I went to a truly great meeting today, met some great people, and the fellowship really helped restore the morale that has been slowly slipping away. Socializing with people in all phases of recovery is great, I get to see where I came from and remind myself I HAVE made GREAT progress, and hopefully I can help someone in turn. I also get to see what my life has the potential to be if I stay clean and that may be the biggest benefit.
I talked about my current bout of PAWS symptoms, that it was hard but I was managing, had 14 days clean, etc. I got lots of clapping and "keep coming back"s & lots of support & empathy, and it felt great.
BUT as I was leaving this meeting, smoking & chatting with some folks, a guy caught my eye & we start talking. I though he seemed a little shifty, he just wasn't acting right, red eyes, you know the signs. I asked him how long he had with NA and he said 25 years! Of course I said,"wow! great! you are where I aspire to be someday!"
Then he says, "if you wanna get those symptoms under control I got what you need. You wanna take a ride?" WTF?
I can't say I didn't consider it for a fraction of a second. But I think this was a test from my "higher power". I was a bit dumbfounded, trying to think of a suitably scathing reply when a woman came over and grabbed me and said," hey come over into the sun, it's cold here & I want to give you my number." So she pulls me away and whispers to stay away from that guy, that he's a dealer. I'm like, "you don't say!!!"
So I was saved from an awkward situation by a really nice lady who I ended up talking to for a long time, and maybe she'll become my sponsor. Who knows, but I'm in this for the long haul.
Thanks for testing me today God, and thank you for giving me the strength and the help to say NO.
I was told by the oldtimers to "Stick with The Winners". It sounds like the lady is a winner !
All the best.
Bob R
All the best.
Bob R
Hi. I just moved to Broomfield, Co from cleveland, oh. Looking for a good NA meeting. I'm really trying to get it together. Hoping to meet strong like minded people. I've got to get rid of this heroin addiction once n for all. Any suggestions for someone new in town?