Help is only a click away. There are so many good post out there.
If I can be of any help read my posts and go from there. See me
under GrandpaAllen and/or Gramps, some stuff scattered and abit
more background in "PAIN PILLS". Have a good Day ya'll.
GrandpaAllen
Mr. Gramps,
Did u also have a drup problem? U sound like a strong rock to hold onto. I know it is none of my business about your past, so don't feel like u have 2 answer the nosey question.
I am 45 and trying to wean off of prescription drugs. I have been on them 12yrs plus. I started after my dad died of cancer which was only 3 yrs afer my baby sister was killed in a awful car wreck. I lost by best friend and then my rock which was always my dad. I couldn't take it anymore, the depression trying to keep my family together, and also b the rock for my mom. Loseing a child has to be the worst thing n the world. She has conjested heart failure and they gave her 3 months in 1993 and with pacemakers and defibulators by the grace of God she is still here. It is alot of work taking care of her but I thank God everyday that he has let me have her one more day.
Any support or words of encouragement would be very welcome. Somewhere I know I can only help myself but my husband and family are no source of help.
Thank you sir,
Tina (kyra)
Did u also have a drup problem? U sound like a strong rock to hold onto. I know it is none of my business about your past, so don't feel like u have 2 answer the nosey question.
I am 45 and trying to wean off of prescription drugs. I have been on them 12yrs plus. I started after my dad died of cancer which was only 3 yrs afer my baby sister was killed in a awful car wreck. I lost by best friend and then my rock which was always my dad. I couldn't take it anymore, the depression trying to keep my family together, and also b the rock for my mom. Loseing a child has to be the worst thing n the world. She has conjested heart failure and they gave her 3 months in 1993 and with pacemakers and defibulators by the grace of God she is still here. It is alot of work taking care of her but I thank God everyday that he has let me have her one more day.
Any support or words of encouragement would be very welcome. Somewhere I know I can only help myself but my husband and family are no source of help.
Thank you sir,
Tina (kyra)
Tina (Kyra)
Hi, hang in there. What kind of scripts were you (are you) dealing with. You
will find some good words of encouragement here, keep checking and please
do share how you feel and things about your addiction and yourself.
If you look up "GrandpaAllen" you can learn plenty about me, probably too much. Do just blow off the ones who respond negatively, they are not worth
your time. They have their own unresolved issues.
I was addicted to hydrocodone (vicodin) mostly, after a few back opperations.
Using all I've learned from beiing sober for 22 plus years with AA, I finaly was
able to (with the additional help of my Psychiatrist) get into a treatment program and taper off my pain pills.
Keep in mind there is help out there, I for one think it is a good idea to get help.
Be honest with yourself a go at it ONE DAY AT A TIME.
Good luck, I'll be here if you want to chatt/share.
GrandpaAllen
Hi, hang in there. What kind of scripts were you (are you) dealing with. You
will find some good words of encouragement here, keep checking and please
do share how you feel and things about your addiction and yourself.
If you look up "GrandpaAllen" you can learn plenty about me, probably too much. Do just blow off the ones who respond negatively, they are not worth
your time. They have their own unresolved issues.
I was addicted to hydrocodone (vicodin) mostly, after a few back opperations.
Using all I've learned from beiing sober for 22 plus years with AA, I finaly was
able to (with the additional help of my Psychiatrist) get into a treatment program and taper off my pain pills.
Keep in mind there is help out there, I for one think it is a good idea to get help.
Be honest with yourself a go at it ONE DAY AT A TIME.
Good luck, I'll be here if you want to chatt/share.
GrandpaAllen
Kyra, how are you doing? Waiting to hear back from you, curious to hear what drugs you are/were taking, But like you said feel free to share only what you
are comfortable with, I understand. I believe I've said, that my most difficult addictions were alcohol, pain medications and pot in that order. Anything you'd like to discuss is fine. My belief is the more you know about it all the better for you. I "goggle" things all the time and am always learning as I go.
My best wishes to you and good luck in your recovery.
GrandpaAllen
are comfortable with, I understand. I believe I've said, that my most difficult addictions were alcohol, pain medications and pot in that order. Anything you'd like to discuss is fine. My belief is the more you know about it all the better for you. I "goggle" things all the time and am always learning as I go.
My best wishes to you and good luck in your recovery.
GrandpaAllen
Morning,
Gramps I am on xanex, Loratab,soma,valium,flexeril and i have a tens unit. I had to have a plate put in my neck where I hurt it at work. Lost my job there and have been manic or bipolar depressed since my sister died in a car wreck and my dad (my best friend) died 2 1/2 years later. I am on anti-depressents also.
My shrink says I am doing better, but just yesterday my husband of 23 yrs said he was moving out with our 15 year old daughter and thats where she wants to go so I must really be a bad person. I wouldn't like to be around me either. I used to be the life of the party and always kept people n stiches now I have no real friends, meet a few here, but generally I am alone.
So really I think I am Not really weaning very well yesterday hit me in the gut like a gunshot. So I am numb today I suppose that is better than crying.
Sorry for the sob story.
Tina (kyra)
Gramps I am on xanex, Loratab,soma,valium,flexeril and i have a tens unit. I had to have a plate put in my neck where I hurt it at work. Lost my job there and have been manic or bipolar depressed since my sister died in a car wreck and my dad (my best friend) died 2 1/2 years later. I am on anti-depressents also.
My shrink says I am doing better, but just yesterday my husband of 23 yrs said he was moving out with our 15 year old daughter and thats where she wants to go so I must really be a bad person. I wouldn't like to be around me either. I used to be the life of the party and always kept people n stiches now I have no real friends, meet a few here, but generally I am alone.
So really I think I am Not really weaning very well yesterday hit me in the gut like a gunshot. So I am numb today I suppose that is better than crying.
Sorry for the sob story.
Tina (kyra)
Still not doing great but head is up and won't let him ever see me cry. I am not weak but when I love it is all the way, so this is hard for me. But if he is not happy which is my fault probably go with flow right?
Hope u r well, thanks for talking to me.
Tina (kyra)
Real name is Tina but lied when I joined and used dogs name Kyra thats why the two names down there.
Hope u r well, thanks for talking to me.
Tina (kyra)
Real name is Tina but lied when I joined and used dogs name Kyra thats why the two names down there.
Tina, Hope you are feeling better.
I'll get back to you later. You're in our prayers. Grandpa Allen
I'll get back to you later. You're in our prayers. Grandpa Allen
GranpAllen,
Thanks just for listening, I know I can bend an ear to death.
XOXOXOXOXOX
Tina (Kyra)
Thanks just for listening, I know I can bend an ear to death.
XOXOXOXOXOX
Tina (Kyra)
Tina, my feelings are you have much more to share, It'll be best for
you if you say whats on your mind and in your thoughts. Keeping
things bottled up is not healthy and won't allow you to get better or
begin recovery. Best wishes to you.
GrandpaAllen
you if you say whats on your mind and in your thoughts. Keeping
things bottled up is not healthy and won't allow you to get better or
begin recovery. Best wishes to you.
GrandpaAllen
Grandpa Allen
When u have been hurt so much in your life u learn to keep it inside.Sometime when I have slowly let someone in which is hard for me i get slammed.
Just sat aftr 30 together and 23 married he is leaving me and my daughter choose to go with him. So some lonely days and nights ahead.
Sorry I quit whineing.
Tina (kyra)
When u have been hurt so much in your life u learn to keep it inside.Sometime when I have slowly let someone in which is hard for me i get slammed.
Just sat aftr 30 together and 23 married he is leaving me and my daughter choose to go with him. So some lonely days and nights ahead.
Sorry I quit whineing.
Tina (kyra)
Tina (Kyra) Our prayers include you, we pray you will find what you need to be happy. It can sometimes be a lot of work but when I consider how much work and time I put into my addiction and getting and doing my drugs I believe I owe it to myself to put atleast half that much effort into getting clean & sober and in my
staying that way. Hope you see it like that and somehow try to get off your drugs "One Day At A Time".
I don't have the words to offer help in dealing with your man leaving you, but as well I will have your best in my prayers. People can change and maybe that will come for you. I have had rough times and you should know relationships can be mended. This summer we are celebrating our 34 year together. If I didn't have 24 or so years of alcohol free living I am sure we'd not be together.
Again I reinerate, you will be in our prayers and I scincerely hope things get better for you.
Post to me and let me know how you are doing, please.(?) thanks
Gramps
staying that way. Hope you see it like that and somehow try to get off your drugs "One Day At A Time".
I don't have the words to offer help in dealing with your man leaving you, but as well I will have your best in my prayers. People can change and maybe that will come for you. I have had rough times and you should know relationships can be mended. This summer we are celebrating our 34 year together. If I didn't have 24 or so years of alcohol free living I am sure we'd not be together.
Again I reinerate, you will be in our prayers and I scincerely hope things get better for you.
Post to me and let me know how you are doing, please.(?) thanks
Gramps
Grampa Allen,
I am not on my pity pot today, not yet anyway. Just having my coffee. U R so right things do change. Maybe after him and Cassie move out I will be forced to look in the mirror. I have had a hell of a lot of sorrow n my life. My husband is my worst critic. As bad as it hurts God could be telling me something. I have a few people saying they hope it works but really they say it is worst for him to stay. He does alot of calling me names like, b****,stupid,fat a**, etc. But reality is I have way more education than he does. After a while you begin to believe everything he says.
Truly I have a hugh heart. I will give someone the shirt off my back if the need it, and not even question it. He will even admit that. But I think I am so afraid of being alone. I left my parents got marrig@fow 30 years later I am miserable. I would reqret it all except I have two great (pain in the butt) children. Had I not traveled this road they would not be here. So there is a slight if not magnificent rainbow within this storm.
My shrink says I am doing great compared to the last year but why do I feel so lost and scared. I think I don't know what I am going to do. I have a invalid mother that my sister and I take care of and that can be draining. Then the demands at home. of trying to be perfect. Well I am SOOOOO far from perfect it would blow your mind. I am from the south and taught that blood is thicker than water and I believe that. Sometime blood is all ya have. Or someone nice like u who listens to me whine for no reason except u sound like a exceptional man and your wife is a lucky women and u a lucky man. I just don't want to die alone.
Sorry so long winded, I promise not to be next time.
Thank you sir,
xoxoxoxox
Tina (kyra)
I am not on my pity pot today, not yet anyway. Just having my coffee. U R so right things do change. Maybe after him and Cassie move out I will be forced to look in the mirror. I have had a hell of a lot of sorrow n my life. My husband is my worst critic. As bad as it hurts God could be telling me something. I have a few people saying they hope it works but really they say it is worst for him to stay. He does alot of calling me names like, b****,stupid,fat a**, etc. But reality is I have way more education than he does. After a while you begin to believe everything he says.
Truly I have a hugh heart. I will give someone the shirt off my back if the need it, and not even question it. He will even admit that. But I think I am so afraid of being alone. I left my parents got marrig@fow 30 years later I am miserable. I would reqret it all except I have two great (pain in the butt) children. Had I not traveled this road they would not be here. So there is a slight if not magnificent rainbow within this storm.
My shrink says I am doing great compared to the last year but why do I feel so lost and scared. I think I don't know what I am going to do. I have a invalid mother that my sister and I take care of and that can be draining. Then the demands at home. of trying to be perfect. Well I am SOOOOO far from perfect it would blow your mind. I am from the south and taught that blood is thicker than water and I believe that. Sometime blood is all ya have. Or someone nice like u who listens to me whine for no reason except u sound like a exceptional man and your wife is a lucky women and u a lucky man. I just don't want to die alone.
Sorry so long winded, I promise not to be next time.
Thank you sir,
xoxoxoxox
Tina (kyra)
Gramp allen sir,
I went to shrink yesterday and told him I wanted to taper. He cut my xanex by .5 mg a day. So I am starting.
Even went to dinner with husband last night. No great jump but a small hop is better than none.
Loveya,
Tina
I went to shrink yesterday and told him I wanted to taper. He cut my xanex by .5 mg a day. So I am starting.
Even went to dinner with husband last night. No great jump but a small hop is better than none.
Loveya,
Tina
Granpa Allen Sir,
Hope u r well, I am trying to taper now and thank you for your prayers and feed back.
Talk soon I hope,
Tina
Hope u r well, I am trying to taper now and thank you for your prayers and feed back.
Talk soon I hope,
Tina
Tina, morning. I do believe you will find the right one even if it turns out to be your hubby. IT will happen. Everyone deserves to BE happy. Don't worry about what you say is long winded, your cool. I am here. We all need someone we can talk to. I do have one question. . . does your doc give you anything for your stresses. (If I can ask) Don't know what I'd do without my Zyprexz. Congrad's on your tapering, hope it goes well. Good luck and God Bless you.
Allen
Allen
GranpaAllen,
I take xanex for anxiety. So that helps alot. But I will do this with the doctor and my freinds on the board.
By the way how r u doing. You sound so supportive,and I can't thank you enough. I will keep up with u and my weaning. Drop me aline when u have time. I will bug u til I hear from u.
Take care ,
Love ya,
Tina
I take xanex for anxiety. So that helps alot. But I will do this with the doctor and my freinds on the board.
By the way how r u doing. You sound so supportive,and I can't thank you enough. I will keep up with u and my weaning. Drop me aline when u have time. I will bug u til I hear from u.
Take care ,
Love ya,
Tina
Tina, Thanks. I am doing very well. My newest Grandson 1week 5days is so cute, so special. My wife and I are relishing in how incredible happy/lucky we
are. Incidentialy she wishes you the best as I do.
Hope you are doing good. Your in my prayers. Remember, you are in control, take it one day at a time.
Grandpa allen
are. Incidentialy she wishes you the best as I do.
Hope you are doing good. Your in my prayers. Remember, you are in control, take it one day at a time.
Grandpa allen
Oh God blessu with a new one to play with. I would love to kiss him ontop of the head. I adore babies. Congratulations!!! That is so exciting. Bet u and your wife will have a blast loving him/her. I have such a; ;love for babies.
I am doing well so far today. Have not missed my taper .5 mg since Tues. I am going to do this with God's help and my friend on the board. Thank you for all the wise things u have taught me.
I hope to talk with u soon.
Love ya,
Tina
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I am doing well so far today. Have not missed my taper .5 mg since Tues. I am going to do this with God's help and my friend on the board. Thank you for all the wise things u have taught me.
I hope to talk with u soon.
Love ya,
Tina
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Thanks Tina, Very proud you are doing so well tapering. Pat yourself on the back you deserve it. I know and YOU know you can do it. Everyday you are one step closer and farther from where you don't want to be, anymore.
You R Blessed. Smile.
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My newest Grandson is so special. I have a 14 yr old Grandson, another boy who is going on 6 and this one. Two girls 9 & 13 too. (Via my daughgters second family)
Can't get over how nice it is to be "right where I'm at @ this instant. Say "yeah".
Am I out-of-line to ask your status.(kids?) No prob if you'd like to keep your personal stuff personal. Think I mentioned I am in TX from MN, didn't I??
Think I mentioned too my addiction background covers being sober (alcohol free) for 'bouts 23 years, Off pot for 5/6 yrs and after a bit over a dozen years I am in control of my pain meds for just the last couple years.
A few total knee replacements and 9 major back operations, chronic pain will always have me seeing my psych pain management doc. He is my strength.
Well, let you go, hope to hear from you soon.
Grandpa Allen
You R Blessed. Smile.
hey
My newest Grandson is so special. I have a 14 yr old Grandson, another boy who is going on 6 and this one. Two girls 9 & 13 too. (Via my daughgters second family)
Can't get over how nice it is to be "right where I'm at @ this instant. Say "yeah".
Am I out-of-line to ask your status.(kids?) No prob if you'd like to keep your personal stuff personal. Think I mentioned I am in TX from MN, didn't I??
Think I mentioned too my addiction background covers being sober (alcohol free) for 'bouts 23 years, Off pot for 5/6 yrs and after a bit over a dozen years I am in control of my pain meds for just the last couple years.
A few total knee replacements and 9 major back operations, chronic pain will always have me seeing my psych pain management doc. He is my strength.
Well, let you go, hope to hear from you soon.
Grandpa Allen
Good morning Grampa Allen sir,
I am doing so much better u have made a big difference in my life. U r one special guy and your wife sounds like an angel. I think God sent u to each other.
I am finally proud of myself on the taper but i had to convince myself it was a start. I think I have.
Kiss that baby on the head and neck for me. There little love spots.
Let me run this down for ya.
I have two kids son 20 daughter 15
My mom had 6 kids all here except the one killed in the wreck (she is with God and know she is fine)
I have 11 nieces and nephews.
I have 7 great nieces and nephews.
One is 1 1/2 week but they live in NC and I am n Charleston, SC so I haven't seen any thing but a picture so far. They will be down soon my brother and his wife live here too. We are a close knit family if ya know what I mean. And that is just my side of the family. I am close to Jimmy's neices and newphew also. Thanks for asking about them. I going to get back close to all. Now that I know I can beat this there is no more reason to hide. I know it will be hard so I am waiting on the w/d but God willing I won't have any if I go real slow.
But I want u to know u amaze me to help some of us whining addicts. Do you think AA or Narcotics Annoyomous is better for me to try to start going to? I know I need to get started on a plan to stay clean even though it is down the road.
U r not winded. I love reading your post. Hope you have a wonderful day and tell your wife hello.
Love ya lots,
Tina
I am doing so much better u have made a big difference in my life. U r one special guy and your wife sounds like an angel. I think God sent u to each other.
I am finally proud of myself on the taper but i had to convince myself it was a start. I think I have.
Kiss that baby on the head and neck for me. There little love spots.
Let me run this down for ya.
I have two kids son 20 daughter 15
My mom had 6 kids all here except the one killed in the wreck (she is with God and know she is fine)
I have 11 nieces and nephews.
I have 7 great nieces and nephews.
One is 1 1/2 week but they live in NC and I am n Charleston, SC so I haven't seen any thing but a picture so far. They will be down soon my brother and his wife live here too. We are a close knit family if ya know what I mean. And that is just my side of the family. I am close to Jimmy's neices and newphew also. Thanks for asking about them. I going to get back close to all. Now that I know I can beat this there is no more reason to hide. I know it will be hard so I am waiting on the w/d but God willing I won't have any if I go real slow.
But I want u to know u amaze me to help some of us whining addicts. Do you think AA or Narcotics Annoyomous is better for me to try to start going to? I know I need to get started on a plan to stay clean even though it is down the road.
U r not winded. I love reading your post. Hope you have a wonderful day and tell your wife hello.
Love ya lots,
Tina
