For Addictmom.

Hi,
I know u are scared i know i was scared to tears my addiction started after i had back surgery at the begining of 2000 but i keept right on taking them for over 4 years i was taking 5 tyl'3's 5 pills at one time 3-4 times aday 15-20 pills daily i never thought i would or could get those white pills to stop controling me' one day i looked down in my hand and as i looked at these 5 little white pills that were controlling me i also saw no future for me' and then i realised i want to be there to see my sons graduate i want to be there when my sons get married and i want to see and hold my first grandchild i knew it was not just what i wanted it was also what my family needed they needed me to be there for all of this they needed mom and my hubby needed his wife and this thought hit me what right did i have to take this away from my children and my husband, yes it it was my body but my life does not just belong to me it belonged to them also so i realised i had no right to risk my life and what was the biggest wake up of all after i had started my program from my doctor at that time, was when my cousin brian took his life because he thought it was his only way out of his addiction after his funneral which is about 5 years now' his children said then i guess dad did not love us and now they say they hate him for leaving them he had no right to take our right to have our dad in our life, so i saw first hand what that did to his children what it is still doing to them,so i knew i had to fight so with the support of my doc and my hubby and this pain post i am here to tell about it' but please understand i am only sharing what woke me up this was about what worked for me and saved me from my addiction, believe me it was not easy but when i looked at my self and realised it was not just my life i was risking it was also my wonderful familys right to have there mother there for them it helped me stay strong. so i pray what i am sharing it may helps others.
Hugs.
Little H.
You said it all Little H. Thanks.
Thanks for such a heartfelt message.
I re-read your message tonight now that I'm cleaner and you've really touched me, Little Hanno. I'm sorry for your loss. It can happen to any of us, and I get chills thinking I was THIS CLOSE to making my husband and 3 kids sit thru my funeral. You are an inspiration.

Thank you again.