Once again I am down the wrong track. I started going to an out-patient program in April. I went religously and got myself again on the right track. I got drunk again and the facility that I was in thought I needed more intentsive treatment. I stopped working to continue what I knew I needed. I went to the Intentsive Outpaient Program Tuesday - Saturday 9:30 - 12:30 every day. I went to my AA meetings every night. I went back to work in May and continued Outpatient at night 2 times a week for an 1 1/2 every night and still going to AA meetings every night. Things at work once again got out of control and it was suggested that we part on good terms. I had been working there for 15 years and had alot of support behind me but it got the point where they saw it was not an option for me to be an employee there anymore and I did not want to work there anymore. We parted on good terms and I was able to collect my unmployment and have my COBRA insurance. I get $405 a week and money is not one of my problems. I was divorced 2 years ago and received a very nice settlement from our home that we owned together. My boyfriend is a businessman who makes alot of money and I never need for anything as far as money is concerned. Two weeks ago I wanted to go to clean out my desk and found out that my things were thrown out in the dumpster. (By accident or by mistake I do not know). My boyfriend (who is also my Ex-Boss said it was his fault but I have other thoughts) I drank for 4 days straight and called the facility I was going to outpatient in and asked to be put in Detox. They took me in and I spent 5 days there. That helped me alot. My Dad and everyone around me family friends want to see me make it.. I want my life back. I'm a good person but choose bad decisions. Thanks for listenting. I read your web messages every day and it gives me hope.
Hi Linda
Welcome. When you were going to AA did you have a sponsor? What step were you on? It takes more than just meetings, hon. Congratulations on making it back. So many of us don't make it.
smooches
Welcome. When you were going to AA did you have a sponsor? What step were you on? It takes more than just meetings, hon. Congratulations on making it back. So many of us don't make it.
smooches
Hi Linda
keep on posting, keep on sharing. We're here for you
idgie
keep on posting, keep on sharing. We're here for you
idgie
Welcome Linda! There is hope and there is a solution and you don't have to live life like you've been living it; you can get your life back. Looking forward to your posts.
Hey Linda welcome to the boards and keep posting, the following was said to me before and during rehab, do all you have to do for you...no one else, or because you think you have to do things and resentment is no good and what other people think of me is none of my buisness, so forget about who did what at work and concentrate on all the support you have and the abillity to go to rehab etc. I know for me that i had to write my 1st step 6 times because all the other 5 were for what attention i could get, i had to get honest with myself and do rehab for me and not the reognition, i also struggled in early AA because i took every thing said as gospel so when a particular AA said relapse was a part of recovery and that my gratitude for being sober would cease, i shat bricks. So i planned my relapse for 2 weeks and waited for the s***e to hit the fan, until i realised how silly i was and that was the end of my first sponsor.
All sobrieties are different learn from what happened and don't be to hard on yourself because you have the rest of your sobriety to change the past, one day at a time.
Light and love Zac
All sobrieties are different learn from what happened and don't be to hard on yourself because you have the rest of your sobriety to change the past, one day at a time.
Light and love Zac
Hey Linda,
Welcome, good to see you here, I check in here daily when I can,
It helps me keep sober, there is always good advice around here,so keep on comin in !
Ginge
Welcome, good to see you here, I check in here daily when I can,
It helps me keep sober, there is always good advice around here,so keep on comin in !
Ginge
