My name is Tiffani and I would like to introduce myself. I am 28,single and have two children. I have looked all over the internet for some type of message board or web site to share and listen to stories of addiction. I am not currently using but it is a constant battle daily not to get the "hook up". I often wonder how people feel happy or "ok" without some kind of drug. I just can't seem to relate to anyone around me and feel completely alone in this struggle. I would love to share insights,stories of recovery,etc... Thanks and Take care
-Tiffani Brooke
WELCOME T!,
I was going to start by asking what your drug of choice was but instead I will say is all that matters for now is you are willing to face your reality. My name is Darin and I am a recovering addict. It's hard to believe but although recovery is not easy...getting to it is very simple if you: Give yourself a chance! If you honestly do that then you will be able to face your battle fully armed! Follow that up with a commitment and a will to live and you will be well on your way! You can do it! All the best!
I was going to start by asking what your drug of choice was but instead I will say is all that matters for now is you are willing to face your reality. My name is Darin and I am a recovering addict. It's hard to believe but although recovery is not easy...getting to it is very simple if you: Give yourself a chance! If you honestly do that then you will be able to face your battle fully armed! Follow that up with a commitment and a will to live and you will be well on your way! You can do it! All the best!
Welcome to the board Tiffani,
I am a cocaine addict in recovery, there is light at the end of the tunnel...keep on posting and you will meet a wonderful group of people who are willing to help.
I am a cocaine addict in recovery, there is light at the end of the tunnel...keep on posting and you will meet a wonderful group of people who are willing to help.
Thanks for the warm welcome FATMS! I would have to say that my drug of choice is pain pills. Although,I love just about anything that gives you a head change or numbs your feelings. I was pretty heavy into coke for a while and tried just about every drug out there!
What about you?
What about you?
Hey BUMPSNOMORE, God just reading your name on the board gives me tingles and chills all through my body. I can smell the cocaine right now....will these cravings ever go away?? They haven't yet and im just thinking this will be a life long battle : /
Tiffani, My name is Carla and I am new to this site myself! I am fifty three years old, and the ex-wife of a crack addict, the mother of a twenty five year old son who is in prison because of addictions, the Aunt of three young adult nieces who have taken and will use almost any drug that is available! I have just started to see a psychologist because of my own addiction to Xanax and alchohol! I have been put on a prescription medication because addiction can sometimes be attributed to chemical imbalances, especially if there is a family history of it. I have taken this medicine for two weeks and I feel like a new person. I did not think that I could be happy without drugs or alchohol, but I am! This medication is non-addictive! You might want to seek some professional help, because I do know that when you are unhappy, it is very hard to stay away from your addiction! I wish you the best, and no matter what do not ever quit trying! Carla
Carla,im scared to death of pills or meds because I love them! I can sometimes take an aspirin and just feeling it go down my throat gives me some sorta feeling of everything will be ok....well for a minute at least. Then the reality of my addiction sets in.....
Tiffani, when I first started my journey here I was Bumpnbad...I had a love affair with cocaine and the needle. I'd like to think that it is totally behind me, but I occasionally have cravings, I deal with them with prayer and meditation. I also go to NA meetings at least twice a week. I have 8+ months clean. I know that the cravings do not come as frequently. Usually when I drive in areas where I used to buy my drugs I start that stinkin thinking...geez, for a while there I had cravings bad, cause there were so many places on the way home that I would stop and shoot up...I cut off all contact with my using buddies and do not have any dealer sources or money to buy anything. I got honest with my husband of 19 years, I am accountable through the checkbook for any and all money that I spend...I went to inpatient and outpatient rehabs. The inpatient was the only way that I could get away from the people that I used with. I deleted all dealers numbers and I have had my using buds call me, but I either don't answer or make the call short by saying that I no longer use.
OOPS, Welcome to the board Carla!
I wish you the best of luck in your quest to become clean.
OOPS, Welcome to the board Carla!
I wish you the best of luck in your quest to become clean.
Bumpsnomore,thats awesome to hear that these cravings may subside some. Everything is triggering these cravings right now. I cant even handle money at work without smelling it. I think about it,dream about it,etc etc...When I see or talk to someone I used with,its on the tip of my tongue to ask about getting some. I just want to feel normal again. I want to wake up in the morning wondering what I can accomplish that day rather than how much better I would feel if I had some drugs : /
Oh and thanks everyone for the posts,you have made me feel very welcome!
Oh and thanks everyone for the posts,you have made me feel very welcome!
My DOC was herion though I tried other drugs. Herion became my only focus!
See you are never alone!
Darin
See you are never alone!
Darin
PS.....Janet....have you had your W's today?!?
Sorry...I forgot everyday you wake.....you got WARRIOR!
Sorry...I forgot everyday you wake.....you got WARRIOR!
Yeah, I ate my W's for breakfast..lol
I'm on edge here waiting for a phone call about my job. I keep on thinking the worst scenario...that something showed up in my drug test. I guess it's natural for an addict to feel this way. Impatience is driving me nuts...it's been almost 3 full days since I took the test. I know that they tested me at the hospital that did the test, and if something showed up they sent out another sample. Well, with all of the meds that I take for my Bipolar and Depression, I have no doubt that they sent it off. I'm praying that some of my vitamin supplements didn't give a false positive. I know that when I was in rehab a girl tested positive for PCP, she was taking Effexor and something else. Weird huh...Well, I guess I need to just chill out, I may not hear anything till tomorrow....the addict in me wants self gratification NOW! I've been praying all day...guess it's time to give it to God and stop worrying (again)
I'm on edge here waiting for a phone call about my job. I keep on thinking the worst scenario...that something showed up in my drug test. I guess it's natural for an addict to feel this way. Impatience is driving me nuts...it's been almost 3 full days since I took the test. I know that they tested me at the hospital that did the test, and if something showed up they sent out another sample. Well, with all of the meds that I take for my Bipolar and Depression, I have no doubt that they sent it off. I'm praying that some of my vitamin supplements didn't give a false positive. I know that when I was in rehab a girl tested positive for PCP, she was taking Effexor and something else. Weird huh...Well, I guess I need to just chill out, I may not hear anything till tomorrow....the addict in me wants self gratification NOW! I've been praying all day...guess it's time to give it to God and stop worrying (again)
Claim the victory kiddo!
Sending HUGE prayers your way !
Sending HUGE prayers your way !
Thanks Darin, I needed that....
I told the woman that was going to hire me that I was on meds and she told me to give a list of them to the people that did the test...when I got there they said they couldn't take a list of anything I was on....
I told the woman that was going to hire me that I was on meds and she told me to give a list of them to the people that did the test...when I got there they said they couldn't take a list of anything I was on....
I got up the nerve to call, they don't have the results yet. I told her I was concerned about testing positive for benzos, I take Klonopin, not every day, but I am prescribed .5mg twice a day, I only take them at night when I'm having a hard time getting to sleep. She also told me that she will be out of the office for the next 2 days, but would check in and call me when she got results....whew...that feels a bit better...
Bumps I bet that was a relief!! What exactly were you prescribed benzo's for? If anyone would like to chat via instant messenger im on yahoo at tiffani_brooke77
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I am prescribed for GAD, but I don't take them daily, unless I have an anxiety attack. They also help relax my shoulder muscles to ward off the fibromyalgia flares that I have. I also take Lorcet, when needed, again, prescribed two a day, but only take when needed. I have severe arthritis, bone spurs and calcium deposits in my upper neck. I have seen too many people here that have pain med addictions and don't want to have to battle that addiction. Cocaine was enough for this chick!
Good morning Tiffany and welcome.
I am very new to this board. I am not a user but am pretty sure my daughter is an addict or on her way. My problem now is I am becoming addicted to this board. I spend all my free time reading and researching.(my right eye is killing me) My question to everyone that answered you is about meds. ( Please everyone keep in mind I am just learning about this and my questions are those of stupidity and not critizing) I would think that going on meds to relieve you is masking your recovery. Is there ever a time when you can become completely free from taking anything? I have a friend that goes to AA. When she was in rehab her sister re-did her apt. and threw away alot of her belongings. As you can imagine she was furious. Anyway, while she was having a melt down she told me that her sister was also an alcoholic but the doctor just gave her alot of meds and now she is hooked on them. She also just told me about the differant anti-depressants she is on now. Is it just leaving one drug to go on a legal drug. I hear that Klonipin is really bad. I went to another link last night, I can't remember now which one it was, and they showed an ad for an antioxident called Reprieve. Does anyone know anything about that?
Again welcome and PLEASE excuse my stupidity
Much warmth, Lynn
I am very new to this board. I am not a user but am pretty sure my daughter is an addict or on her way. My problem now is I am becoming addicted to this board. I spend all my free time reading and researching.(my right eye is killing me) My question to everyone that answered you is about meds. ( Please everyone keep in mind I am just learning about this and my questions are those of stupidity and not critizing) I would think that going on meds to relieve you is masking your recovery. Is there ever a time when you can become completely free from taking anything? I have a friend that goes to AA. When she was in rehab her sister re-did her apt. and threw away alot of her belongings. As you can imagine she was furious. Anyway, while she was having a melt down she told me that her sister was also an alcoholic but the doctor just gave her alot of meds and now she is hooked on them. She also just told me about the differant anti-depressants she is on now. Is it just leaving one drug to go on a legal drug. I hear that Klonipin is really bad. I went to another link last night, I can't remember now which one it was, and they showed an ad for an antioxident called Reprieve. Does anyone know anything about that?
Again welcome and PLEASE excuse my stupidity
Much warmth, Lynn
I am new here as well,
Five years and still feeling the hammers. But at least it is just me and not
everyone else around me. Recovery is not easy but the pain of using is
worse. Welcome.
Five years and still feeling the hammers. But at least it is just me and not
everyone else around me. Recovery is not easy but the pain of using is
worse. Welcome.
brianhumpert@sbcglobal.net
I am new to this site and 2months clean from opiates benzos and marijuana also am new to computers. Help!
I am new to this site and 2months clean from opiates benzos and marijuana also am new to computers. Help!
