Hello...this is my first post on this site. I am struggling daily to stay clean. I recently lost my job yesterday and what do you think the first thing I did was? Yep...I got high. I have been struggling now for almost a year with this last relapse.
My wife just me I have to leave. I do not want to lose her but what other options does she have? I have put her through this for too long. No matter what I seem to do heroin rules my life. Even after not touching heroin for 4 years, one taste was enough to send me over the edge and I am scared that I can't come back.
Sorry if I rambled on or made no sense, but right now I don't make sense to myself. Jobless, soon to be carless and homeless, I don't even know if I have the will to continue with life at this point. This drug is so powerful and going on 9 years of off and on again addiction is proof enough for me that no one should ever have to live with this kind of pain. Not the addict or not the people around them. I can only hope now for the 80 millionth time that I can kick this....or I am not so sure this will bring me to the grave.
i'm with u there. i know wot it's like .13 years on,off,on,off. All i keep thinkin is.... never give up givin up.. .I have recently moved 300 miles away with my partner(also with habit) 2 try and stay clean. I hope U can get back on track and keep ur girl. just try 'n' remember when u lapse.STOP. and give it up.
WELCOME!
GIVE YOURSELF A CHANCE! YOU are worth so much...most importantly to yourself! It's all about choice...CHOOSE to take your life back. You can and will kick this...you have done it before! This time round learn from your mistakes. Worry not about anything but getting yourself together. All the best to you!
Darin
GIVE YOURSELF A CHANCE! YOU are worth so much...most importantly to yourself! It's all about choice...CHOOSE to take your life back. You can and will kick this...you have done it before! This time round learn from your mistakes. Worry not about anything but getting yourself together. All the best to you!
Darin
Crackerman, I did it on probably my 80millionth time. You did it before, and you can do it again, and just keep going.
Thank you for saying that too....about one little taste....I've had that on my mind for weeks.....just a hit....just a line....that won't hurt....and I got a year and ten months here....it'll always be with us somewhere, but we can beat it...YOU can beat this....like Darin said.....give YOU a chance.
Hope you're still there...come back.
Thank you for saying that too....about one little taste....I've had that on my mind for weeks.....just a hit....just a line....that won't hurt....and I got a year and ten months here....it'll always be with us somewhere, but we can beat it...YOU can beat this....like Darin said.....give YOU a chance.
Hope you're still there...come back.
I am sorry to hear that your struggling. I have never been an addict so I dont understand why you just cannot stop. I got a divorce because of heroin. You know your wife can only take so much of the lying the using. It hurts her you know. she came to a point where sh just doesnt care anymore. If you want to keep her you need to reevaluate your life and what is important to you. Drugs? or you family?. You will be in my prayer
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Bridgette
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Bridgette
Facing homelessness,and crime to keep the habit going and the sickness at bay is a scary thing,aint it??
Let me tell ya(and Ive been on mdone many years) you got it right with that one little taste line. I know that if I think I could control my use because Im on the juice, I would be only kidding myself.
Slow down Bro- - one thing at a time. You take on all the BS at once and you will be overcome with problems that seem unbeatable.
Start making those calls- you,ve been through this before ,so you must know what to do.
Just take it easy- think it out. Remember spending all your cash and time on getting high is so counterproductive at this point- it just aint worth it.
If your job lets you keep your insurance for a bit after they let you go - -use it.
There are plenty of people and places to turn to for help. We all know that turning sh** around by ourselves doesnt work.
keep in touch-
love&respect
jack
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Let me tell ya(and Ive been on mdone many years) you got it right with that one little taste line. I know that if I think I could control my use because Im on the juice, I would be only kidding myself.
Slow down Bro- - one thing at a time. You take on all the BS at once and you will be overcome with problems that seem unbeatable.
Start making those calls- you,ve been through this before ,so you must know what to do.
Just take it easy- think it out. Remember spending all your cash and time on getting high is so counterproductive at this point- it just aint worth it.
If your job lets you keep your insurance for a bit after they let you go - -use it.
There are plenty of people and places to turn to for help. We all know that turning sh** around by ourselves doesnt work.
keep in touch-
love&respect
jack
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do not let the dope take your wife from you, get clean now, get whatever help is available like Jack said, maybe you have some insurance left, do an out patient thing, dteox whatever it takes, the "H" will take your soul soon, sounds like it has got a tatse of you. I am on the juice like Jack, I hate it but< i live a good normal life, I am a good father, husband, son, hard worker, and have some dignity, the heroin robbed me of all that, maybe juice or subs is the answer for you, When you relapse 80,00o times like I did their is no ther choice , think about it! Jack I really like your posts , lots of repects from me!
Yep, that's who we are....the face of addicts....sons, daughters, mom's, dad's.
Friends, lovers.....people who are loved, and love.....then dope took it...we just up and out let a tiny blue bag take it.....you can beat it....we did.
Yeah, Jack is the bestest.....and a good dad.....The Jack Of Hearts.....get so much from Jack's posts.
Everybody....just hang in.....I'm not on the 'done or subs myself, but saw it save people from the depths of despair....whatever works.
Prayers going up for all of us....so the Blessings come down....I know sounds hokey, but I like saying that on Sunday's.
Friends, lovers.....people who are loved, and love.....then dope took it...we just up and out let a tiny blue bag take it.....you can beat it....we did.
Yeah, Jack is the bestest.....and a good dad.....The Jack Of Hearts.....get so much from Jack's posts.
Everybody....just hang in.....I'm not on the 'done or subs myself, but saw it save people from the depths of despair....whatever works.
Prayers going up for all of us....so the Blessings come down....I know sounds hokey, but I like saying that on Sunday's.
Oh Crackerman, far out. But as the dude in the movie sez, "Boy, you gotta get yr mind right" Maybe this, all coming down @ once is the spur u need to Make The Change- after all u recognize it cant go on & if u have kicked it once before u CAN DO IT AGAIN. But you gotta weigh up in yr head if the one moment of bliss, as it were, is worth all the ten tons of b.s. that accompanies it. My friend it aint. If u clean up yr lady will keep u? U love her? Do It, Do It-- don't let love seep away- especially not for this s***. It ain't worth it. I know whereof I speak :20+yrs. & still battling. Nip it in the bud.U r not alone.Bless u.
