So I went and zoned out on the TV, as I usually do when I'm tired. I realized that this is not healthy. I asked my husband to go for a walk. The horse race of an election is just too intense to watch on TV anyway. LOL
It was a beautiful evening for a half hour stroll and I felt close to my husband, as high as he was, it was nice to have company.
My mood has lifted and I also got an email from my 19 yr old son, he's currently looking at a University life in a sister city and commented about the pot that has been offered since being around the campus. Then he shared a funny story about how he had won a pretty blue glass bong at a Bingo game. My son does not do drugs. He is calling it a "vase". I tell him every chance I get how proud I am of his courage and resolve.
my son grew up with me in recovery. When he was 16 I had told him that someday I was going to buy a pretty bong and put flowers in it to represent my choosing of life over death. I get emotional thinking about that because shortly after that, my cousin chose death by suicide.
That's when I relapsed.
Today I've been clean 132 days.
I rock !
ww- you DO rock! wow great on you !!! (/) (/) (/) xo -jojo
Hey friend, thank you, how's the activity planning going ?
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You continue to amaze me!
You continue to amaze me!
hi friends-
well i'm figuring that since i'm not feeling better being clean then it seems like i'm going to have to literally carve out a new lifestyle.... may as well live like a clean person rather than the person i've been living like. do you know what i mean?
so not happy. so nowhere. but here.
yes the activity planning is going slow but happening. so far this week it's been this body in action; walking a lot and significantly, taking vitimans AND i also did some yoga. hard when i have NO motivation at all. but i push myself.
not to mention laundry. let's not!
i have yet to plan activities..... which come next. i think it's harder than making myself move, lol but true.
hope you all are having a good day, i think of you all!
(yes hippie i do - so don't get my headache)
:)
-jojo
well i'm figuring that since i'm not feeling better being clean then it seems like i'm going to have to literally carve out a new lifestyle.... may as well live like a clean person rather than the person i've been living like. do you know what i mean?
so not happy. so nowhere. but here.
yes the activity planning is going slow but happening. so far this week it's been this body in action; walking a lot and significantly, taking vitimans AND i also did some yoga. hard when i have NO motivation at all. but i push myself.
not to mention laundry. let's not!
i have yet to plan activities..... which come next. i think it's harder than making myself move, lol but true.
hope you all are having a good day, i think of you all!
(yes hippie i do - so don't get my headache)
:)
-jojo
Thought you didn't have a headache. Better find my asprin.
Thanks Jamv. I graduate tomorrow !
I have lots of mixed feelings about leaving which is very cool.....considering the only feeling I had when I went in there was depression.
I feel relieved, grounded, confident, capable, shy about saying goodbye to the others, happy, grateful, proud. I have alot of questions too. This is something I haven't been familiar with in awhile....actually CURIOUS about life again. :-)
JoJo - I'm wanting a new lifestyle and it feels so good, because I actually FEEL like doing the stuff I just thought about before. Like carving out a space in this house FOR ME so that I can do the things that make me feel GREAT ! Like yoga, meditation, and art.
Do you want a little space in your apartment that's all about you ? Can you make it happen?
Oh and have you heard of a place called Sadigh Gallery ?
I have lots of mixed feelings about leaving which is very cool.....considering the only feeling I had when I went in there was depression.
I feel relieved, grounded, confident, capable, shy about saying goodbye to the others, happy, grateful, proud. I have alot of questions too. This is something I haven't been familiar with in awhile....actually CURIOUS about life again. :-)
JoJo - I'm wanting a new lifestyle and it feels so good, because I actually FEEL like doing the stuff I just thought about before. Like carving out a space in this house FOR ME so that I can do the things that make me feel GREAT ! Like yoga, meditation, and art.
Do you want a little space in your apartment that's all about you ? Can you make it happen?
Oh and have you heard of a place called Sadigh Gallery ?
wonderwoman,
we are truly proud of you, wow 132 days clean..you should be proud too!! your amazing. Tell your son that were proud of him to. It takes a very strongwilled person to stay out of the drug scene these days at his age, especially in college .and what a great idea of placing flowers in a bong, showing your choice
( as long as having a bong around dont stir up to many emotions(if you know what i mean). just keep up the great work.
remember anything worth having is hard work.
Bubba
we are truly proud of you, wow 132 days clean..you should be proud too!! your amazing. Tell your son that were proud of him to. It takes a very strongwilled person to stay out of the drug scene these days at his age, especially in college .and what a great idea of placing flowers in a bong, showing your choice
( as long as having a bong around dont stir up to many emotions(if you know what i mean). just keep up the great work.
remember anything worth having is hard work.
Bubba
