I have posted a few times today but I feel like there are sooo many unanswered questions. I feel like I am the ADDICT, I keep wanting to pick up the phone and call. I feel like I can't live without him. What the f***??? He can just forget it I know its only been a matter of like 2 hours but I am like in a panic over it. I am going to the gym to try and work off this stress, but I don't know if it will actually help. There are so many things I wanted to say to him, like why I can't go on like this and he was just so abrupt and heartless that it made me feel even worse. I pray he gets clean and realizes all the wrongs he has done. I wish him a life time of happiness, a good job, and someone who will love him like I do. He always said how happy I made him he calls me his sunshine and always sings that grammer school song 'You are my Sunshine'. That was on the rare occassion when he wasn't nodding off. Special times huh. Thanks to all you people out there trying to help and I feel alot better knowing I am not the only fool who sticks around for more,
Poohbear
It is hard and it's like we are addicted to these people...It really is true you know. Its hard when they don't call because you spend that time worrying. Just like you, if I don't get a call from him I worry his mom will call to tell me that he's overdosed. He told me that once, he was doing crack and he fell and blacked out. He got up and kept falling, he couldn't get up! Another time he fell to the ground and his body was shaking. Sounds to me like overdose! And yet he continues to do it. One day he won't wake up from one of those. I dread that day. I often wonder how much longer I have with him here on Earth.
Anyways I'm sure when your ex comes off the drugs he'll try to contact you, its rare that an addict who gets dumped gives up that easily sorry to say but I've been there many times and seen it with friends. Hang in there!
Anyways I'm sure when your ex comes off the drugs he'll try to contact you, its rare that an addict who gets dumped gives up that easily sorry to say but I've been there many times and seen it with friends. Hang in there!
yep all you can do is hang in there...i keep telling myself everyday that only they can change themselves!! as much as I miss her and wish everyday to be with her, the person she is now isnt the one I fell in love with. its sad to see how such good people can fall to this disease.