I am in day 2 of coming off 2, 2 mil bars a day for about a year. My husband has been nice and supportive until this morning. He is being mean ( I would really like to say what he is really being BUT!) He is like 'Get over it you aren't going to die or have seizures. Insensitive would be putting it VERY lightly. He is in the shower now because he said he had to get out of here because he couldn't stand me like this. Nothing like being alone, sick, seeing s*** that isn't even there and feeling over all like you are going to loose it and never be normal again. That bottle of Advil is looking pretty good right now. Ack! Would that be considered a suicidal thought? If I could just stop crying grrrrr.
K,
i am begging you to call a dr at least or a nurse hotline, call a friend and tell them to take you in if your husband isnt supportive. your husband just doesnt understand, he cant comprehend and you are dealing with alot of emotions right now and coming off that stuff makes you not able to think straight so you cant explain it to him so he can. but you really need to call someone and like i posted to you on the other board make something up if you have too but get some help!!! it is not going to get better for a while and you dont have to suffer please do yourself a favor before it gets out of hand. this is nothing to be taken lightly.
terrianne
i am begging you to call a dr at least or a nurse hotline, call a friend and tell them to take you in if your husband isnt supportive. your husband just doesnt understand, he cant comprehend and you are dealing with alot of emotions right now and coming off that stuff makes you not able to think straight so you cant explain it to him so he can. but you really need to call someone and like i posted to you on the other board make something up if you have too but get some help!!! it is not going to get better for a while and you dont have to suffer please do yourself a favor before it gets out of hand. this is nothing to be taken lightly.
terrianne
YES KAELA I AGREE WITH TERRIANNE... WHY WON'T YOU GO TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM?This is ONLY going to get worse. Your husband has no clue. I have known a few people that have stopped talking xanax after a long period of time and it is rough. SERIOUSLY, it is going to be weeks and weeks for you to feel better. You need to be seen at the ER today. So please re-consider getting in the car and driving your self there. This is ONLY the beginning of a long journey for you honey. I only want to see you in a safe environment at this stage. Please go! Rae
Sorry you are having such a tough time. I have read and heard that benzo w/d is not to be done without the help of a professional. As you may now know.
Please call a dr., and just be honest. Or go to the ER. You truly do not need to be going through this at home alone. Especially with someone who is giving you a hard time.
So your husband got you started on the pills? And now he doesn't understand. That;s a shame. Maybe you could let him read some of the info. you've read about what you are going through. Explain to him the seriousness of it. Good luck w/him, but please get some outside help!
Please call a dr., and just be honest. Or go to the ER. You truly do not need to be going through this at home alone. Especially with someone who is giving you a hard time.
So your husband got you started on the pills? And now he doesn't understand. That;s a shame. Maybe you could let him read some of the info. you've read about what you are going through. Explain to him the seriousness of it. Good luck w/him, but please get some outside help!
I agree with what everyone else has said, and just wanted to add, all the thoughts your having today, you will not always have, there is a brighter tomorrow, just try to get through today.
Best Regards,
Tom
Best Regards,
Tom
Kaela,
I have some web sites you could show to your husband about xanax withdrawl. Did you look at the one Bullwinkle gave you yesturday? Well I have a couple more if you want to see them, I will be happy to send them to you. Just e-mail me at Bunny4804@aol.com and put your name in the subject box. I will try and help you as much as possible but we can only do so much from here. What state are you in? Rae
I have some web sites you could show to your husband about xanax withdrawl. Did you look at the one Bullwinkle gave you yesturday? Well I have a couple more if you want to see them, I will be happy to send them to you. Just e-mail me at Bunny4804@aol.com and put your name in the subject box. I will try and help you as much as possible but we can only do so much from here. What state are you in? Rae
Kaela,
Your post today upset me very much.....actually there have been a few that have mostly on the friends and family board......I am planning of putting up a post about it later.....maybe you should have your husband read it.....
I guess I should first say I am on your husbands side of things and you know what he did I think is evil....If he has been supportive up until this morning than what happened today to have him turn the way he did......Your health right now should be his first concern especially if he helped you on your way in this...and you know what it doesn't matter what role he played, he is your husband if you asked for help then he should just step up to the plate....I understand that this is hard on those on my side but come on.....most would help another that they cared for at the drop of a dime so what makes drug addiction any different than other problems we may each face and need help with......I am sorry I am real angry today and you shall all find out why soon.....
Look Kaela.......right now in your head you should be your first concern not what anyone thinks of you.....You health depends on you taking care of you, if you won't then who will.....Please pick up that phone and make a call to someone.....look in your local phonebook for the substance abuse mental health phone line........if you have insurance then a number like that should be on the back of your card....they will ask questions and if need be get you help right away......Or just get your butt to the nearest emergency room........Benzo's are not a drug you should ever ever go ct from.....this has nothing to with being perceived as week.....it just shouldn't ever be done, the medical ramifications could be deadly.....and I think you know that.....You are worth so much to this life....make that call please for yourself and find help where ever you can........
And in the words of Sammy........If anyone hasn't told you today that they love you I do.....
Please take care of you, you are so worth it.....
Love,
Tina
Your post today upset me very much.....actually there have been a few that have mostly on the friends and family board......I am planning of putting up a post about it later.....maybe you should have your husband read it.....
I guess I should first say I am on your husbands side of things and you know what he did I think is evil....If he has been supportive up until this morning than what happened today to have him turn the way he did......Your health right now should be his first concern especially if he helped you on your way in this...and you know what it doesn't matter what role he played, he is your husband if you asked for help then he should just step up to the plate....I understand that this is hard on those on my side but come on.....most would help another that they cared for at the drop of a dime so what makes drug addiction any different than other problems we may each face and need help with......I am sorry I am real angry today and you shall all find out why soon.....
Look Kaela.......right now in your head you should be your first concern not what anyone thinks of you.....You health depends on you taking care of you, if you won't then who will.....Please pick up that phone and make a call to someone.....look in your local phonebook for the substance abuse mental health phone line........if you have insurance then a number like that should be on the back of your card....they will ask questions and if need be get you help right away......Or just get your butt to the nearest emergency room........Benzo's are not a drug you should ever ever go ct from.....this has nothing to with being perceived as week.....it just shouldn't ever be done, the medical ramifications could be deadly.....and I think you know that.....You are worth so much to this life....make that call please for yourself and find help where ever you can........
And in the words of Sammy........If anyone hasn't told you today that they love you I do.....
Please take care of you, you are so worth it.....
Love,
Tina
Kaela,
PLEASE take the advice that has been giving to you. This is NOT something to play around with. Your husband doesnt have a clue about what can happen to you. I KNOW this for a FACT - I've been taking xanax for almost 20years, due to Severe Panic Disorder and my dr. is monitoring my VERY slow tapering of them and warned me (which I could never do anyway) to NEVER STOP COLD TURKEY - it WILL CAUSE SIEZURES OR WORSE. Honey, you were taking alot more than I am now and it is really DANGEROUS. Please seek help ASAP- Dont be afraid - go to an emergency room and explain to them - everything is confidential. Do this ASAP. Keep coming back and let us know how it goes. You take good care of yourself.
Love,
Marie
PLEASE take the advice that has been giving to you. This is NOT something to play around with. Your husband doesnt have a clue about what can happen to you. I KNOW this for a FACT - I've been taking xanax for almost 20years, due to Severe Panic Disorder and my dr. is monitoring my VERY slow tapering of them and warned me (which I could never do anyway) to NEVER STOP COLD TURKEY - it WILL CAUSE SIEZURES OR WORSE. Honey, you were taking alot more than I am now and it is really DANGEROUS. Please seek help ASAP- Dont be afraid - go to an emergency room and explain to them - everything is confidential. Do this ASAP. Keep coming back and let us know how it goes. You take good care of yourself.
Love,
Marie
I just posted on the other board, asking Kaela where are you? Kaela you NEED TO GO TO THE ER NOW! I work and have worked in the Emergency room. People there will help you.... this is serious, and you need to at least get through the weekend.
Hi Kaela,
I hope you come back to us. I know exactly what your feeling. My first two days going through w/d my ex left to go drink and "take care of business". I was sick and alone and wanted to die. I thought if the w/ds dont kill me I want to kill myself. I decided that i had two opptions to get through...1. call an ambulance to take me to the hospital. 2. call my family to come get me. I did the latter and have not looked back since. That was 46 days ago. I know its hard to think clear when your feeling so bad and it can be embarrassing to ask for help, but in days to come you'll look back and be proud of yourself for doing it.
Feel free to email me anytime....sandy_carter@hotmail.com
Take care my friend.
Sandy
I hope you come back to us. I know exactly what your feeling. My first two days going through w/d my ex left to go drink and "take care of business". I was sick and alone and wanted to die. I thought if the w/ds dont kill me I want to kill myself. I decided that i had two opptions to get through...1. call an ambulance to take me to the hospital. 2. call my family to come get me. I did the latter and have not looked back since. That was 46 days ago. I know its hard to think clear when your feeling so bad and it can be embarrassing to ask for help, but in days to come you'll look back and be proud of yourself for doing it.
Feel free to email me anytime....sandy_carter@hotmail.com
Take care my friend.
Sandy
Kae- Not to offend but your husband is a friggin dumbbell.I went through it and know a lot about it..it's extremely dangerous..I had seizures and I was taking less than you..
GET SOME PRO. HELP, BENZOS ARE VERY dangerous to come off of. DO NOT QUIT Cold, there is not one person anywhere that would advise u of that. It can result in convulsions & death. I never went thru a benzo WD, but there have been times when i used them for a short peiod & stopped which resulted in depression & very depressive thinking that seemed 'real'. I could not imagine what it would do to a persons thinking who had been on as long as u. YOU HAVE GOT TO GET HELP.
Welcome to the board. Benzos are EXTEMELY DANGEROUS TO JUST STOP. I saw a guy have seizure from coming xanax...
Please please please call a detox center!!!!!!!!
Good luck!!!
Kerry
Please please please call a detox center!!!!!!!!
Good luck!!!
Kerry
