I don't think this cycle of drug abuse is ever going to end....My son has wreaked 9 cars in 6 years ..and I have continued to enable him...His drug use has created so much stress in our family...he lies, steals, manipulates...has almost burned our house down twice..by nodding out with cigarettes in his hand..He has been in and out of re-habs...IOP N/A meetings ect..ect...I am at my breaking point with him...I want him out of our house ..but like any loving Mother..worry about where he will sleep at night..I don't want a dead son ..so I continue to love and support him..but my life has not been my own since he started using 7 years ago....My husband is picking him up at the hospital as I write this..He has nodded off while under the influence and rear ended another car..( no one was seriously injured) but car #no. 9 has been totaled....I keep telling him GOD must have a purpose for him..because by all means ..he should be dead by now..He recently stole my checks and him and another drug addict..wrote checks for 4k before I caught it..( this was not the 1st time ).I have had sever PTS from losing my brother, mother and father recently..as well as my job..my home , my benefits..ect..and I am trying to get thru all my grief..on top of his drug use..sometimes I just want to die...any feedback from someone would be appreciated..
Dear So Low, I am sorry for the loss of your Mother ,Father and Brother....instead of mourning their loss be grateful for the time you were able to share with them...the reality of life is when you love someone you never feel you have enough time with them...don't think I don't understand or I'm callous to your feelings. ..My mom passed away at age 59 from brain cancer my brother just turned 32 drug and alcohol. ..My Dad smoking related....My son has been a heroin addict for over 10 years. ..multiple arrests credit card fraud on his father stole my checks forged them pawned numerous items...I was the dog chasing my tail feeling I could make it all better...I didn't make one thing better his addiction affected my marriage ...over his father and I divorced lost our house he was addicted to heroin I was addicted to trying to fix him....thousands lost to rehabs....now let's fast forward 10 years. ..10....He will not get better till he decides to...no matter what I do...I lost myself trying to help him find himself...I barely speak with my sisters anymore because I tired of hearing of their children's success and why didn't I fix Chris ...You could've done something...You cannot make your son better he is making his choices...by allowing him to be at your home his addiction is like a toxic mold that is infecting all in its path.....He has to be let go he has to asked to leave as his presence gives him the license to keep using.....He has no need to change anything...You have to be strong ..get help for yourself....believe you deserve a life and start to strive for it...You are allowing his decisions destroy you...they are his to own up to....make it clear you love him but will not tolerate or support his actions and addictions and mean it....if you begin to change it just might allow him to consider to seek help for himself...your not helping him ....It'll only get worse before it gets better.
