you work it. i am super proud of you! keep fighting the good fight. your winning !!
terrianne
wow, you truly are inspiring : ) i just wanted to drop a line and tell you that everyday you practice those principles will get easier and easier and become 2nd nature instead of feeling like work. isnt it awesome to have a god and faith that yuo can trust in? it truly pays off huh? pretty much always without fail and its as simple as trusting and believing that god will provide. especially when he sees just how hard you are working too better your life in his name : ) what an awesome story about the check. if that isnt god i dont know what is. how cool. i look forward to reading about your daily progress. another success in progress. you offer so much hope. your story is showing people just how its done and that it actually works if you work it. i am super proud of you! keep fighting the good fight. your winning !!
terrianne
Hi Tak, Thank you for you post you really made my day or rather night. You are so positive, and you are doing great.. You are so right things alway have a way of working out. I too have had alot of financial problems but they always seem to take care of theirselves. I hope you enjoy the rest of your night and your hamburger helper Yuk..LOL... Will look forward to reading you next post tommorow..
Tak, it does get easier as your head gets clearer.
BTW I like hamburger helper.
JD
BTW I like hamburger helper.
JD
JD,
hehehe i was thinking the same thing about hamburger helper, especially when someone else is cooking!! it makes great breakfast too.
terrianne
hehehe i was thinking the same thing about hamburger helper, especially when someone else is cooking!! it makes great breakfast too.
terrianne
Hey , You guys, Got plenty of Hamburger Helper, Lasagna...Iam just spoiled. I am use to eating out just about everynight. Now when I was in the Marine Corp we lived off this stuff....
Thanks for the feedback on the post... I somtimes get a little scared that Iam doing to good... But, again thats that stinking thinking.... But, you guys have enabled me to get in touch with my recovery tools that I had neglected..
And I believe your both right it will get easier as long as I let it..
T-
