Well I am much better then a week ago. Physically my stomach still bothers me but only about once a day. My energy comes and goes and so do the moods. I wish I was better then I am.. but I am also thankful to be here. I still have those feelings of doom throughout the day. Does that ever completely go away? I sure hope so. I don't mind if my feet hurt after working all day or my neck hurts if I sleep wrong. I just want to feel in control of my emotions again and I am still waiting for that to happen. This is an incredibly slow process. I really had no idea. I don't ever think about pills, wouldn't even consider taking one again. I just wish I didn't feel so depressed. I know everyone has said to make a list of what I am thankful for and believe me I have... but the blue feeling just doesn't seem to leave. I still feel like I am faking it. Will this grey cloud ever leave? Is that the last thing to return to normal?
Hey Congratulations! Day 28 is awesome. Yes, it is a slow process and everyone is different but I can promise you that you will feel normal again and things will continue to get better, slowly but surely. Look how much you've already accomplished. I have 18 months clean and every once in a while I have a day where I feel depressed and don't want to do anything but I think everyone, even non-addicts, have those days. You are doing so great and I am so happy for you!
Shelly
Shelly
Hi llh, you sound better. Good for you!
What does your impending doom feel like?
When it hit me, all of a sudden it felt like something horrible was about to happen. I felt like police would show up to drag me off or someone might even die. I was just consumed with this attack of fear and certain catastrophe.
Is that what happens to you?
xxxxxooo
What does your impending doom feel like?
When it hit me, all of a sudden it felt like something horrible was about to happen. I felt like police would show up to drag me off or someone might even die. I was just consumed with this attack of fear and certain catastrophe.
Is that what happens to you?
xxxxxooo
Kat, I was hoping you would read my post, you said you might have some ideas about the doomed feeling.
Yes, sometimes it's worse then others. I have had a couple of what I would call panic attacks, but this is more like an overall feeling that this will never get any better. I am just zapped today, I took a walk but nothing seems to help. And my stomach is still acting up at least once a day, I am hoping that is a sign that my body is still recovering and I will feel better mentally when I am better physically. Did it take anyone else this long to straighten out?
Yes, sometimes it's worse then others. I have had a couple of what I would call panic attacks, but this is more like an overall feeling that this will never get any better. I am just zapped today, I took a walk but nothing seems to help. And my stomach is still acting up at least once a day, I am hoping that is a sign that my body is still recovering and I will feel better mentally when I am better physically. Did it take anyone else this long to straighten out?
thanks shelly, I am proud of 28.
Hey llh, it really was a rotten feeling. It happened first in very early recovery. I can't remember now exactly when. I told my friend Sharon about it. What helped most was knowing this was normal and many go through it. Just know that nothing terrible is going to happen. If you're a believer, it's a good time to hit your knees. Talking to somebody is very helpful. You get your mind off what you're feeling and before you know it, it's over.
It's happened to me a few times since but knowing what it was helped me not to panic over it.
Remember to breathe, know it will pass, and talk to somebody.
Hang in there. Before you know it all this will just be a memory and you'll be feeling great.
xxxxooooo
It's happened to me a few times since but knowing what it was helped me not to panic over it.
Remember to breathe, know it will pass, and talk to somebody.
Hang in there. Before you know it all this will just be a memory and you'll be feeling great.
xxxxooooo
Oh I am so excited for that day. I feel like I am putting the work in and I feel impatient. Two people today have told me that I will feel normal again and that gives me hope. thanks...L
