Its odd because I thought I would be pretty much normal by now. Thank God I am not so sick. Now its seems every time I turn around I am hit by a wave a sadness. Like ready to cry . I do not think I was ever this sad . Its a bummer.
Still clean though . Just bummed .
Mandy
hang in there babe, i know how you feel. these emotions are sometimes the hardest part of this.
MISS MANDY,
CONGRATS ON STAYING CLEAN.I DONT REALLY HAVE ANY ADVICE TO GIVE BUT I TRULY BELIEVE IF YOU NEED TO CRY THEN JUST CRY. DO YOU FEEL BETTER AFTER A SOB SESSION? I KNOW I CERTAINLY DO.
HANG IN THERE, YOU WILL SOON SEE THINGS ALOT BRIGHTER.
TAKE CARE
DO U MIND IF I ASK HOW LONG CLEAN? IM WONDERING B/C MY SISTER IS ON DAY 3 OF WITHDRAWL AND HANGING IN THERE.SHE JUST WANTS IT TO BE OVER.
CONGRATS ON STAYING CLEAN.I DONT REALLY HAVE ANY ADVICE TO GIVE BUT I TRULY BELIEVE IF YOU NEED TO CRY THEN JUST CRY. DO YOU FEEL BETTER AFTER A SOB SESSION? I KNOW I CERTAINLY DO.
HANG IN THERE, YOU WILL SOON SEE THINGS ALOT BRIGHTER.
TAKE CARE
DO U MIND IF I ASK HOW LONG CLEAN? IM WONDERING B/C MY SISTER IS ON DAY 3 OF WITHDRAWL AND HANGING IN THERE.SHE JUST WANTS IT TO BE OVER.
mandy,
that is so normal sweety, just ride the waves and know you are not losing your mind, this too shall pass. i promise, this also does not last forever. just ride it out. you are feeling again for the 1st time in a long time. you will feel alot of different waves of emotion. it can be overwhelming. but dont let it scare you. it's part of the process. again the sadness doesnt last forever. tears are just another form of cleansing and releasing emotion naturally. your gonna be ok. just keep posting. maybe try and identify with what those tears represent. most likely at this stage of the game they mean nothing. it is just part of w/d we all have been there and completely relate. if you have faith and believe in prayer, spend some time with god and talk with him, ask for some comfort and to protect your mind and relieve you of this reaction. grab the peace and strength you need from god and all the contentment he has to offer. he loves you and wants nothing more then your happiness. if by chance you have a hard time with the god thing, and you are not offended i will say the paryer for you, either way i will pray. prayers are more powerful in numbers. hang in there. your making it. you are worth every minute of all of your hard work towards your recovery goal and you deserve this and all the best that it has to offer. each day gets amazingly better : )
terrianne
that is so normal sweety, just ride the waves and know you are not losing your mind, this too shall pass. i promise, this also does not last forever. just ride it out. you are feeling again for the 1st time in a long time. you will feel alot of different waves of emotion. it can be overwhelming. but dont let it scare you. it's part of the process. again the sadness doesnt last forever. tears are just another form of cleansing and releasing emotion naturally. your gonna be ok. just keep posting. maybe try and identify with what those tears represent. most likely at this stage of the game they mean nothing. it is just part of w/d we all have been there and completely relate. if you have faith and believe in prayer, spend some time with god and talk with him, ask for some comfort and to protect your mind and relieve you of this reaction. grab the peace and strength you need from god and all the contentment he has to offer. he loves you and wants nothing more then your happiness. if by chance you have a hard time with the god thing, and you are not offended i will say the paryer for you, either way i will pray. prayers are more powerful in numbers. hang in there. your making it. you are worth every minute of all of your hard work towards your recovery goal and you deserve this and all the best that it has to offer. each day gets amazingly better : )
terrianne
What Terrianne said is so true. God loves you and wants you to know it. He understands that we are just flesh and blood and that we have these weak parts in our lives. I used to be so bad on pills like most on this board, and I got on suboxone and man did I ever feel much better. I have back problems and got very much addicted to pain pills, I thought there was no way out and that God was mad at me and I would never be normal again. Here I was going to church and on these addicting pills and going threw an emotional roller coaster, but I found this sight ,,no God lead me here and someone told me to try to find suboxone and I did and it worked.So I truley believe that God used this place and sub. to help me when I couldn't help myself. hang in there
hang in there mandy, it will get better.you are doing so great...kimber:)
Mandy sweetie I know exactly where you are coming from and like everyone said it is very normal. I was ultra sensitive and still am at times. But we love you and you love yourself and your clean. Stay strong and be proud of yourself. Cry and let it out. I know for me when I was using I didn't have a good cry for a long time, it was overdue..LOL
Love
Sarah
Love
Sarah
Miss Mandy:
I'm on my 9th day and I haven't had the problem of crying but I want ENERGY. I'm moving all I can but it is really slow coming back - I guess I abused my body for so long, I am not gonna be peppy me for a while.
I do my general picking up in the house every day, cook s'thing really easy, take
my 2 little Shi-tzus out for a walk - more for me than them. Something about being outside and getting out of this house helps me.
So, maybe the crying will take a little longer, too. Thank God we are finished with WD's.
How many days has it been for you?
Bikeman told me that it may take months -- I'm glad he did so if it's a lot better in one month, that will be a plus. I'm taking all of the energy supplements.
Hope you feel better.
I'll be thinking of you.
Love, Jean
I'm on my 9th day and I haven't had the problem of crying but I want ENERGY. I'm moving all I can but it is really slow coming back - I guess I abused my body for so long, I am not gonna be peppy me for a while.
I do my general picking up in the house every day, cook s'thing really easy, take
my 2 little Shi-tzus out for a walk - more for me than them. Something about being outside and getting out of this house helps me.
So, maybe the crying will take a little longer, too. Thank God we are finished with WD's.
How many days has it been for you?
Bikeman told me that it may take months -- I'm glad he did so if it's a lot better in one month, that will be a plus. I'm taking all of the energy supplements.
Hope you feel better.
I'll be thinking of you.
Love, Jean
Thank you guys,
It always helps to know someone is going though the same thing or has gone though it and lived to tell about it. I am now on day 7 . I have to say it is a hell of alot better them day 3. But I am just sad . So very very sad. I know I shoud be happy because I am getting my life back and all but really I feel like I ran over someones cat .
Love Mandy
It always helps to know someone is going though the same thing or has gone though it and lived to tell about it. I am now on day 7 . I have to say it is a hell of alot better them day 3. But I am just sad . So very very sad. I know I shoud be happy because I am getting my life back and all but really I feel like I ran over someones cat .
Love Mandy
Mandy,Honest the best thing to do when you feel so low is to let yourself cry.I know for a fact that it helps.Also your only on day 7 what did you think?Dont push yourself your doing great.If you start putting pressure on yourself than that is not going to help.
Mandy I know how fustrating this can be.you think wow I stopped the pills & still feel like crap.But you need to remember that you took pills for how long?Your mind & your body need to get use to living without that.Some moments are gonna be hard & your doing the best thing by talking it out,Hang in there sweety YOUVE COME THIS FAR.Its ok to feel like crap awhile longer...mj
Mandy I know how fustrating this can be.you think wow I stopped the pills & still feel like crap.But you need to remember that you took pills for how long?Your mind & your body need to get use to living without that.Some moments are gonna be hard & your doing the best thing by talking it out,Hang in there sweety YOUVE COME THIS FAR.Its ok to feel like crap awhile longer...mj
Hang in there girl.....I feel the same way.
I was on vicoprofen for 6 years 10-20 a day. Went c/t 18 days ago...but. My doctor in his infinite wisdom put me on Fetanyl to help with w/d. Well 10 days ago when the fetanyl patch game off....w/d all over again. Most of the physical symptoms are gone....still sick to my stomach, diarrhea, but its not to bad. The worst is the depression. I am so sad. I cry every ten minutes. I want so much to be happy, have energy, and that just makes me even more depressed. I keep telling myself that I feel better tommorrow, but it seems tomorrow is not coming quick enough for me. Try to treat yourself to something. I went out last night and spent 160 dollars on my hair. I felt pretty good in the salon. It's gonna take time. I with you all the way. Wish I could just give you a big hug.
Michelle
PS. Watch movies. It does help.
I was on vicoprofen for 6 years 10-20 a day. Went c/t 18 days ago...but. My doctor in his infinite wisdom put me on Fetanyl to help with w/d. Well 10 days ago when the fetanyl patch game off....w/d all over again. Most of the physical symptoms are gone....still sick to my stomach, diarrhea, but its not to bad. The worst is the depression. I am so sad. I cry every ten minutes. I want so much to be happy, have energy, and that just makes me even more depressed. I keep telling myself that I feel better tommorrow, but it seems tomorrow is not coming quick enough for me. Try to treat yourself to something. I went out last night and spent 160 dollars on my hair. I felt pretty good in the salon. It's gonna take time. I with you all the way. Wish I could just give you a big hug.
Michelle
PS. Watch movies. It does help.
Hey Paleogal(cute name)I dont think we have ever spoke so I wanted to say hello to you.The depression can be so heartbreaking at times huh?Now are you depressed from no drugs or are you like me & have depression?By the way welcome....mj
Hi mollyjean,
Well to tell you the truth.....I am being treated for depression. I am on Lexapro. Started about three months ago. I wonder though, was it my depression that led to my addiction...or was it my addiction that led to my depression? Man, I confuse myself sometimes. Anyway, I think right now I am just depressed as a result of the w/d. I just want to feel normal again, and it just bugs the heck out of me that I am not. Any idea how long the post w/d blues last?
Michelle
Well to tell you the truth.....I am being treated for depression. I am on Lexapro. Started about three months ago. I wonder though, was it my depression that led to my addiction...or was it my addiction that led to my depression? Man, I confuse myself sometimes. Anyway, I think right now I am just depressed as a result of the w/d. I just want to feel normal again, and it just bugs the heck out of me that I am not. Any idea how long the post w/d blues last?
Michelle
Hey Im on the lexapro too.I think for most of my life I had depression & was self medicating to try & fix it.Now I have physical problem that I could use pain pills for but being an addict Im like a pacman if you put pills in front of me.
The sadness you feel will probaly come & go.18 days is great.But try to rememmber you were on them for so long it will take time for your body to learn to live without them.For now if you feel that sadness dont fight it,just have a good cry & try again.That is one of the reasons this board is awesome.because if your having a hard day you can come here & try & talk it out.
Do you go to NA or have a therapist?I plan on starting therapy,because I feel for me to move forwards I have to deal with some baggage from my past...mj-
The sadness you feel will probaly come & go.18 days is great.But try to rememmber you were on them for so long it will take time for your body to learn to live without them.For now if you feel that sadness dont fight it,just have a good cry & try again.That is one of the reasons this board is awesome.because if your having a hard day you can come here & try & talk it out.
Do you go to NA or have a therapist?I plan on starting therapy,because I feel for me to move forwards I have to deal with some baggage from my past...mj-
mj
I have a therapist, but he is not very helpful. I am going to look for a new one once I start feeling a little better. I am same with pain pills. I have rheumatoid arthritis and used that as an excuse to eat them like candy. Funny I have not had one joint pain since I stopped the pills. I am going to go see my doc this evening. There is nothing he can do for me right now, but I don't want him to forget about me, and know that I am still in this fight.
Michelle
I have a therapist, but he is not very helpful. I am going to look for a new one once I start feeling a little better. I am same with pain pills. I have rheumatoid arthritis and used that as an excuse to eat them like candy. Funny I have not had one joint pain since I stopped the pills. I am going to go see my doc this evening. There is nothing he can do for me right now, but I don't want him to forget about me, and know that I am still in this fight.
Michelle
Please keep looking for a better therapist.From what Ive read it is really important to do some soul searching to maybe find out what brought you to this point.I have Chrons so I have pain everyday,but I am an addict so I always need to remember that.
Let me know how you Dr visit goes.You said you have less pain now?Ive heard alot of people say that the pills can actually make you feel more pain.
Our minds are so complex huh?
Let me know how you Dr visit goes.You said you have less pain now?Ive heard alot of people say that the pills can actually make you feel more pain.
Our minds are so complex huh?
