I can't do this anymore my life is a f***in joke I have 2 sons who I worship and I just want to hang myself,the father of my kids has been off his head on valium for the past 4 days he has spent all our money on drugs that I didn't even want cos there's no f***in food!! The other day he stamped on me and broke 2 of my ribs.we were so happy we were gonna get married,he bought some valium so we cud do our rattle and get sorted but he swallowed 15 of them and went crazy now he's taking all our money and spending it on drugs (that he ends up losing) I wanna leave with my boys,I want a good life I don't even care bout heroin anymote I just wanna feed my boys and take care of them.I can't go on I just want it to end,my babies deserve better I'm no good everyone wud be better off without me
Your boys certainly would not be better off...they would spend a lifetime wondering why they weren't enough to keep you here. You know what you want and that's a good start...you can do this without him because couples who used together seldom stay clean together despite their best intentions.
You and your boys deserve better and you can have it. My daughter was an IV heroin user who now has a son, a full time job, and is buying her own house, all in three years...you CAN do this!
Hang tough ~ MomNMore
You and your boys deserve better and you can have it. My daughter was an IV heroin user who now has a son, a full time job, and is buying her own house, all in three years...you CAN do this!
Hang tough ~ MomNMore
Look at it this way...Suicide is only a solution for YOU.
It does nothing but cause the rest of the people in your life, including your boys, a great deal of horrible pain and suffering.
Please don't give up, it's not as hopeless as you think. That man of yours....if he broke your ribs and spent all of the money on dope, well its way past time to walk out the door. Your children need to eat and eat well.
I am a recovery heroin addict/pill junkie myself and if I can do it, anyone can. It's a long road but one that gets better and better as you go down it. You'd be surprised at one can accomplish in a short period of time - look at mom's daughter, buying her own house!! And she was one of us not that long ago....YOU CAN DO IT
Take care and ((((((BIG HUG))))))
I will pray that you get out of your bad situation before you and your children get really hurt! A couple of broken ribs is awful, but it would be even more awful if it were one of the children that got "stomped" on by this lunatic. Please keep posting...tell us more so we can help you..this is a great place to come for online help - no one will bullsh*t you here either.
Love
Melissa
It does nothing but cause the rest of the people in your life, including your boys, a great deal of horrible pain and suffering.
Please don't give up, it's not as hopeless as you think. That man of yours....if he broke your ribs and spent all of the money on dope, well its way past time to walk out the door. Your children need to eat and eat well.
I am a recovery heroin addict/pill junkie myself and if I can do it, anyone can. It's a long road but one that gets better and better as you go down it. You'd be surprised at one can accomplish in a short period of time - look at mom's daughter, buying her own house!! And she was one of us not that long ago....YOU CAN DO IT
Take care and ((((((BIG HUG))))))
I will pray that you get out of your bad situation before you and your children get really hurt! A couple of broken ribs is awful, but it would be even more awful if it were one of the children that got "stomped" on by this lunatic. Please keep posting...tell us more so we can help you..this is a great place to come for online help - no one will bullsh*t you here either.
Love
Melissa
Wow the one thing I can say for sure is your kids are not better off without you, you're their mum and they need you. If you off yourself there's no chance you'll ever get off the junk and be the mum you want to be, if you hang in there there's always a chance. That man of yours is not helping, he's making things worse for all of you.
Jenny..is there some place safe you can go? Get a restraining order so that he can't come near you or the kids? Did you go to the ER to document the broken ribs?
No honey, your kids are not better off without you. Who would protect them? Who would make sure that they were ok? The goverment? Your boyfriend? I know this is hard and ending your life sounds like the easy way out but it's not. It's the coward's way out. It would destroy your children for the rest of thier lives.
You need help sweetheart, you can't do this alone. Even if you had the kids placed somewhere safe while you got yourself clean would be ok. Doesn't mean your leaving them, just putting them someplace safe while you get your act together.
Don't let that man in your house anymore. What if he's not satisfied enough with just beating you? What if he goes after your babies next?
You can make this better but you have to DO something different.
No honey, your kids are not better off without you. Who would protect them? Who would make sure that they were ok? The goverment? Your boyfriend? I know this is hard and ending your life sounds like the easy way out but it's not. It's the coward's way out. It would destroy your children for the rest of thier lives.
You need help sweetheart, you can't do this alone. Even if you had the kids placed somewhere safe while you got yourself clean would be ok. Doesn't mean your leaving them, just putting them someplace safe while you get your act together.
Don't let that man in your house anymore. What if he's not satisfied enough with just beating you? What if he goes after your babies next?
You can make this better but you have to DO something different.
Jenny
I tried to commit suicide and nearly succeeded many years ago,my husband found me and I spend days in the hospital on a respirator and being pumped full of charcoal. Iam a recoveriong heroin addict...I have 18 years clean now. I tried to kill myself because I didnt want to keep using. I lost sight of myself, my 2 boys, my mother,....everything, for just a brief moment.
I think back now to where I was...what I was thinking....I gave no thought as to what it would do to my boys....I know now that IF I had succeeded I would not be here now for the 3 granchildren I have, 2 of whom I have legal guardianship of. I shudder to think where they would be, who would be caring for them and loving them as only a Grandma can. Who would tuck them in,teach them to tie their shoes....the list is endless dear. Get rid of this "person" who says he "loves you" so much that he could injure you in that way???!!!! That isnt love sweetie. The love you feel for your kids is love.
Get as far away from him as you can, stand on the 2 feet GOD gave you and do whatever you need to do to to get yourself cleaned up and live the kind of life you want to have. You are strong and dont need a man to complete yourself and be the good mom we all here know you to be.
My husband said for you to go learn some self defense so the next time he tries to "love" you you can kick his arse from here to hell for what he's done. He's so much of a man he has to pick on women.
And just to let you know,....he WILL be back to apologize with promises he'll never,ever do it again, and to tell you he is SO sorry......Unfortunately,it probably will happen again unless you put a stop to the violence NOW.
Go to a shelter. I went to a couple when my boys were small. They will help you and you will be with women that are in the same boat, very much like your being on this site, with strangers, all going thru the same thing. We all help each other. But YOU have to take the first step sweetie....Get somewhere safe for you and your kids and then take a big deep breath.
It will be your first step to a brand new life, a happy,sweet,fulfilling life. You CAN DO IT!!!!
We are all right here beside you.
Granny
I tried to commit suicide and nearly succeeded many years ago,my husband found me and I spend days in the hospital on a respirator and being pumped full of charcoal. Iam a recoveriong heroin addict...I have 18 years clean now. I tried to kill myself because I didnt want to keep using. I lost sight of myself, my 2 boys, my mother,....everything, for just a brief moment.
I think back now to where I was...what I was thinking....I gave no thought as to what it would do to my boys....I know now that IF I had succeeded I would not be here now for the 3 granchildren I have, 2 of whom I have legal guardianship of. I shudder to think where they would be, who would be caring for them and loving them as only a Grandma can. Who would tuck them in,teach them to tie their shoes....the list is endless dear. Get rid of this "person" who says he "loves you" so much that he could injure you in that way???!!!! That isnt love sweetie. The love you feel for your kids is love.
Get as far away from him as you can, stand on the 2 feet GOD gave you and do whatever you need to do to to get yourself cleaned up and live the kind of life you want to have. You are strong and dont need a man to complete yourself and be the good mom we all here know you to be.
My husband said for you to go learn some self defense so the next time he tries to "love" you you can kick his arse from here to hell for what he's done. He's so much of a man he has to pick on women.
And just to let you know,....he WILL be back to apologize with promises he'll never,ever do it again, and to tell you he is SO sorry......Unfortunately,it probably will happen again unless you put a stop to the violence NOW.
Go to a shelter. I went to a couple when my boys were small. They will help you and you will be with women that are in the same boat, very much like your being on this site, with strangers, all going thru the same thing. We all help each other. But YOU have to take the first step sweetie....Get somewhere safe for you and your kids and then take a big deep breath.
It will be your first step to a brand new life, a happy,sweet,fulfilling life. You CAN DO IT!!!!
We are all right here beside you.
Granny
Hi Jenny,
Please come back and let us know you are ok. I tried to kill myself a few times when my kids were young. A couple of my attempts were real serious. I was never quite the same after my last attempt. I thought my kids would be better off too. But thats not true. I was away for a lot of their life. I was lucky enough to have a great mom who took care of them. Im so glad today that I lived. I should be dead. I can not imagine why I am still alive. I lived a scary violent life. I still believe I am here cause God has a purpose for my life and for me right now thats getting to be here for my kids. They are all older now 15, 18 and 20 but they are all going through so much. They all remember my husband beating me up but my younger two seem more damaged by it. Im going to counseling with my daughter now because she remembers the violence and is still affected by it. Not only that but she picks really crappy boyfriends and that scares me to death. Dont think that they dont see the abuse or that they dont know whats going on. My youngest just got beat up for hitting a girl last night. Hes only 15. What they see and hear it all comes back later. I thought my husband and I would get sober and be so happy. I spent 12 years taking him back expecting things to be different but they never were. We always wound up getting high again...I also thought that he would never hit me if he wasnt high...but the day came when he did. Get away. Dont waste too much of your life hoping it will get better. Just get away.
I will be thinking about you. Stay Safe.
Please come back and let us know you are ok. I tried to kill myself a few times when my kids were young. A couple of my attempts were real serious. I was never quite the same after my last attempt. I thought my kids would be better off too. But thats not true. I was away for a lot of their life. I was lucky enough to have a great mom who took care of them. Im so glad today that I lived. I should be dead. I can not imagine why I am still alive. I lived a scary violent life. I still believe I am here cause God has a purpose for my life and for me right now thats getting to be here for my kids. They are all older now 15, 18 and 20 but they are all going through so much. They all remember my husband beating me up but my younger two seem more damaged by it. Im going to counseling with my daughter now because she remembers the violence and is still affected by it. Not only that but she picks really crappy boyfriends and that scares me to death. Dont think that they dont see the abuse or that they dont know whats going on. My youngest just got beat up for hitting a girl last night. Hes only 15. What they see and hear it all comes back later. I thought my husband and I would get sober and be so happy. I spent 12 years taking him back expecting things to be different but they never were. We always wound up getting high again...I also thought that he would never hit me if he wasnt high...but the day came when he did. Get away. Dont waste too much of your life hoping it will get better. Just get away.
I will be thinking about you. Stay Safe.
I lost my brother to suicide 19 years ago and my best childhood friend to suicide 6 years ago.
PLEASE don't do it.
PLEASE.
You would ruin so many lives this way...you really would.
If I felt suicidal, I'd get myself checked in somewhere, Really - I would. I would never put my family or friends through such horrible hell as I've been through.
The man I'm seeing now just lost his brother to drugs last October - suicide (heroin addict). Shot himself in the head. My guy hurts so much every day, the pain in his eyes breaks my heart. Even if you think you offer nothing to the world..even if you think you do nothing right...trust me when I tell you - this is NOT the right thing to do. Hang in there. Things ALWAYS get better.
I'd try and get into the hospital right now if I were you...believe me, you are valued and loved. Don't throw that away. Humans can't come back from the dead you know. At least I've never seen someone come back from that. The people who love and cherish you will forver be crushed by something you did. Try and think of others and how they'd feel please. Get some help. Many (((((hugs))))))) and prayers going your way...
Love,
Melissa
PLEASE don't do it.
PLEASE.
You would ruin so many lives this way...you really would.
If I felt suicidal, I'd get myself checked in somewhere, Really - I would. I would never put my family or friends through such horrible hell as I've been through.
The man I'm seeing now just lost his brother to drugs last October - suicide (heroin addict). Shot himself in the head. My guy hurts so much every day, the pain in his eyes breaks my heart. Even if you think you offer nothing to the world..even if you think you do nothing right...trust me when I tell you - this is NOT the right thing to do. Hang in there. Things ALWAYS get better.
I'd try and get into the hospital right now if I were you...believe me, you are valued and loved. Don't throw that away. Humans can't come back from the dead you know. At least I've never seen someone come back from that. The people who love and cherish you will forver be crushed by something you did. Try and think of others and how they'd feel please. Get some help. Many (((((hugs))))))) and prayers going your way...
Love,
Melissa
