Hello, I too know how hard it is to stop drinking and druggin' because I tried to get sober for over 20 years trying different programs and religious organizations. The only thing that is working for me is working the 12 step program of recovery. I have managed to put together 16 1/2 months one day at time. I used and drank for over 28 years and thought I would die a hopeless drunk/addict woman. I had and still have everything going for me materially, I live by the beach in SoCal, drive a brand new car, have two beautiful daughters, a career at a prominent Corporation, an awesome boyfriend who is 13 years younger than me, good health & physically fit, told I am attractive, etc, etc., none of that stuff mattered until I surrendered my will and my life over to the care of God as I understood him. I had everything I wanted except I hit a spiritual and emotional bottom that you would not believe. I was given the gift of desperation, finally, and had that moment of clarity that saved my life! My best thinking took me to drinking and druggin' all the time...now I realize I have a mental obsession of the mind coupled with a spiritual malady. We alcoholics and addicts, I am told, are "bodily different from our fellows"...I am in acceptance today of my disease, and I now have a solution to a joyful, happy life, free from the bondage that alcohol and drugs imprisoned me in...believe me, if you don't believe me, than know that I believe for you, if I can do it you can too! However, I was also told that there are others, who just can't get this thing, which is a gift, because they are not willing to go to any length for their sobriety...well, I'm here to tell you I was willing to go to any length to get the booze and drugs, that's for certain and now having the willingness to go to any length for my sobriety is the easier, softer way. Nothing changes, if nothing changes...VWGirl
Okak, okay, so I need a life! I get it!
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I was sitting here avoiding ghouls and goblins (there was a time when I would be drunk by now waiting to scare the little goobers) and decided I was going to save off some postings and was flipping through and found this one from VWGirl. It looks like her first post on this forum in March of 2005.
What struck me was the message: It seemed kind of appropriate to share it with the newcomers...
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I was sitting here avoiding ghouls and goblins (there was a time when I would be drunk by now waiting to scare the little goobers) and decided I was going to save off some postings and was flipping through and found this one from VWGirl. It looks like her first post on this forum in March of 2005.
What struck me was the message: It seemed kind of appropriate to share it with the newcomers...
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| ...now having the willingness to go to any length for my sobriety is the easier, softer way. Nothing changes, if nothing changes...VWGirl |
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Hey thanks SKG, I forgot about posting that...my actual first post was on December 31, 2004, a little over a year after I got sober. I found a bindle of coke in one of my shoes and couldn't decide what to do....my sister turned me on to this website and well, there you have it....I shared with others here about what happened...called my Sponsor too....she made me flush the stuff, but I wanted to sell it, lol! Since she explained to me it would only cause another person harm, well I flushed it!
Hi VW. Did you know that you and Valarie account for over 400 posts from March 2005 to now? I don't feel so bad for leaning heavily on this board, now. Seems to have worked for YOU two!
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Yep, SKG, posting here and reaching out to others here is like having a virtual meeting almost! One drunk talking to another...that's how it works! Sometimes when I was not feeling well or couldn't get to a meeting I'd just keep on posting here and the folks carried me through, along with my Higher Power.
