HI BECKS, YEH IM DOING OK .....YEH IVE LAPSED IN THE WEEK ONLY ONCE, I KNOW ONCE IS TO MUCH BUT I HAVE KNOW REASON TO EXPLAIN WHY I DID IT. THE SUBBYS ARE GOING WELL BUT IM DEPPRESSED, I KNEW IT WOULD COME, WHEN I MEAN IM DEPPRESSION I MEAN IM REALLY BAD AT THE MOMENT. I CANT HELP IT, SEEMS NOTHING IS GOING RIGHT FOR ME, WHEN I KNOW THAT IT IS, IM GETTING CLEAN FOR ONE INSTANCE.
WHAT IM REALLY SCARED OF IS THE DEPPRESSION BEATING ME INTO USING...I SO SO DONT WANT THIS AND WON'T BE ABLE TO TAKE MUCH MORE OF IT. THIS IS MAINLY THE REASON IM POSTING TONIGHT. I JUST WANT AN NEED THAT SUPPORT YOU GUYS GIVE ME.
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Hey Charlie - glad to see you back. Ya know I got pretty depressed especially after the subs. It is strange actually what ya say cos when I was on the subs (and I went up to 16mg) I was feelin' great. Better than ever and smiling like a cheshire cat all day long - very strange! And I have not felt as good since coming off them.
Remember last year when you were feelin' good - it will happen again and the first week is always gonna be the hardest - or until you are stable on the subs (took me 3 weeks).
Anway, stay in touch, we're all here like ya said.
Take care and keep trying.
Becks
Remember last year when you were feelin' good - it will happen again and the first week is always gonna be the hardest - or until you are stable on the subs (took me 3 weeks).
Anway, stay in touch, we're all here like ya said.
Take care and keep trying.
Becks
