Hey Everyone!
OK.....I did not eat any pills.
I had a LONG conversation with several friends and let them know that I am done (hopefully for good!!!!!)
I do not want to lose these people and luckily they are very understanding of my plight. I will not judge them, but I just won't use with them.
At this point, they seem to understand!
Thank you all for the concern!!!!!
FANTASTIC NEWS!!!!
You have just made my day! Woooooooo hooooooo!!!!!
I know those conversations are not easy. I remember admitting my addiction to people that knew I took pills, but not to what extent. Of course, I was fooling no one really...but even explaining it to people that use...was difficult. (Not to mention my mother....uuuuggghhh...but I made it through and she has learned a lot about addiction from me...and now listens without judgement). Hearing myself describe my behavior was hard...hard to hear me say those things about me. Through explaining it, I began to understand just how much control this one aspect of my life had over all aspects of my life. I have always thought of myself as independent and individualistic....well, I had succumbed many of those traits to pain pills. I didn't really realize until I began to tell the story, out loud. Our own voices are a powerful mirror....well, at least for me it was.
It does help to speak it out though. It makes the whole situation become more real. Admitting we have a problem/addiction is the first step in the process...
You are doing great mrjer...
I am so grateful you are here to share you story and journey with us.
Thank you,
Sarah
You have just made my day! Woooooooo hooooooo!!!!!
I know those conversations are not easy. I remember admitting my addiction to people that knew I took pills, but not to what extent. Of course, I was fooling no one really...but even explaining it to people that use...was difficult. (Not to mention my mother....uuuuggghhh...but I made it through and she has learned a lot about addiction from me...and now listens without judgement). Hearing myself describe my behavior was hard...hard to hear me say those things about me. Through explaining it, I began to understand just how much control this one aspect of my life had over all aspects of my life. I have always thought of myself as independent and individualistic....well, I had succumbed many of those traits to pain pills. I didn't really realize until I began to tell the story, out loud. Our own voices are a powerful mirror....well, at least for me it was.
It does help to speak it out though. It makes the whole situation become more real. Admitting we have a problem/addiction is the first step in the process...
You are doing great mrjer...
I am so grateful you are here to share you story and journey with us.
Thank you,
Sarah
If you continue to hang with active addicts you will become one again. It's been proven repeatedly. Congratulations on not using yesterday though. Are you going to meetings or anything? Do you have any support other than this board and people that are still using? There's a saying in AA/NA "you can't cure a sick mind with a sick mind." That's why we have to change persons, places, and things. If we keep doing what we're doing, we'll keep getting what we're getting.
That is great news that you are not using.......
I do however want to tell you what my experience was with this.
I tried many many times over a few year period to get clean before I got on suboxone. I went through the wicked withdrawals and would try hard to stay on the straight and narrow, but yet there were pills ALL around me.
I had made a few "friends" while using, Would not call them friends at all, just people I would be on a mission with to find pills......
With these people still calling once in a while, or stopping by, I eventually caved.
They did not force me to take any pills, I just could NOT be around it, it was far far to tempting for me.
Everytime I relapsed......and it was my own fault, but being around those who are still constantly using I believe seriously lessens your chances of getting through this.
Just my experience though.......
You are doing great.............Keep it up.
Hugs.
I do however want to tell you what my experience was with this.
I tried many many times over a few year period to get clean before I got on suboxone. I went through the wicked withdrawals and would try hard to stay on the straight and narrow, but yet there were pills ALL around me.
I had made a few "friends" while using, Would not call them friends at all, just people I would be on a mission with to find pills......
With these people still calling once in a while, or stopping by, I eventually caved.
They did not force me to take any pills, I just could NOT be around it, it was far far to tempting for me.
Everytime I relapsed......and it was my own fault, but being around those who are still constantly using I believe seriously lessens your chances of getting through this.
Just my experience though.......
You are doing great.............Keep it up.
Hugs.
Glad to hear you did not use.....I was worried about you. Keep up the good work....
Cherie
Cherie
This was a test..the first of many to come. It should give you confidence to battle in the future. Unfortunately...the damned cravings can come anytime no matter how long you've been clean. Good job! Love, Sharonn
WAY TO GO MRJER! I was hoping you would not have to go through what I did! By the way you are not far behind me, and at my 11th day now, it is the best so far! I felt so good this morning I wanted to scream (OK, I did, lol) we are in control!! Now I wish that would last longer! But I knoow it will come, even if its a ways off. I am going for the long haul, I know you are too!
Best thing for you to do is steer clear of those still using....my gf knew I was going thru wd bad...knew it was a decision I had made and that I needed her support.........but she was also the first to say here take a pill to help you thru your w/d...just one ...I had to stay away from her for awhile...then to top it off I was angry she was still using when I was not anad going thru hell..
so be careful...very careful, they say they may understand.,....but
Krazi/Traci
so be careful...very careful, they say they may understand.,....but
Krazi/Traci
Hey pal
8 days is great. I would love to see you at day 18. I worry though, not to get in trouble wit the board. You still have to learn people places and things. I know they are your friends. I have lost friends man, yes. But.. addicts love addicts in active abuse. Trust me in time they will want to hang less and less. Almost jeoulous that you got clean and they didnt
Now i dont want you to lose friends, please just keep the picture clear though. recovery.... did u those friends take away the wd
NOOOOOOOOOO
Peace
8 days is great. I would love to see you at day 18. I worry though, not to get in trouble wit the board. You still have to learn people places and things. I know they are your friends. I have lost friends man, yes. But.. addicts love addicts in active abuse. Trust me in time they will want to hang less and less. Almost jeoulous that you got clean and they didnt
Now i dont want you to lose friends, please just keep the picture clear though. recovery.... did u those friends take away the wd
NOOOOOOOOOO
Peace
(((((((((((((((jer)))))))))))))))))))))
WONDERFUL....
whoo hoo
thumper
WONDERFUL....
whoo hoo
thumper
