Hi everybody, i was thinking about this tonight. i tend to think of drugs as animate things. Do to my addictive personality i look at drugs as companions. when i think of my drug of choice , marijuana, i think of it as a sexy lady. yes i'm a guy. i think of weed as a sexy woman, always tempting me and provoking me to embrace her for the comfort she gives. that is why i used to smoke weed dawn to dusk, and for a long time thought i would never give it up. now it has been just over a year since i have smoked. i still miss my girl, but know i can't go back.
i think of alcohol as a Snake, in the grass. it seems to slither into my life when i least expect it. i didn't really drink that much when i smoked weed, but now without weed i find myself dinking way too much at an alarming rate and frequency when i least expect it. it slithers in without me realizing it and the next thing you know i'm drinking like an alcoholic and i don't even like the alcohol buzz that much.
Then there is cocaine. I think of cocaine as a Giant. I used to do cocaine rarly, like 2 or 3 times a year. now that i have quit weed i do coke 3 or 4 times a month. and i call it a Giant because i always used to think of it so passively, never really realized the addictive power it has. it always just seemed like "good coffee" to me. now i realized that given my obsessive, compulsive personality it was a sleeping Giant with crushing power that takes everything i have not to let it just take over. take over like the sexy, seductive lady marijuana is to me.
I have never tried heroin, but i think heroin is probably a Dragon. Firery and extremely powerfull. probably the most powerfull of the drug characters. I am saving heroin for my 70's.
cigarettes are mice, vermin in the jungle of drugs. always lurking around in the nooks and crannies. impossible to erradicate, an essential part of the drug circle, but pesty and dirty. I smoke tobacco as a subsittute for weed. i found that i am fixated an smoking and cigs helped me initialy with quiting weed. now i quit cigs from time to time but they always worm their way back into my life. i'll be 6 weeks ,off 3 on, 1 off, 2 on, and on and on. when i smoked weed habitualy i didn't smoke cigs, only very rarly. like maybe 12 a year.
pcycidelics are like butterflies. don't think i need to eloborate on that one.
Sex is like. well sex is like masturbation, you can just do it over and over and over. Making love to someone you love is so much more than sex. and isn't addictive like sex or masterbation. it is pure and selfless like everything i search for when i act out my addictive qualities.
some addictions are healthier than others, but it is really all the same and i use these metaphors to help me know what i am dealing with when i pick a drug to act out on.
hope you all appreciate this. it wasn't meant to be enlightning or productive, just observational and artistic from and addictive mind.
I feel the same way. They talk to us. I've done everything but pills call to kill the pain-just like a guy. Do you copy?
