Day five! 7:30am in Denver. About 23 deggrees outside. I made it through last night, but I am afraid today will be even harder. Please someone - if you can give me a few words of hope, I could really use them right now. Thanks.
britney
so is it day 6 now?? anyways congradulations!! hang in there you'll feel better in no time. try to go out and get some fresh air. i know its cold, sh*t its snowing here. but the fresh air will give you energy, it will revive you. good luck and hang in there.
raerae
raerae
Hi britany its molly,You are doing so well I've been reading your post and I'm sooo happy you are doing better.It may not seem like it right now but I belive your stronger than you even know.I send you a BIG HUG.Each day I hope it gets alittle easier for you.I think all of us who have been reading and writing belive in you and someday soon(i hope) you will belive in yourself.Hang in There I THINK YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!molly
I had calculated my days wrong yesterday. I thought it was day 5, but it was only day 4. Since I was off Thursday and Friday, I got mixed up on my days. My first full day without pills was Tuesday, and I thought yesterday was Saturday!!! Yeah, I thought I was further along than I really was. What a let down.
Last night I was so cranky, and rude to my husband. I feel like I am NEVER going to want to have sex again... At least while I was on the pills I didn't care. But now I don't even want him to touch my foot - let alone anything else. Will this ever change?? If it dosen't I think it will probably ruin our marrage.
Also the feeling cold and chills?? Will that all end soon??? Please let me know!
britney
Last night I was so cranky, and rude to my husband. I feel like I am NEVER going to want to have sex again... At least while I was on the pills I didn't care. But now I don't even want him to touch my foot - let alone anything else. Will this ever change?? If it dosen't I think it will probably ruin our marrage.
Also the feeling cold and chills?? Will that all end soon??? Please let me know!
britney
Oh Britany yes to all the cold and chill will pass so will the crankyness it takes time which I'm sure your sick of hearing but it will.As far as your hubby there are times I think all of us don't want to be touched.Have you talk to him about it?if so just keep reassuring him that its not him your just going through a ruff time.Men are real funny that way.They know deep down its not them but they like to hear it anyways.Hang in there girl we all know how hard it is but in the end it is SO WORTH it....mollyjean
My husband is now up - and I don't want him to see me on here. I think I will go to the gym now. They open at 8am. I don't feel like it, but I know I should go. So if you can post your inspiration for me, I would really appreciate it. I will be back on later.
Jasmine - where are you??? How is your mouth?? How are you doing with the meds?? I hope you are hanging in there. I was thinking about you last night, praying that you can stay strong. hope to talk to you soon.
luv britney
Mollyjean - how long have you been clean??? do you still think about using??
please let me know. I will be back on later.
brit
Jasmine - where are you??? How is your mouth?? How are you doing with the meds?? I hope you are hanging in there. I was thinking about you last night, praying that you can stay strong. hope to talk to you soon.
luv britney
Mollyjean - how long have you been clean??? do you still think about using??
please let me know. I will be back on later.
brit
Hi Britany I haven't been totally clean yet I don't know if I'll ever be TOTALLY clean.Right now I'm just trying very hard to go to the prescibed amout instead of 15-16-17 whatever When i was usen that much alot of times I lost count.I think you going to the gym is one of the best things for you.It helps the mind along with the body.How long do you work out and with what(weights,etc?Keep in touch when you can I'll be thinking of you Mollyjean
Brit ,"DAY 5" WAY TO GO! That is great.. You are doing it and it takes time but you are staying strong,focused and positive. I am very happy for you and you should be PROUD of YOURSELF. That is wondeful to be able to have WILLPOWER against something that is sooo POWERFUL! You will be feeling better very soon.Promise.
Like Raerae said go outside and breathe in the fresh air.... Guess you don't have to worry so much about the hot flashes there huh? I don't envy you there in that cold weather-I love Florida to much and I remember the snow all to well. Glad to be out of it but I do miss it from time to time and it does give you energy and make you feel re-freshed. Take care! Rach
Like Raerae said go outside and breathe in the fresh air.... Guess you don't have to worry so much about the hot flashes there huh? I don't envy you there in that cold weather-I love Florida to much and I remember the snow all to well. Glad to be out of it but I do miss it from time to time and it does give you energy and make you feel re-freshed. Take care! Rach
Britney, you are doing great! My name is Jessica and I've been clean over a month. W/ds are the worst thing I have ever been through and I know that it seems like they will NEVER end....but they do, I promise! After getting your body clean it's a matter of keeping the darn things out of your mind. I think of pills a lot, but then I think of the life I was living and I hold off for "just another day". It really is a one day at the time recovery. I used to doctor hop, dentist hop, and buy off the street. I lied, covered up money that I spent, lied about the money I made, snuck around to score....it goes on and on. I am 28 with 2 beautiful children and being clean is the best thing I could have ever done for myself and my family. You are on the right path and doing a great job. Just know that it DOES get better and we are here for you!! Love, Jessie
Brit, i think u need to call me , so i can tell you a few things pribatley, i will e-mail u my number , please call me, luv jasmine!! i need your e-mail first, hehe..
jasmine - my e-mail is emack17@aol.com
let me know if/when to call
let me know if/when to call