Found A Pile Of Percocet...

Pain Pills
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Oh yes I did. Did I forget about a stash I had? No. Was I looking to find something? No. Did I take any of them? No.

My bathroom was being remodled so yesterday I moved my stuff to my husband's bathroom. He knew this. Today I opened his eyeglassses case to put them away and out pops a giant fistful of percs. Am I pissed? Yes!

He would use them recreationally with me back in the early days. I got hooked, but he was always able to put them down and walk away no problem. After I came clean about my usage and problem I told him not to f*ck around with the stuff. Common sense. He knows how much I have suffered from this. He agreed to not use recreationally. Well, he is the world's biggest baby. If he stubbs his toe you would think he needed lifeflighted to the nearest hospital. Believe me, a chance to whine about his aches never passes by. He has not said a word.

I casually asked him if he had been taking lots of percs. "No", he says. "Why?" " Well, I found a pile of them in your case." "Oh my legs have been hurting." BS! Whatever! His business. BUT...

WHY IN THE HELL WOULD HE LEAVE THEM IN THE HOUSE WHERE I COULD EASILY FIND THEM????????????

A bit later I asked him to do a couple of chores and to please remove them from the house. "Why?" DUH! I said "no point in tempting me, although I was not tempted, but it's just not a good idea so could you please get them the F*CK OUT OF MY HOUSE???????" He said "no problem I plan on injesting them." WTF ever. Taunt me a little more why don't you? It's not like I'm an emotional basket case or anything.

However, I checked a few hours later and they are gone and so are his pupils.

I'm going out tonight. Think I need a breather.

Thanks for letting me vent! Love, Atlas
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Atlas,

Although it is hugely insensitive of your husband to treat you that way, I just want to congratulate you on resisting temptation. That really shows your strength. You remind me a little of myself in that you seem like your mad at the pain pills. Thats how I've been since getting of lortabs. I get mad at the thought of them! Anyway, good for you for being strong and independent.
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I am so sorry Atlas...what a trigger!!!!oes he want you to be well? I couldn't deal if my BF was using...you are strong and you wil do what's best for you...Love, Sharonn
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WOW ~
Change a few words here and there, and I could tell the same story.
I flat out asked my husband how long have you been taking pain killers.
This look of I am soo busted came over his face. Later he asked me "how
did you know?" I said Hello addict here!
Little did I know at the time that wasn't going to be the last time I have
had to deal with him using around me
Good for you for sticking to your guns and telling him to get them out of the
house! CONGRATES to you
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Michelle, Yes I am mad at the pills. Better than being mad at myself. Insensitive is an understatement.

Sharonn, Does he want me well? Hmmm. Good question. If the roles were reversed I would have never let this happen. It reminds me of when I was still using. He got a BIG bottle of pills and hid them in an old roll of extra carpeting on a top shelf in the garage to be stingy. I never found them, he just decided to share. Couldn't he be more creative now?

Marina, You must be psychic. However did you know? lol

Thanks for the support everyone.
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Atlas, you did a great thing by not taking those Percs...we can only help ourselves....

I am so very proud of you!
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Good Job Atlas, I know it is tough honey but you just keep on hanging in here.
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Im happy you didnt use but I dont like the name of your post, its a trigger to some be careful
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Sorry, so sorry about the name of post. Did not mean for it to be a trigger. Will be more selective with my choice of words next time. Please forgive me.
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Red,

true..started wandering if i have a stash somewhere and dont knowit..better check now so when im down to 0 im not tempted....

Honey, you should congratulate yourself. You did great. Did you get a glimpse of the date on the bootle, the amount left? Is he hooked and not telling you?

Either way he was not validating your commitment and owes you an apolgy.


Now get out of the house and go do something nice for yourself...Pedicure? Maniure????

Hugs,

Ali
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Wow. Can you spell a******? That would have been a huge trigger for me if I knew my husband was doing something like that. It would be the perfect excuse for me to go back to using because I would have someone to play with and I wouldn't have to feel guilty. Of course, now I know better but still...geeze.

I'm pretty proud of the way you're taking care of yourself Atlas. You're a strong woman. Doing somthing for yourself and getting out of the house is a great idea. Do yourself a favor though. This might not be the last time he has some in the house, so don't go looking for trouble. I know you found those accidently but don't look for more. Ask him repeatedly to please, don't have them in the house so that you might stumble on them. If he doesn't respect that, maybe he needs to live somewhere else.

Good for you...

Cowgirl
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there's a law in science - coined by sir isaac newton - i believe it's the second law of motion and to paraphrase, it goes something like this:

every change is met with a counter change.

with that said...i'm proud of you too, sweetheart. that took a whole lot of courage to do what you did today. where do you think you got the Power to do that?

much love and big hugs to you ~

sammy
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Excellent words of encouragement-Thank You!

I am so glad I didn't find them last night, it was rough. But today, I was not even tempted. I just felt disgusted. I'm fairly certain they are out of the house or well hidden and I'm not looking.

I guess it pissed me off even more that he taunted me with "I'm going to injest them." It was as if he was saying I get to get high and you don't na na na na.

Well as we all know, I am not the one losing on this situation. I hope he never has to suffer the way I have.

I can spell a****** and I frequently do. LOL.

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I didn't get to go out tonight-SNOW. I hate it. My car is rear wheel drive and my friend would not budge. I would have taken his 4 wheel drive but the brakes went out on him today. Thank God he did not get hurt. But it scared the hell out of him. I don't know why I am awake this late. Maybe I don't want to sleep next to someone in a drug-induced slumber. Well, this was the second time I have had pills in my face since quitting. I was not tempted at all either time. I must be getting better. Before, if I would have found them I would have taken them all and gotten pissed because he didn't share. I'm 6 weeks clean and tapering off of sub and do not wish to turn back now. I think I have learned something from my mistakes.
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Well, that and the fact that you're taking Sub and CAN"T take any narcotics because they wouldn't do anything, right? Good thing you're on the sub right now, huh?

Hope you got some sleep.