Hello everyone, I have not been on in a while. I have been reading occasionally and i want to start off by saying hello and welcome to the newcomers. I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately. In a good way... not a bad way... lol! I have started attending more meetings lately. I have really enjoyed them. I met a sponsor... finally and I am very happy with that. I stopped at my old home group yesterday after my dr's appt and it was as if my HP intended for me to be there. There was a newcomer and he is not sure whether he is an alcoholic... he has been court ordered to attend the meetings. I told him part of my story and experience. We discussed the first step. It's amazing how God tends to work in mysterious ways. My cousin is facing DUI charges and i am trying to get him to attend a meeting. So far, I just don't think he is ready. His uncle (who is my 2nd uncle) died of chirrosis of the liver a year ago. I pray that he does not follow in his footsteps. Addiction and alcoholism is a terrible disease and it hurts to watch your loved ones suffer. I have finally kicked the smoking habit. Everyone in my group knows that i am a non-smoker now. It feels good to say that. I had to change my medication again yesterday. The Paxil was just not working for me... i had a mental breakdown Sunday night for absolutely no reason. So, I have decided to pay the extra money for the cymbalta my dr has been wanting to put me on for so long. I really hope it works. I would love to be able to go without an AD, but i know that i am like a diabetic who needs insulin when it comes to that issue. I am okay with that now. But, of course i am having to go thru withdrawals from the Paxil... so i will be kinda out of it for the next few days... uggh.
I really don't know where i am going with this post... other that to say that i still think of all of you even though i have not been on much. Janet, Pam, Lisa, Liz, Dottie, Deirdre, JACQUE :), Bish, Vinny, Jeff, Poopie, Kiwi (yes, you too Kiwi)... and the list goes on and on (not to leave any of you out)... i just want to say that you are all still part of my recovery family and i am still hanging tight. I always keep each and every one of you in my prayers... esp those of you who are still out there suffering.
Geeze... talk about a long post... sorry guys! :) I am getting a little dizzy right now... so i hope this dang post makes some sort of sense.
Love and God Bless,
Bri :)
Bri, I am so happy that you found a sponsor! That's great news! It's amazing how our Higher Power works for us when we are diligent in our recovery. I pray that you can help your nephew(cousin?, i forgot which). Setting an example is the best start that you can give him.
My dr just started me on Lamictil (A/D) and we are hoping that this will bring me a little more motivation and less sadness in my days. I've never taken the Cymbalta, but I've heard that it's used for Fibro.
We've missed your sweetness and stories about the kids...
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My dr just started me on Lamictil (A/D) and we are hoping that this will bring me a little more motivation and less sadness in my days. I've never taken the Cymbalta, but I've heard that it's used for Fibro.
We've missed your sweetness and stories about the kids...
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Hiya Janet! Hugs to you too! I am glad they are trying you on a new med. If you are like me, you have just about tried everything huh? Ugggh... i feel very "out of it" right now. I don't know if it is the cold medicine i took, wd's from Paxil or the cymbalta itself. It's prob a combination of all. Yes... i am stilll watching the kiddos... and it does get better everyday. It's a very stressful job... but i am learning to give it to God when i come across something i can't handle. My cousin, the one i was telling ya'll about, is the same age as me. I don't know if i should call him and ask him to go to a meeting with me or if i should even do that considering i am pretty new to all this too. How are you feeling lately? Have you caught that crud that's been going around? Man, i did... i can barely talk right now bc i am so hoarse. :)
You may want to ask your cousin, it may help him to not have to go alone at first, but make sure that you take care of YOU, he is not your responsibility.
I've been starting to wheeze again, probably walking pneumonia again, i'm starting the mucinex again to try to nip it in the bud. I hope that this new med will help me out, I had asked her about the Wellbutrin XL, but she wants me to try this new one out...of course she gave me samples so I don't have to spend money on something that might not work. I have to watch out for a rash on my neck and chest, the rest are typical side effects, nausea, diarrhea and all the good tummy stuff...I started it on Monday and it takes 5 weeks to build up to the full dose, so it's a wait and see type deal just like every AD
I've been starting to wheeze again, probably walking pneumonia again, i'm starting the mucinex again to try to nip it in the bud. I hope that this new med will help me out, I had asked her about the Wellbutrin XL, but she wants me to try this new one out...of course she gave me samples so I don't have to spend money on something that might not work. I have to watch out for a rash on my neck and chest, the rest are typical side effects, nausea, diarrhea and all the good tummy stuff...I started it on Monday and it takes 5 weeks to build up to the full dose, so it's a wait and see type deal just like every AD
I may do that... i am seriously thinking about it. I know we're not supposed to carry the alcoholic, just the message. It sure is hard when it's family though. Sorry you got the wheezes again... that time of year. Hopefully the mucinex will help. I hate being sick. It sucks huh... lol! :)
