Hello everyone.
I did make it to my first NA meeting last night.
It was 10:30pm, and I was not is such a good neighborhood. I thought I was kind of lost, so I pulled into a shopping center. I looked at my map and was so confused at where I was. Then I looked up at the address on the sign, and it was 1395. Right where I needed to be.
I figured that was a sign that I really was suppose to be there.
So I found the meeting place, and there were peolple in there. I called my hubby to let him know I arrived, then I went in.
At first I felt a bit out-of-place. There were about 9 other people there, and they all were talking about street drugs. Then I heard someone talk about percodan.
At that moment I realized I was in the best place I could have been.
But man, CAN THOSE PEOPLE SMOKE!!! LOL
I am a smoker, but I was having trouble seeing in that room towards the end.
All in all, it was a good experience. They said I should try to make 90 meetings in 90 days. That is not possible for me. If the only time I can go is @ 10:30pm, I wouldn't be able to do it more that two or three times a week.
I didn't get home until 1:30am. And I had a meeting this morning at 8:00am.
I made it, but it was hard.
Anyway, today is getting harder, (I think it is lack of sleep) I don't feel like working, but I have a lunch at a doctor's office @ 12:00, so I guess I better change my way of thinking for now.
How is everyone else doing???
-britney
Hi britany I am well today and still very proud of you.Was it really hard to go to the first meeting thats what I would like to try someday when I can overcome my fear of people.I hear they are 60 min miricles
Good for you Britney, i am so happy for you, my marriage is going down the tubes and this is a BIG trigger for me to use, i know thats not the answer, but it is all i know to cope with this, it hurts!!!!!:(((
Oh Jazzy I know it hurts It probaly hurts so bad you'll be so tempted to use but hon look at all the hard work you've been doing Please don't throw that away.You are one of the tools I use to say if she can do it I can.You will survive and time does heal the pain little by little
Britney:
You were totally in the right place. Nobody ends up in AA/NA by mistake. My normal friends have never said, "maybe I should go to NA." The program is what keeps me accountable. I am no longer a secret or an isolator. I have a life. Life is in session and I am present. I'm curious, when you said you had a lunch at a Dr.'s office at 12:00, are you a drug rep? I am, that's why I ask. Take care.
Rachel
You were totally in the right place. Nobody ends up in AA/NA by mistake. My normal friends have never said, "maybe I should go to NA." The program is what keeps me accountable. I am no longer a secret or an isolator. I have a life. Life is in session and I am present. I'm curious, when you said you had a lunch at a Dr.'s office at 12:00, are you a drug rep? I am, that's why I ask. Take care.
Rachel
Thanks so much Molly, but i feel so weird inside, i can not explain the feeling at all, i am so depressed:(, i know that this she to pass, but not fast enough...
This one was 90 minutes. But the time just flew. Ususally I am sleeping by 11pm, but 12:15am rolled around and I couldn't believe it.
As soon as I walked in, I was greeted by three people who intoduced themselves, and welcomed me. They followed a certain structure for how the meeting went. But at the beginning, they passed around papers that everyone read off of. It explained what NA was, how they worked, and how they were anonymous. They also made it very clear that in NO WAY were they affiliated with any law enforcment agency, and that no matter what was discussed, we could not get in trouble. That was the big thing for me.
It was nice to actually see people face to face that have the same problems as you. Although most of the people were hard core street drug addicts, the one person there like me really seemed to make me feel like I was not alone.
I think it was too late to realize how much the meeting helped, but I do feel better today.
(just some advice - don't go to a smoking meeting - even if you smoke!!! Whew!)
-britney
As soon as I walked in, I was greeted by three people who intoduced themselves, and welcomed me. They followed a certain structure for how the meeting went. But at the beginning, they passed around papers that everyone read off of. It explained what NA was, how they worked, and how they were anonymous. They also made it very clear that in NO WAY were they affiliated with any law enforcment agency, and that no matter what was discussed, we could not get in trouble. That was the big thing for me.
It was nice to actually see people face to face that have the same problems as you. Although most of the people were hard core street drug addicts, the one person there like me really seemed to make me feel like I was not alone.
I think it was too late to realize how much the meeting helped, but I do feel better today.
(just some advice - don't go to a smoking meeting - even if you smoke!!! Whew!)
-britney
Jaz you don't have to even try to explain I have been there.I wish I could do more to help you.You are my friend and I don't like hearing you so sad.So I take it you don't want my email cookies huh
molly,,what does e-mail cookies mean? i am coumpter dumb, hehe
Rachel -
I am a marketing rep for a medical imaging facility. Which is probably a really good thing. I don't have any access to drugs at my work, and the docs I work for are radiologists. They don't write scripts!!!
But I do remember working as a MA for a spinal surgery office. They had locked up in the drug closet - samples of vicoprophen. WOW.
But I NEVER stole it. Not once.
But if I had the chance now..... Wait - I don't even want to think about it.
-britney
I am a marketing rep for a medical imaging facility. Which is probably a really good thing. I don't have any access to drugs at my work, and the docs I work for are radiologists. They don't write scripts!!!
But I do remember working as a MA for a spinal surgery office. They had locked up in the drug closet - samples of vicoprophen. WOW.
But I NEVER stole it. Not once.
But if I had the chance now..... Wait - I don't even want to think about it.
-britney
Well, I have to go back to work. Thank you for responding, and keep posting. I will check back in a few hours. Thanks again.
-britney
-britney
Hello Britney,
I just wanted to CONGRADULATE you!!! Great job!!!!!! Thanks for sharing with us each day, I am really inspired. I am glad you had a good day today, and were able to make a meeting. I saw in another post re: The snow and Bronco's, well that's my neck of the woods. It was beautiful, although last night was a nightmare on the roads. I can't believe the Bronco's this year (we can all Boast with Pride ;o)). Keep up the good work. Take care, Best Wishes
I just wanted to CONGRADULATE you!!! Great job!!!!!! Thanks for sharing with us each day, I am really inspired. I am glad you had a good day today, and were able to make a meeting. I saw in another post re: The snow and Bronco's, well that's my neck of the woods. It was beautiful, although last night was a nightmare on the roads. I can't believe the Bronco's this year (we can all Boast with Pride ;o)). Keep up the good work. Take care, Best Wishes
Hey Britney:
I thought you might be a medical rep. They stopped sampling Vicoprophen, Norco and Soma ( probably after it was stolen) about two years ago. There is nothing in the closet that is remotely appealing, thank God. I do not need any triggers at work. Luckily, I work in Cardiology and not Pain Management. Good luck to you and keep going to meetings, stay accountable and don't isolate.
Peace,
Rachel
I thought you might be a medical rep. They stopped sampling Vicoprophen, Norco and Soma ( probably after it was stolen) about two years ago. There is nothing in the closet that is remotely appealing, thank God. I do not need any triggers at work. Luckily, I work in Cardiology and not Pain Management. Good luck to you and keep going to meetings, stay accountable and don't isolate.
Peace,
Rachel
