I slept for 13 hours and woke up feeling,well, great. There are still some twinges of pain, in my arms and legs, but the naseau is gone. I ate something for breakfast and ENJOYED it, was not gagging on every bite.
There were hours when I thought this time would never come ----and maybe would not have come without Tim ( the first to respond to my posts) and Sarah, Gina, Catherine Kerri, Kevin and all the others with their wonderful advice and encouraging words.
I am journeling so that I can look back on those dark days. The letters forming the words themselves on the pages are jagged, disconnected, and raw - a reflection of the pain. I wrote down feelings, words of encouragement from your posts. I am going to copy the posts as I went through detox. I NEVER want to forget it.
I am going to a NA meeting tonight
I hope this feeling of well being does not make me overconfident as to not expect struggles ahead. I will take steps to keep my future sober/clean.
There really are no words that I know of that express my gratitude to you. You saved me. Your names and words will always be a part of me - in my brain and in my heart as I continue on with this work.
If there is anyone who is reading this and going through detox or considering it, I am proof that is can be done. Just stay connected to this board.
Love, Gracie
Gracie,
I have been reading your posts and am glad you are feeling better. I am on day 11 and I know that day 4 was the turning point for me. I am also getting ready to start NA. There is a meeting close by on Friday. Please let me know how your meeting goes tonight. Again, I'm glad you're feeling better. I know things are going to keep getting better for us both!
Shelly
I have been reading your posts and am glad you are feeling better. I am on day 11 and I know that day 4 was the turning point for me. I am also getting ready to start NA. There is a meeting close by on Friday. Please let me know how your meeting goes tonight. Again, I'm glad you're feeling better. I know things are going to keep getting better for us both!
Shelly
Okay, and maybe we can share some insights gleaned from our meetings. I am glad you are doing so well. I know I have turned a corner because this really is the first time that I had the physical ability to reach out to someone. For several days, it was just trying to get through each hour. It FEELS so good!
Love, Gracie
Love, Gracie
Look at you! Wow...this is all because of you Gracie! When you finally surrender and get down on your knees and say "I have had enough and can't do this anymore". The miracle begins.
It is not easy...what you went through and are going through is the EASY part!!
Scary...yep...but you are on your way honey. The strength and companionship that you will get from those meetings will be your life line in the next days, weeks, months and years!
Its a way of life and when you start to give back the gift that you have received you will feel whole and so thankful.
Thank you so much for being part of this forum and sharing your experience. I and others are grateful for you!
Keep it up and keep posting about your journey. Sobriety is not a destination...its a journey. It took me a very long time to figure that out. I thought once I got sober I was done and cured! I couldn't have been more wrong. That is what kept me relapsing and in a constant state of using getting clean and relapsing again.
I would love to hear about your meeting too.
Hi Shelly...I am happy to see you posting and feeling better too. I want to hear all about your meeting as well. Gosh....nosey I know!!
It is not easy...what you went through and are going through is the EASY part!!
Scary...yep...but you are on your way honey. The strength and companionship that you will get from those meetings will be your life line in the next days, weeks, months and years!
Its a way of life and when you start to give back the gift that you have received you will feel whole and so thankful.
Thank you so much for being part of this forum and sharing your experience. I and others are grateful for you!
Keep it up and keep posting about your journey. Sobriety is not a destination...its a journey. It took me a very long time to figure that out. I thought once I got sober I was done and cured! I couldn't have been more wrong. That is what kept me relapsing and in a constant state of using getting clean and relapsing again.
I would love to hear about your meeting too.
Hi Shelly...I am happy to see you posting and feeling better too. I want to hear all about your meeting as well. Gosh....nosey I know!!
Day 4 was a lot easier for me too, Kinda like a voice telling you "you'll be free very, very soon."
Try it if you want, but i have been going nuts on soy milk. Silk Vanillia. It's been giving me the energy I need, and pushing out the poison,I'm posting a link to the site below...feel free to check it out. Not only has it helped me, its tasty too. :)
Gracie, I'm on day 8 of recovery, so your at the half way point, and let me tell you, i feel a 1000 percent better than i did 4 days ago, and its going to get better, for both of us. Feel free to email me if you ever need to talk, I'm at chris38ny@yahoo.com. I carry a pda so unless I'm really busy I'll respond as promptly as I can. BTW this goes for anyone here, I kinda feel like part of a family now. Take care all...
Soy milk!
Product
http://www.silksoymilk.com/Products...erated.aspx#AL2
Nutritional/Ingredients
http://www.silksoymilk.com/Products...llaHalfPint.htm
Peace all. - Chris
Try it if you want, but i have been going nuts on soy milk. Silk Vanillia. It's been giving me the energy I need, and pushing out the poison,I'm posting a link to the site below...feel free to check it out. Not only has it helped me, its tasty too. :)
Gracie, I'm on day 8 of recovery, so your at the half way point, and let me tell you, i feel a 1000 percent better than i did 4 days ago, and its going to get better, for both of us. Feel free to email me if you ever need to talk, I'm at chris38ny@yahoo.com. I carry a pda so unless I'm really busy I'll respond as promptly as I can. BTW this goes for anyone here, I kinda feel like part of a family now. Take care all...
Soy milk!
Product
http://www.silksoymilk.com/Products...erated.aspx#AL2
Nutritional/Ingredients
http://www.silksoymilk.com/Products...llaHalfPint.htm
Peace all. - Chris
Thank you, I will.
Gracie:
4 Days!!! Woooooooooo Hooooooooooo!
AWESOME!!!!!!!
You sound like you are doing pretty well! I am so glad to hear it!
I am not going to be around very much...I am so busy with school....and I don't have internet access in my studio, but, I will check in on you when I come in like now!
Keep up the good work....and reach out if you need support! Someone here is always willing and able to help!!!!
Peace to you.
Sarah
4 Days!!! Woooooooooo Hooooooooooo!
AWESOME!!!!!!!
You sound like you are doing pretty well! I am so glad to hear it!
I am not going to be around very much...I am so busy with school....and I don't have internet access in my studio, but, I will check in on you when I come in like now!
Keep up the good work....and reach out if you need support! Someone here is always willing and able to help!!!!
Peace to you.
Sarah
Hello Gracie,
Day 4!!!!!!!!! Yipeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!
It's only going to get better. Please eat, I know you don't want to but your body needs fuel and keep drinking lots of water. Your detox isn't over yet. You want to keep getting the poisons out.
You're on top of the mountain now.
Catherine
Day 4!!!!!!!!! Yipeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!
It's only going to get better. Please eat, I know you don't want to but your body needs fuel and keep drinking lots of water. Your detox isn't over yet. You want to keep getting the poisons out.
You're on top of the mountain now.
Catherine
Congratulations Gracie
Yes...do what Catherine suggested.Eat and drink lots of water.
BTW........There is nothing magical or some pill that's going to fix this.If you have a nutritional and sensible diet,drink lots of water and exercise,your body will heal fast.
I hear all sorts of concoctions and magic drinks etc. touted on here.All they do is usually rob your pocketbook.I'm all for holistic approaches on this stuff.We have got to change that knee-jerk compulsion of taking something.
Meditation...listening to the presense of God goes so much further.
Have A Great Day
Yes...do what Catherine suggested.Eat and drink lots of water.
BTW........There is nothing magical or some pill that's going to fix this.If you have a nutritional and sensible diet,drink lots of water and exercise,your body will heal fast.
I hear all sorts of concoctions and magic drinks etc. touted on here.All they do is usually rob your pocketbook.I'm all for holistic approaches on this stuff.We have got to change that knee-jerk compulsion of taking something.
Meditation...listening to the presense of God goes so much further.
Have A Great Day
Tim, I hear you! Love, Gracie
