Frist I want to say thanks to everyone and their kind words. The past 2 days have been hell, but I am doing better today I can get out of bed and actully feel human. No more throwing up (yeah). Well here's my story I got really hooked on Vicdon about 7 months ago, the same time that my husband hurt his back, I have taken alot of them daily, probly enough to kill a normal person, but I am guessing that most of us have done that too. My husband started treating me and my kids really bad after he got hurt so I took the pills to take the physical and mental pain that he inflicts on me, then I woke up Monday and told myself no more! I need to leave him, but I am scared I keep thinking who's going to want me, I am 26 and a mother of a 3 year old and a almost 1 year old, I feel like I will be hopeless the rest of my life, but I think that I am finnally coming around, that I am me and I want to the best for me and my boys. Monday night, my first night with no pills he hurt me so bad that when I was begging him to help me, he brusied both of my arms. I have NEVER done IV drugs, but I look like I have now. I look like I have track marks, all I want is help and he can't do that for me, is it wise to leave him while and I trying to get clean and he's about to have back surgery or should I be the happy little wife and get him thourgh his problems while I deal with mine all alone, how much can one person take in one life time, I am ready to amitte now that my name is Amber and I am an addict. Sorry about the spelling I have always been a bad speller.
Hey, amber..
I can relate to all that yousay..
But the thinking of who will want you probably comes from living with someone who made you feel less than.
Do you have any support around? There is aa and Na...and you will find people there that have been exactly where you are, and have walked through it..
Good luck on your getting clean. The next few days will get better, slowly, though, so don't give up.
Kerry
I can relate to all that yousay..
But the thinking of who will want you probably comes from living with someone who made you feel less than.
Do you have any support around? There is aa and Na...and you will find people there that have been exactly where you are, and have walked through it..
Good luck on your getting clean. The next few days will get better, slowly, though, so don't give up.
Kerry
