hey you 2 where have you been today? how are things? how did today go? i hope you are finding each day getting easier. just was thinking about you. i hope you both are doing better today. i hope to hear from you this weekend. i'm still sending good thoughts and vibes your way.
terrianne
Terrianne,
Just got home from work but having a rough day. The funny thing is I feel better than I have in years. My mind keeps telling me that is OK to take a couple when my back hurts. I havn't yet but I am scared. Again YOUR post took my mind off of it for a while so I'm OK for now.
Love ya
Frank
Just got home from work but having a rough day. The funny thing is I feel better than I have in years. My mind keeps telling me that is OK to take a couple when my back hurts. I havn't yet but I am scared. Again YOUR post took my mind off of it for a while so I'm OK for now.
Love ya
Frank
frank,
how wierd everytime i think about you and post less then 15 minutes later there you are : ) hmmm must be something to that. good and you know you have other options you can take advil hot baths/showers exersize as i posted on christina's thread. hey i'm here so post your heart out. keep your mind busy. hey how long you been married and how many kids (sorry if you mentioned before drugs affected my memory so bad) i think if i recal you have kids in there 20's. sorry if i'm wrong. as i said my memory sucks these days. but so glad your around. sorry today sucked but that happens. wont be much longer and you'll notice improvements.
terrianne
how wierd everytime i think about you and post less then 15 minutes later there you are : ) hmmm must be something to that. good and you know you have other options you can take advil hot baths/showers exersize as i posted on christina's thread. hey i'm here so post your heart out. keep your mind busy. hey how long you been married and how many kids (sorry if you mentioned before drugs affected my memory so bad) i think if i recal you have kids in there 20's. sorry if i'm wrong. as i said my memory sucks these days. but so glad your around. sorry today sucked but that happens. wont be much longer and you'll notice improvements.
terrianne
Sorry for butting in here..... But Frank, don't listen to your mind telling you it will be OK, Listen to that other voice in your head that telling you it won't, I know its there, just listen to it.
Hi Boo, Good day to ya.
Regards,
Tom
Hi Boo, Good day to ya.
Regards,
Tom
tom,
hi back at ya. how'd your day go? are you feeling better? definately has to be a plus knowing its the week end, man that week flew by fast. how have you been feeling? hows the recovery thoughts going? i know you like to put on a good front but you cant always fool me :P i'm to good for that ;) you've had a busy week. i think you should do something that makes you happy, you deserve a reward. if you lived closer i'd drop you off some girl scout cookies and valentines cookies :)
terrianne
hi back at ya. how'd your day go? are you feeling better? definately has to be a plus knowing its the week end, man that week flew by fast. how have you been feeling? hows the recovery thoughts going? i know you like to put on a good front but you cant always fool me :P i'm to good for that ;) you've had a busy week. i think you should do something that makes you happy, you deserve a reward. if you lived closer i'd drop you off some girl scout cookies and valentines cookies :)
terrianne
Also, I would like to add, I carried a percocet around in my pocket for the first 2 weeks of my withdrawel, I constantly thought about it, and battled the thoughts in my mind about it, on day 14 I flushed it. It was liberating, I should have done it on day one. I would not have had to put myself through that. Flush the pills Frank, maybe you won't think about them as much if you do. I mean, why keep em?
Best Regards,
Tom
Best Regards,
Tom
ooohh girl scout cookies, I like the peanut butter ones. My day was good, got alot done and my mother came home from the hosp. Ter, I wouldnt hide my mood or feelings from you, I really, really have been feeling good, despite the problems with my parents. Today I was a little overwhelmed, but nothing I could not handle.
Best Regards,
Tom
Best Regards,
Tom
Terrianne,
As I was driving home I kept saying I need a dose of Terrianne. I get home and there you are to fsguy&singlemom. Couldn't believe it . You got powers woman. Good ones. Got 2 great kids. Girl 23 and boy 21. been married 25 years. She knows about my problem. last 6 mos. Thats when I tried to stop the first time. Well between me and you there wasn't much of an effort. I managed to keep both of my kids off drugs while I was #$%^&. They are special kids and they and I am determined to do this for them. I know ------ and me. Truth is I think i lost all respect for myself and really didn't care about me. Thats comming back.
Hi everyone
Frank
As I was driving home I kept saying I need a dose of Terrianne. I get home and there you are to fsguy&singlemom. Couldn't believe it . You got powers woman. Good ones. Got 2 great kids. Girl 23 and boy 21. been married 25 years. She knows about my problem. last 6 mos. Thats when I tried to stop the first time. Well between me and you there wasn't much of an effort. I managed to keep both of my kids off drugs while I was #$%^&. They are special kids and they and I am determined to do this for them. I know ------ and me. Truth is I think i lost all respect for myself and really didn't care about me. Thats comming back.
Hi everyone
Frank
i know, something about flushing your pills feels like killing your best friend. but in reality its not your friend its your enemy. tom's probably right doing it sooner better then later would save alot of termoil knowing they are there. you are strong willed frank. your strength in your words prove that. you have the will to just flush them matter of fact pee on them while your at it :P sorry my poor attempt at humor.
terrianne
terrianne
lolololol.... Yeah pee on em. You crack me up girlie girl
Going out for Pizza, catch up with you guys later,
Regards,
Tom
Regards,
Tom
frank,
like i said i see alot of myself in you and where you are now. you are one heck of a guy and i bet you are an amazing dad as well. what a great guft you are giving to yourself and to your kids and wife to fight this ugly nasty disease. i am in awe of what you are doing and you are doing it for all the right reasons. i actually look forward to hearing from you as well. just because i know your attitude and ourlook is so enthusiastic and very realistic. i always keep an eye out for your posts now, i look forward to the updates. i am so happy to be a part of your growth. just knowing that somehow i have touched you and somehow help, feels like a great gift to me. makes my addiction worth while that i can turn a bad thing into something good by touching others such as yourself.
terrianne
like i said i see alot of myself in you and where you are now. you are one heck of a guy and i bet you are an amazing dad as well. what a great guft you are giving to yourself and to your kids and wife to fight this ugly nasty disease. i am in awe of what you are doing and you are doing it for all the right reasons. i actually look forward to hearing from you as well. just because i know your attitude and ourlook is so enthusiastic and very realistic. i always keep an eye out for your posts now, i look forward to the updates. i am so happy to be a part of your growth. just knowing that somehow i have touched you and somehow help, feels like a great gift to me. makes my addiction worth while that i can turn a bad thing into something good by touching others such as yourself.
terrianne
tom,
oky doky i'm haven pizza too, i am glad to be here for you as well tom, helping you all helps me more then you'll ever know : )
terrianne
oky doky i'm haven pizza too, i am glad to be here for you as well tom, helping you all helps me more then you'll ever know : )
terrianne
T.A. / Tom
O.K. I get the point. Someone gave them to me at work cause they saw my back was hurting. It was one of my employees and she had no idea about me. What could I say to her. She was just trying to help me.
Thanks for the advise. There gone.
Frank
O.K. I get the point. Someone gave them to me at work cause they saw my back was hurting. It was one of my employees and she had no idea about me. What could I say to her. She was just trying to help me.
Thanks for the advise. There gone.
Frank
frank,
you rock!!!! excellent work my man. high freaking 5's!!!!! yeah i know its hard to say no. our addiction just wont let us!!! but you were honest with us and you did the right thing. how empowering. congrats you just added strength and power to overcome some of those weaknesses that addiction can have a hold on us. what a great evening . you just made my night hearing that. do you even realise how many people you are helping? theer are alot of people reading and lurking that just witnessed that hey if frank did it, then so can i. : ) you get some cookies too. i'll even share my pizza with you for that one!!!
terrianne
you rock!!!! excellent work my man. high freaking 5's!!!!! yeah i know its hard to say no. our addiction just wont let us!!! but you were honest with us and you did the right thing. how empowering. congrats you just added strength and power to overcome some of those weaknesses that addiction can have a hold on us. what a great evening . you just made my night hearing that. do you even realise how many people you are helping? theer are alot of people reading and lurking that just witnessed that hey if frank did it, then so can i. : ) you get some cookies too. i'll even share my pizza with you for that one!!!
terrianne
Terrianne.
Thanks Thanks I had to leave for a while. Just came back for a minute to tell you that felt so gooooooooood. Have to leave again. back after a while.
L Y
Frank
Thanks Thanks I had to leave for a while. Just came back for a minute to tell you that felt so gooooooooood. Have to leave again. back after a while.
L Y
Frank
Hi all! Sorry I havent been on .. Ive been busy keeping busy tho. Im feeling pretty good. Besides getting these hot flashes every now an then for no reason Im feeling great. I went out on a date last night. Wasnt really feeling like it but once I got out and got me a new outfit (oh so cute!) I had alot of fun. We went to the casino. I passed on drinking, dont really like it anyway. The noise really didnt seem to bother me at all but the lights were irritating. Then we went back to his house and watched SAW. I didnt really care to see it cause the previews didnt look great but it was good.. twisted but good. Then came home (2am) I was too tired to care about a pill so actually besides the morning drama I went just about all day yesterday without thinking about this addiction. It was a much needed and great break. Went to work... which was really hard to get motivated in the morning with the late night and it seems to be hardest of all this anyway. Guess Im so use to getting up everymorning, getting my pills making coffee and sitting on the couch with the news on waiting for them to kick in.. then going about the rest of the morning business. Now I have to get up and do it all without that quick pick up.. sides the first morning dose was actually the only one I would ever feel anymore. Anyway, today was good too. Besides the morning fight with getting the kids up and OUT of the house.. I got to work.. everyone bombarded me with with where Ive been and they missed me. All day we laughed and joked. The clients all seemed to be in 'a mood' today and really making me laugh. I actually almost peed once but dont tell anyone! I gotta tell ya bout it!... I should first tell you I work for the school with disabled people. Some have mild retardation and others severe.. some down sydrome others trisomy (oposite of Downs, they have extra chromes) ANYWAY.. one has alot of behaviors and thats what I deal with most.. the ones with behaviors.. I chose it.. I love it.. so this one for some reason had an accident today (#2) this one is also my favorite (tho we technically arent suppose to have favs) at the end of the day I reminded this person to grab their dirty clothes to take home.. the parent was waiting up front.. this client takes it and practically puts it in the parents mouth.. not trying to be mean at all.. just showing it to their parent!! I should have reached out and stopped this action but for some reason I couldnt and almost couldnt.. well actually didnt control my laughter. It was just so shocking and so funny. Ok so I have a sick since of humor.. maybe it wasnt so funny now that I am telling it.. you just had to be there. Anyway, most of my day was like this. I was just so happy and full of giggles. One of my co workers actually said "man what are you on? I want some of it" Now that I think about it.. its very easy.. its what Im NOT on anymore.. and life is what I am on! Why do all my posts become books? lol
Singlemom,
Rock on. Sounds like you are getting hi on life not pills. Me 2. I have laughed more in the past 3 days than I have in 6 years. It's great huh. That first dose was my fav. also. After that I just kept chasing the feeling, but could never catch it. Now I got nothing to chase. Sounds like you had a pretty good day. I'm so happy for you.
Hang in and take care
Frank
Rock on. Sounds like you are getting hi on life not pills. Me 2. I have laughed more in the past 3 days than I have in 6 years. It's great huh. That first dose was my fav. also. After that I just kept chasing the feeling, but could never catch it. Now I got nothing to chase. Sounds like you had a pretty good day. I'm so happy for you.
Hang in and take care
Frank
Terrianne, I wanted to also let you know you have been a real key in helping me. Theres been alot of you that have but you have have really been a huge factor!
Frank, for some reason even tho I dont know you.. I feel like there is bond just for the fact that we did it together in a way. I wish this didnt have to be a part of your life (or anyones) but just the simple knowing there was someone feeling exactly how I was/am feeling just gave me a strength I didnt have just the second before I talked to you. To be honest I was SO very close to giving in to the temptations. But you were a major reason I didnt. I felt like I would be letting you down because when I told you we could do this together.. if I used.. Id be leaving you alone. Tho you wouldnt have been at all.. people here really love you but it was my feelings and strength.. still is. Ive been busy last night and all today but Im sure when I wake up again, and have time to be alone with my thoughts again those fears and thoughts will flood in again. I think tho I have found a huge key for me in fighting this. Keeping busy! Even when you dont want to.. if you force yourself to do something.. you get through yet another day so much easier. (didnt hurt none that the guy I was with was so hot I wouldnt a' cared if he couldnt speak English!) Anyway.. that seems to be a key for me..
Terrianne .. I lauphed about the subject before but honestly .. Im through with the major wds now... but the bathroom trips havent stopped like still 6-7 X's a day .. when is that supose to go away! ? I know its gross and know what to take for it but shouldnt that be done by now??? Hope that doesnt bother you.. but I just kinda wanted to know.
Frank, for some reason even tho I dont know you.. I feel like there is bond just for the fact that we did it together in a way. I wish this didnt have to be a part of your life (or anyones) but just the simple knowing there was someone feeling exactly how I was/am feeling just gave me a strength I didnt have just the second before I talked to you. To be honest I was SO very close to giving in to the temptations. But you were a major reason I didnt. I felt like I would be letting you down because when I told you we could do this together.. if I used.. Id be leaving you alone. Tho you wouldnt have been at all.. people here really love you but it was my feelings and strength.. still is. Ive been busy last night and all today but Im sure when I wake up again, and have time to be alone with my thoughts again those fears and thoughts will flood in again. I think tho I have found a huge key for me in fighting this. Keeping busy! Even when you dont want to.. if you force yourself to do something.. you get through yet another day so much easier. (didnt hurt none that the guy I was with was so hot I wouldnt a' cared if he couldnt speak English!) Anyway.. that seems to be a key for me..
Terrianne .. I lauphed about the subject before but honestly .. Im through with the major wds now... but the bathroom trips havent stopped like still 6-7 X's a day .. when is that supose to go away! ? I know its gross and know what to take for it but shouldnt that be done by now??? Hope that doesnt bother you.. but I just kinda wanted to know.
singlemom,
that sounds like an awesome day, see told ya each day gets better, and i'm realy proud of your progress, your story had me laughing years ago i worked doing teh same thing for a few months what a rewarding job!! you sound great tonight, glad to hear it, keep it up. sorry this is short . i just wanted you to know i was thinking of you. i'm not feeling so hot so i think i'm gonna lay down for a bit. maybe i'll be back later. but i'm glad today went well. keep it up. it only gets better.
((hugs))
terrianne
that sounds like an awesome day, see told ya each day gets better, and i'm realy proud of your progress, your story had me laughing years ago i worked doing teh same thing for a few months what a rewarding job!! you sound great tonight, glad to hear it, keep it up. sorry this is short . i just wanted you to know i was thinking of you. i'm not feeling so hot so i think i'm gonna lay down for a bit. maybe i'll be back later. but i'm glad today went well. keep it up. it only gets better.
((hugs))
terrianne
