Thanks to all of you who gave me support and prayers - today is day one without any pills - I took someones advice and just flushed them. I also told my Doctor everything I was doing, feel relieved. But now I know what I have to go through for a period of time but me and my daughters are worth it. As for the woman I love I know she has no trust in me, why should she - guess I will have to prove it one day at a time.
Thanks to all, don't think I could have gotten started without knowing how not alone I am by all your comments - kind of hard to type with shakey fingers.
God Bless all.
JD
JD...You are going to have a rough couple of days. Don't fight it; it makes it harder. Just accept that you are going to feel s***ty, and ride it out. Comtrex (the flu nighttime liquid) helped me alot. Also, lots of hot showers, sauna, and moving around as much as you can. Drink lots of water, and journal the hell so when you are tempted later on, you can remember how bad it gets...
Good luck, AND YOU CAN DO IT.
Oh, and Immodium will help also...
Kerry
Good luck, AND YOU CAN DO IT.
Oh, and Immodium will help also...
Kerry
JD,
Always keep in mind that the pain of withdrawel will pass, this is a very short period of time, compared to the rest of your life.
Best Regards,
Tom
Always keep in mind that the pain of withdrawel will pass, this is a very short period of time, compared to the rest of your life.
Best Regards,
Tom
JD
I flushed a few myself. It hurt so bad and felt so good. You will regain the trust and all that goes with it. Its not easy but anything worth while is not easy, and this is definitely worth it.
Good luck and gere for you.
Frank
JD - For now stay focused on your recovery - one day at a time you can do this! Stay strong, and as much as possible stay busy. Listen to what others here say - you'll get tons of excellent advice. I also know all about the "trust" issue. It's been the biggest issue for me and one that I am 100% committed to making better with my wife. But it takes time JD. I'm still paying for the damage I've caused to my wife because of years of lying and stealing. But it's been almost 2 months now, and slowly it has gotten better. Have faith. Each day I just try to live my life as honest as possible. My wife deserves nothing less from me. You too will get through this period, and reclaim the life you deserve. Take care; Jim.
Jim,
Two months seems like an eternity right now but I feel like I have at least started, thanks for your honesty. I will say a prayer for you tonight, almost said before I go to sleep but don't think that will happen.
God Bless,
JD
Two months seems like an eternity right now but I feel like I have at least started, thanks for your honesty. I will say a prayer for you tonight, almost said before I go to sleep but don't think that will happen.
God Bless,
JD
well done ,for taking that step, keep strong .think of the life you deserve. i know it's not easy when all you can thing about is pills .igot clean in nov .then had a relapse 2 weeks ago and have been pill free since .it is a struggle but i am living each day an hour at a time and it's starting to have some good times .with love xxkeep strong and safe
JD...Nice job on flushing them! You would have just delayed the inevitable...Better to start now and get the ball rolling. You sound like a nice person and I am glad you are deciding to do this not only for yourself but for you family...I used my daughter and wife as motivation...Not to sound sappy but one day I was driving and heard this song on the radio that brought tears to my eyes, but it gave me strenght...Here are the words...
In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me
strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes
And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about
It's hangin' on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daugter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes
This song really made me see how important my family and my daughter were to me. I decided that I didn't like the parent or husband I had become because of my addiction and I needed to do something about it before my wife decided she had had enough and left me. I have another daughter who will be brought into this world in less than 8 weeks! I can't wait to be there every step of the way and be SOBER thru it all!!!! Today I am happy to say my wife can honestly tell me that she see's such a difference in me. I want to go out and do things now when before all I wanted was to be high and be a couch potato. I was past being able to function on pills. I just didn't give a s*** about anything except being high. Some have to hit rock bottom, others are more fortunate. But you have come to the right place for support and I love seeing that your family means so much to you. I wish you the best of luck. Quitting is hard but the reward of quitting is worth more than all the money in the world in my opinion. Sorry to go on and on but stay strong, stay focused and don't give up, you CAN AND WILL BEAT THIS!!!
GHF...
In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me
strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes
And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about
It's hangin' on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daugter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes
This song really made me see how important my family and my daughter were to me. I decided that I didn't like the parent or husband I had become because of my addiction and I needed to do something about it before my wife decided she had had enough and left me. I have another daughter who will be brought into this world in less than 8 weeks! I can't wait to be there every step of the way and be SOBER thru it all!!!! Today I am happy to say my wife can honestly tell me that she see's such a difference in me. I want to go out and do things now when before all I wanted was to be high and be a couch potato. I was past being able to function on pills. I just didn't give a s*** about anything except being high. Some have to hit rock bottom, others are more fortunate. But you have come to the right place for support and I love seeing that your family means so much to you. I wish you the best of luck. Quitting is hard but the reward of quitting is worth more than all the money in the world in my opinion. Sorry to go on and on but stay strong, stay focused and don't give up, you CAN AND WILL BEAT THIS!!!
GHF...
