Hi,
By now most of you know of my daughter and me. She is a 20 year old recovering heroin addict, and I am, of course, Hermom. ;)
Now that she has 40+ days clean,(woo-hoo) she shares alot with me. She talks of the good and evil conversations that go on in her head.She scams and sceams in her head about using one more time, but has not yet given into these feelings. Does anyone else feel this? Does this ever go away?
She is living in a sober house, but oviously still craves the drug. She is not on any meds except seraquel, to sleep. Tomorrow she picks up her scripts for Lexapro and trilepsal. (Anti depressant and mood stablizer.) Do you think this will help with cravings also? She has had a bad experience with Natrexone, that her Doctor is recomending. Suboxone/subutex, methadone, are not an option in this program.
Any insight will be appreciated.
Thanks(again)!
Hermom
Ahhhhhh, hermom one of my favorite mom's ever.
40 days and counting. That is so wonderful.
I can only speak for myself and try to explain in the only way I know how. Eventually the cravings go away. Just a stupid example: You love chocolate ice cream. You crave it. The stores out of it so you go to another. Nope. Out of chocolate ice cream. Well, you still crave it, and into the next few days you are wanting that ice cream BAD NOW. Suddenly, you go about your business a few days later, and hmmmmm, no craving the ice cream.
Just a mere stupid example, but it's kind of like that. The more you don't eat that ice cream the cravings go.
BUT, again for me, but almost every recovering addict I know it's ALWAYS with us. Not a craving, but a "Just one bag". Especially, on a really bad day and it's imprinted in your brain (true) and it's the answer to make that ugly day go away.
So, that never goes away, but the cravings sure do go away. She's still new in recovery and it takes a long time to get rid of that craving. Before ya know it those will be a thing of the past.
I'm so glad she is doing well. You're a good mom.
Oh, HM I read your post to help about my daughter, and I thank you. Also yes she did know about my addiction. Not early on, but later.
40 days and counting. That is so wonderful.
I can only speak for myself and try to explain in the only way I know how. Eventually the cravings go away. Just a stupid example: You love chocolate ice cream. You crave it. The stores out of it so you go to another. Nope. Out of chocolate ice cream. Well, you still crave it, and into the next few days you are wanting that ice cream BAD NOW. Suddenly, you go about your business a few days later, and hmmmmm, no craving the ice cream.
Just a mere stupid example, but it's kind of like that. The more you don't eat that ice cream the cravings go.
BUT, again for me, but almost every recovering addict I know it's ALWAYS with us. Not a craving, but a "Just one bag". Especially, on a really bad day and it's imprinted in your brain (true) and it's the answer to make that ugly day go away.
So, that never goes away, but the cravings sure do go away. She's still new in recovery and it takes a long time to get rid of that craving. Before ya know it those will be a thing of the past.
I'm so glad she is doing well. You're a good mom.
Oh, HM I read your post to help about my daughter, and I thank you. Also yes she did know about my addiction. Not early on, but later.
