From Where Ive Fallen I Must Keep Climbing Forware

Methamphetamines
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Everytime i relapse i have pleanty of time to think of the things that lead up and the feelings that went through my head befour I decided to pick up and everytime i use i get more and more depressed i wanna be sober so bad that im trying my own way to reach that goal and im finnaly relizing why should i do it by myself when people have there hand out waiting for me to grab on all i got to do is meet them half way and i figure i take advantage of this now befour its fades away and im left alone. I have less then a day sober wanting more then ever to keep going and im trying to reach deep down to find that person i once was the one who had a strong mind and was willing to do whatever it took to do the job and im preying to my higher power day in and day out that i may have the strength courage and wisdom to keep up the fight that i battle daily . I gotta make a decision now if im gonna truly put up a fight not just say it and crumble when the thought comes up. With this website and the helping hands and my heart driving me to do it Im gonna fight harder then i ever fought befour in my life because I want this for me because i can no longer be a user With the lord by my side may he give me the strength to do everything im my power to do it and i know dam well he by my side its up to me to stay focus and committed And keep my head up toes straight and keep going thanks all of you Love is powerful
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SKILLSIST

ARE YOU SEEKING PROFESSIONAL MEDICAL HELP TO HELP YOU THROUGH THE PHYSICAL AND MENTAL ANGUIS OF WD.? PLEASE DO SO THAT WILL BE A BIG PART OF GETTING YOUR ADDICTION UNDER CONTROL.

I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST AND HOPE YOU KEEP US POSTED.
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Sweet baby..... Just read what you have written... You are half way there. Your need to stop is profound and you just need some support. That is the way that I see it and well..... just my opinion.

I cannot tell you how much I wish my daughter would say at least some of what you are saying. She wont even admit to the fact that she is using.

Reach for that higher power, let him help you get through this. We all here want to learn, support and offering the upmost caring love for those of us who need it.

Fight..... for your life... I will do whatever I can to be here for you, to listen or whatever you need.

I believe in you!!!!!

Mygirls
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Stay strong and stay sober! Every minute you are straight makes a difference. Come to these message boards and read and read whenever your not thinking right. There are people out there that have their hand out to you waiting for you to grab it, waiting to answer your phone call and waiting to walk with you as you climb up and out! Let them in , go get 'em!
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Can you get into a Rehab facility? I think that if you were in where there was no chance to get more drugs and had all of the support from a detox/rehab you would do so much better...

I know that I tried for months to quit coke on my own and always ended up breaking down and using...I spent a total of about 4 months in Rehab, 5 weeks of that was in an Inpatient facility...the rest Outpatient, I am still going to an Aftercare program from the OP facility.

I can see myself in your words...I wanted to stop so bad, but I just couldn't...I have 4 months clean now. I also attend NA and see a therapist...

My prayers are with you...