How are you today? Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you.
Love,
Rach
Hi there. Im doing O.K. listen, i need to talk to you if you have alittle bit of time. I had a long talk with my fiancee last night and talked to him about some of the things that people were telling me yesterday.
I think im jumping ahead alitte, let me back up. Last night was a very ruff night for me. I have decided that im not that strong to go cold turkey. The leg cramps were horrible and my head hurt so bad i wanted to die. I ended up takeing nightquil to help me sleep, and that didnt work so @ about 3:30am I ended up on the bathroom floor with a pillow and a blanket with the shower running. The sound helped put me to sleep and the steam seemed to clear my head. Today, however was differant. I was shaking all morning and the last straw was when my kids asked me what was wrong. So I ended up buying some more from my "friend" and sat down with my fiancee and asked him to help me slowly stop takeing them. He is going to keep them for me and only give me one when it gets realy bad. Also I stopped takeing the 750mlg ones, now Im going to take the 500mlg ones instead. It might not be the best thing but at least its a start. I figured that i would still go through the withdrawls but at least they wouldnt be as bad as cold turkey.
Please write back soon, im waiting
Your new FRIEND.
I think im jumping ahead alitte, let me back up. Last night was a very ruff night for me. I have decided that im not that strong to go cold turkey. The leg cramps were horrible and my head hurt so bad i wanted to die. I ended up takeing nightquil to help me sleep, and that didnt work so @ about 3:30am I ended up on the bathroom floor with a pillow and a blanket with the shower running. The sound helped put me to sleep and the steam seemed to clear my head. Today, however was differant. I was shaking all morning and the last straw was when my kids asked me what was wrong. So I ended up buying some more from my "friend" and sat down with my fiancee and asked him to help me slowly stop takeing them. He is going to keep them for me and only give me one when it gets realy bad. Also I stopped takeing the 750mlg ones, now Im going to take the 500mlg ones instead. It might not be the best thing but at least its a start. I figured that i would still go through the withdrawls but at least they wouldnt be as bad as cold turkey.
Please write back soon, im waiting
Your new FRIEND.
Hi Friend:
There have been people who have been successful with tapering, I am not one of them. I think it is good you have a strong supportive partner and make sure you have a plan. I did taper about ten years ago with Dr.'s help but I didn't go to meetings which I believe is truly the answer to staying drug free and alas, I was back to taking drugs in no time flat. Good luck to you and know that I am here for you.
Rach
There have been people who have been successful with tapering, I am not one of them. I think it is good you have a strong supportive partner and make sure you have a plan. I did taper about ten years ago with Dr.'s help but I didn't go to meetings which I believe is truly the answer to staying drug free and alas, I was back to taking drugs in no time flat. Good luck to you and know that I am here for you.
Rach
I didnt think that this sort of thing would help me. I mean to talk to people that i dont even know, but you have proved me wrong. I cant stop thinking about how great someone must be to want to help someone and not even know them. I realy do enjoy writing to you and i think your info on this topic is very helpful. As of right now, your my angel and thats the way i will always think of you. Thank you for your kind words and helpful hints. In my mind, i want to be done with this addiction and im sick of haveing to take a pill to get me though the day. I just keep thinking that if my mind set is to do it then if i use the taper method it just might work. As of right now and its7:27pm my time i have only taken 3, and i got up at about 6:00am thismornig. Thats already better than anyother day in more than a year. I know im not done yet and it may be a long road but its gonna be worth it. I just know it.
By the way, my fiancee wanted me to say thank you very much, from him to you for all your help yesterday. He said that i already seem like a differant person. One more question for you though, How should we start this "tapper method"? How many do i start off with and how many hours in between? Or do i just only take it when i need it?
Still need some more help,
Your "Friend".
By the way, my fiancee wanted me to say thank you very much, from him to you for all your help yesterday. He said that i already seem like a differant person. One more question for you though, How should we start this "tapper method"? How many do i start off with and how many hours in between? Or do i just only take it when i need it?
Still need some more help,
Your "Friend".
If you only took three today, I would take three for three days and then cut down by a half every three days. That should work. I believe that's what I did before. Your welcome so many people have helped me. I was 28 when I started abusing pills and went on and off with that love affair for about ten years. This last run was three years. I got clean at 21 and stayed clean (from alcohol and cocaine) for seven years. So, this is my second round in AA/NA. Good luck to you and don't waver or reward yourself with a pill remember how you felt last night.
Rachel
Rachel
i have a feeling that ill end up takeing at least 1 more tonight. i dont want to but it might come down to that. if so, what do i do? i know that i sound stupid, but i realy dont understand certain things, i mean you said 3 for the next 3 days but what after that and what happens if i take more than that today? my fiancee is wanting to read your reply because he is the one who is holding on to them for me.
Friend.
Friend.
Ask yourself if you really need to take that fourth pill. Those pills are meant to be taken every four to six hours. If you are going to take the fourth (why not just 1/2?) because you just can't hang on then I would try for 3 1/2 tomoorow and keep that dose for three or four days and cut down by a 1/2 every three to four days. Remember, I cannot do this and I am not a fan of tapering BUT since you have not tried it before then I think you might succeed.
RAch
RAch
I want to thank you again for being there for me. I have to put my kids to bed know and i think that i might just try to go to bed. If your on here later i will write to you again. Keep looking for a new post and ill mark it with your name.
Love , Your "friend"
Love , Your "friend"
