Day 2 done. Getting sick of the sweats/ headaches ect. But them I can handle, stayed up all last night so am feeling tyred now and off to bed soon. Why do the days pas by sooo slow? Have no money and run out of backy too, shud of stock'd up b4 I stopped. But found myself smoking a lot cos of boredom. Peace out.
Stay Strong,My son is on day 2,he has been a addict for over 8 years..I'm Praying for you.
dave,
What I found helped my husband as he was doing a taper was go to a smoke shop and by a roller,tubes and a bag of tobacco(sometimes sold as pipe tobacco) and roll your own. Maybe you already know about this? The tubes are filtered & everything. Goes a lot further ,like a cartons worth,and costs like $15.00,not counting the roller,for refills,unless you splurge and buy the $50.oo roller instead of the $8.00 one.That way you have smokes and arent paying 5.00 + a pack.Sure its not as good as the real thing like Camel or Marlboro but hey...you cant always be too picky....
Take a warm/hot bath or shower,it helps.....
Hang in there....
Granny
What I found helped my husband as he was doing a taper was go to a smoke shop and by a roller,tubes and a bag of tobacco(sometimes sold as pipe tobacco) and roll your own. Maybe you already know about this? The tubes are filtered & everything. Goes a lot further ,like a cartons worth,and costs like $15.00,not counting the roller,for refills,unless you splurge and buy the $50.oo roller instead of the $8.00 one.That way you have smokes and arent paying 5.00 + a pack.Sure its not as good as the real thing like Camel or Marlboro but hey...you cant always be too picky....
Take a warm/hot bath or shower,it helps.....
Hang in there....
Granny
Thanks. I do roll my own roll up's. Had a bad night. You are right, I need to find something to do with my hands (not that!) becouse the whole scoring routine and running the foil ect has taken up so many hours of my life. I need to go out to try sort some money out today, and this will be a hard. Becouse trying to get money together has always been linked too. It's 2.30 on day 3 and am looking forward to going back to work next mon, and feeling healthier and been more chatty ect.
I have found a way that helps is, if I end up thinking about scoring, then I have to have a 1 hour break b 4 I decide. A lot of the time, after an hour, I feel different and glad I put it off.
I have found a way that helps is, if I end up thinking about scoring, then I have to have a 1 hour break b 4 I decide. A lot of the time, after an hour, I feel different and glad I put it off.
Stick at it dave sitting around just gives you head time to think about scouring, try to keep bizzie, but watch out when you go out, because theres triggers everywhere, stay strong bro
bob
bob
Hi Dave, Im proud of you. Every Time I read about someone going through this I proud of their strength. I still feel like I was lucky to go through it in jail...well maybe not lucky. It was awful, but I had no choice. Running out for a bag was not an option. Im glad. I dont know that I could have done it any other way. After going through that twice I just decided that I might die the next time so I stopped. It helped that last time I was locked up for 8 months. It probably also helped that I had only been on H for a few years. It all started cause I was a crack head who stayed up for days sometimes weeks at a time. I just wanted to be able to come down...just MAKE IT STOP or else I would just go on and on. I started out snorting and because that would make me very sick moved right on to the needle. I was such a mess. Ive been off of that for a little over 5 years now but I have relapsed on crack a bunch. Its been 14 months now (clean) and this site saved me. I dont have many friends either and I have social phobia and that keeps me out of meetings so I felt very alone till I found this site. Im so happy you found it too.
Knew i'd end up getting sucked back in lol. Try and get hold of a games console. Dunno anything about your situation but if you're like me when I was a user I didn't have such gadgets, mainly coz I had no interest in anything other than my next hit, and if such things came my way, they'd all gone to the pawn shop shop never to be seen again. Dunno if you can borrow one, or scrape together a few to get a second hand one - doesn't have to be an xbox360 or anything. My mate gave me an original xbox coz her daughter was now playing the 360 and now when I'm playing it with the kids and totally engrossed, unable to go to bed coz I've just gotta kill that monster who'd been doing me in all day, I think, now why couldn't I have had somethng like this when I was detoxing, to keep hands busy and mind occupied when I was thinking that if the cluck didn't kill me then the boredom surely would.
You can probably pick one up at the local pawn shop for the price of a couple of bags, and the games for the old consoles are 3 for a fiver in my local cash gen.
Hope it goes ok - stick to it, s'worth it in the end. Think of it as a long term investment. No pain no gain!
take care
diffco da blind sister
You can probably pick one up at the local pawn shop for the price of a couple of bags, and the games for the old consoles are 3 for a fiver in my local cash gen.
Hope it goes ok - stick to it, s'worth it in the end. Think of it as a long term investment. No pain no gain!
take care
diffco da blind sister
Diff,
So many people could use your suggestions & advise Your story of hope and success is a freaking inspiration. I hope you do get sucked in for awhile- (maybe I'm being a bit selfish)
Your post the other day made me realize how time really does fly. You struggled so hard, with a sick partner, a sick diff, and so many issues it must have seemed hopeless .
We that know you, could not be happier for the way you turned things around. So many have come and gone from this board, and I often wonder" whatever happed to ------??
Again, thanks for being a great friend - all those years ago. You may have moved on. but I'm sure you still are in the minds of those of us who still use this board
love&respect
jack
So many people could use your suggestions & advise Your story of hope and success is a freaking inspiration. I hope you do get sucked in for awhile- (maybe I'm being a bit selfish)
Your post the other day made me realize how time really does fly. You struggled so hard, with a sick partner, a sick diff, and so many issues it must have seemed hopeless .
We that know you, could not be happier for the way you turned things around. So many have come and gone from this board, and I often wonder" whatever happed to ------??
Again, thanks for being a great friend - all those years ago. You may have moved on. but I'm sure you still are in the minds of those of us who still use this board
love&respect
jack
Aye, Jack, I did struggle hard. At first I wanted to remember, I thought I could help people I suppose, thought I might have something useful to say. But after a while I thought that actually I wanted to forget, and didn't think I could handle anything other than my own s***. But now, well I've started writing again. I had a major set back. Virus wiped my harddrive, and everything that I'd written. I was gutted, absolutely gutted. Thought I could start again, but found I didn't want to dig through those memories, I'd rather bury them under a blanket of snow. Especially after Richard died. I still struggle daily with that. I never knew how much I loved him until he was gone. Thought that love would come easy, but it diesn't, not like that. Not close like that. Anyway, I think I'm starting to thaw a little. I feel that now maybe I have to remember. Too much of my life is supposedly best forgotten, and that can't be right. So I've started to write again. Maybe I can share some of it here and get some feedback. That might be good. Watch this space. Maybe you'll be seeing me a bit more often ;-) xxxxxx
Hi Diff,
Really good to see you back & to see how the little ones are growing, I remember when you got pregnant with Rowen. I loved reading your writing.
That would be a beautiful thing. I, too, have missed your writing & watching your journey. I find, for me, my past is past but remembering it helps me continue to change & move forward.
xoxo
Stacey
Really good to see you back & to see how the little ones are growing, I remember when you got pregnant with Rowen. I loved reading your writing.
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That would be a beautiful thing. I, too, have missed your writing & watching your journey. I find, for me, my past is past but remembering it helps me continue to change & move forward.
xoxo
Stacey
Diff,
Everything??? You lost everything. I am so sorry, damn viruses.
It made me think, the track ( which was just so good ), did you write that cause I have a copy...
I am sure you did and not Jazzy.
Tina
Everything??? You lost everything. I am so sorry, damn viruses.
It made me think, the track ( which was just so good ), did you write that cause I have a copy...
I am sure you did and not Jazzy.
Tina
Yeah, Diff...come back...no real reason not to. We miss you, and while I understand the leaving, I also understand why you might come back. Important messages, girl...love to you and the little people xo
yes Tina - I did write The Track - I'd forgotten all about that! Thank-you for reminding me, and yes, I lost everything. Stupid me for not making hard copies. Now I tend to email most of what I write to my other email address, which I generally only use on my laptop, so if one of my computers dies, I've still got the other one! When I get some more money together I'm going to buy myself a really decent computer, and give my other two to the kids. But Xmas has wiped me out and it's been an expensive month already. Vacuum cleaner has finally bitten the dust, or rather not bitten it, won't even taste the dust, just sits there quietly in the corner like a feckin ornament, so went out today and bought a new one. The first brand new vacuum cleaner I've ever bought - I found the old dyson in a skip lol. Had a blown fuse, so someone threw it out. And it did me proud for about 4 yrs. And my previous hand me down dyson went to the pawn shop never to return. Life changes, eh? And the truck had MOT this month - passed with flying colours. Makes a change from the days when my vehicle was a total wreck which I drove around uninsured, untaxed and un MOT'd for quite a few years. God only knows how I kept my licence! I'm a fully paid up member of society these days...
I]Makes a change from the days when my vehicle was a total wreck which I drove around uninsured, untaxed and In MOT'd for quite a few years. God only knows how I kept my license! [/I]
Haha- -you ain't kiddin- - Back then , I kept gettin 10 days in different county jails for driving w/o a license, or insurance, or some kind of proper paperwork. They,re are only so many breaks they give ya- - and they gave me plenty before they actually started sending me to the county....
Then when they find out you set it up (all before hand) to have your methadone in jail- -boy that would really pss them off.
Yup, nowadays all legal and I stay on top of it all- -every parking ticket is even paid right away- -
Life is so much easier when ya play by the rules- - Hey , if you dont like them, and you did your research, try to get a movement together to change them- but pick your battles wisely
jack
Haha- -you ain't kiddin- - Back then , I kept gettin 10 days in different county jails for driving w/o a license, or insurance, or some kind of proper paperwork. They,re are only so many breaks they give ya- - and they gave me plenty before they actually started sending me to the county....
Then when they find out you set it up (all before hand) to have your methadone in jail- -boy that would really pss them off.
Yup, nowadays all legal and I stay on top of it all- -every parking ticket is even paid right away- -
Life is so much easier when ya play by the rules- - Hey , if you dont like them, and you did your research, try to get a movement together to change them- but pick your battles wisely
jack
I do the same thing Diff, I created a hotmail just for storage with stuff for work or anything I write until I can burn it. My computer is a work horse but getting old and one day I am afraid I will go to boot it and it will be dead. I got wiped out by a virus years ago and learned my lesson quick...do not let kids use computer, literally I had a sign after that above my desk that said DO NOT CLICK THE LINK!
I have the story, if you need a hard copy just email me at unspeakable_truth@ hotmail.com and I will send it over to you. Oh and to make sure it is you just tell me who the story is about, her name...lol
I have the story, if you need a hard copy just email me at unspeakable_truth@ hotmail.com and I will send it over to you. Oh and to make sure it is you just tell me who the story is about, her name...lol
Good thinking, ladies. Tina, do you have a portable hard drive...a little one? I bought the Passport for about $70 and it now holds the contents of three computers and still has room for about 6 more, and I mean everything...thousands of photos and tens of thousands of documents....made my life so much easier. I used to email myself lesson plans from one computer to another, but if I forgot, it was a nightmare to plan a lesson. Worth every cent and easy to take along. I also store things online, but I worry about it sometimes...especially photos...
