jojo brought up the issue of having trouble typing what she meant and i just thought i would start a new thread on that subject.
i noticed and still notice at times.
i felt ignorant after getting clean.
i guess i could contribute it to the fact when i was smoking i didnt realize my ignorane, now clean i can see it?????
I still have times i cant find the words to finish sentences, forget things easily, oh the memory problems, (i will say at 7 mo. are getting better).
there are/were even times that i feel high. kinda dereal/depersonalized. it is a strange feeling, i kinda revel in it for a second, feel creeped out and realize i used to feel this way all the time, yuk.
my husband cont. to tell me things often, i guess cause when i was high and getting clean i didnt remember anything and he got in the habit.
Just wondering how many others have been or are going through this. and those of you just getting clean, good luck. i think a person on this board posted in the past 1 month, clean for every year you smoked on a regular basis is how long it takes to get this stuff completely out of your system.
well besides the offs and ons prior to kids, my baby turns 7 this month, so this would be my month that it should be gone.
so wish me luck on my potential at the ripe ole age of 37.
You have lots of potential! I know exactly how you feel about feeling dumb. Although my DOC was cocaine, I so relate to these feelings. I didn't realize how clouded my thinking was while I was using, when I got clean I found out alot about how stupid I was.
What's important is not how dumb or smart you are. What's important is that the people around you accept you for what you are. I can tell your family does that for you. As do I and all that are on this board. Keep up the good work.
The only way to quit is to quit.
The only way to quit is to quit.
I'm so glad I found this message board! My mood swings are erratic, at best. Work can be depressing. I work in a warehouse and have time alone to sulk on my private thoughts. The best thing I've found (and I'm just getting started here) is a message board just like this. We can all relate to fuzzy memories or a lack of retention. Trust me, I've been to over 100 concerts in the past six or so years and the only thing I can really remember is "That was cool" or "The drummer was sweet" Kind of no-brainer stuff. I had an intense fear of people and communication and I already no this place is helping me.
we are all glad to be of service, and glad for your recovery.
