Good evening everyone...when I first got sober I was just so grateful and almost on a "high" to just not drink...although I try to work the 12 Steps of my Recovery program on a daily basis, and a lot of the "promises" have come true for me...one thing that always comes up for me is financial insecurity...I picture myself as being destitute and broke living on the streets....anytime a major expense comes up it takes me right into that fear mode...I'm facing what I consider a major expense for some oral surgery my oldest daughter is going to have on Monday; so I phoned her Dad and asked if he would pay half (she is 19, so he is not obligated to....)...as many of you know I paid child support and spousal support (until he got remarried) to him...now I got that reversed, but since he works for his wife and claims very little income he pays just a fraction of what I use to pay him. I haven't been triggered by him in awhile... plus I couldn't speak with my Sponsor tonight, so I am just venting here too....better to post it as Zac always says...instead of letting my ex-husband rent space up in my head for free....it's probably not bothering him at all that he is such a deadbeat Dad....and I'm letting it get to me, guess it's time I turn it over....thanks for "listening".
Hi VW ,
Sorry to hear of the problems you are encountering at the moment,
Try not to let them get you down to much, everything always works out eventually,
And you on the streets,I dont think Me or anyone else here would ever let that happen,
I hope things fall into place for you,
Keep ya chin up!!!
Your freind Ginge
Sorry to hear of the problems you are encountering at the moment,
Try not to let them get you down to much, everything always works out eventually,
And you on the streets,I dont think Me or anyone else here would ever let that happen,
I hope things fall into place for you,
Keep ya chin up!!!
Your freind Ginge
Hey VWGirl think of all the ways your x used to have power over you in the past and now think of the only way left that he THINKS he has power over you now, the money. Don't give the bugga any glory. In recovery sometimes a step backwards happens before some huge leaps forward. Each time you think or worry about the money tell yourself, this to shall pass and i wouldn't give the bstard the steam off me a*s LMAO Sorry VW but jeez it does rhyme seriously each time you ask him about money you already know what the outcome will be. One day he will realise that he is hurting the kids more than you and by then the kids will have there own opinions.
Light and love Zac
Light and love Zac
Hi Vwgirl.
Thankyou for sharing a little of your life with us. And sometimes things dont look as big on paper (or in our posts) as they do in our minds where there can fester into huge resentments.
And I think sometimes we have to remember we are human first and not robots, so there will be times of financial insecurity...and possibly a lot more other insecurities. But remember that fear knocked at the door, faith opened it and no one was there.
Mark Twain once said I am an old man and have known many troubles, but most of them never happened! Things will work out if we keep it in the day.God didnt get you sober to put you out on the streets.I will pray for you and your daughter.
Youre ,Wanted ,Needed and Loved.
God Bless..
Lionel
Thankyou for sharing a little of your life with us. And sometimes things dont look as big on paper (or in our posts) as they do in our minds where there can fester into huge resentments.
And I think sometimes we have to remember we are human first and not robots, so there will be times of financial insecurity...and possibly a lot more other insecurities. But remember that fear knocked at the door, faith opened it and no one was there.
Mark Twain once said I am an old man and have known many troubles, but most of them never happened! Things will work out if we keep it in the day.God didnt get you sober to put you out on the streets.I will pray for you and your daughter.
Youre ,Wanted ,Needed and Loved.
God Bless..
Lionel
Hi Vwgirl, Good for you for taking the high road on this. The X factor is such a hard thing to deal with, Your doing great, God Bless ya!!
Big Hugs
Lovedove xoxo
Big Hugs
Lovedove xoxo
Once again you are a shining example of the program .
Walking through through the fear and letting people know what is going on with you. You are truly a woman of dignity and self respect.
C
Walking through through the fear and letting people know what is going on with you. You are truly a woman of dignity and self respect.
C
