Was wondering.........I dunno....just don't feel like i have real fun since i got clean.....still laugh a lot.......I find humor in most everything...but sometimes just feel like having a glass of wine and a joint and getting out of my head for a bit..........not caring for a bit..........
guess a lot fo it missing the crazy insanity that goes with the addicts lifestyle.not missing getting burnt........but sometimes the crazy people u end up associating with..the hunt.......NOT the sickness though.......Not sure what it is that i miss, but feel somethig is definitely missing.......
don't see the crazy ex anymore, he moved to west virginia and lves in a tepee, on that methadone and still crazeeeee as ever.do i miss him.don't think so.....maybe i miss the rough,wild sex.........LOL
Brynn and I r going to see beth orton in april, that will be fun.we laugh a lot when we r together.......but mosly we laugh about a lot of the insane things we did in our addiction......want to do crazy things now.......this being a responsible adult s*** can be so draining at times.......
Am i being whiner? hope not.....mi mom would say.grow up already ....ya spent your entire life in a fantasy......this is reality.must be like when some people say is this all their is?
Personally i like y fantasy lands, want to be alice in wonderland for a bit......
damn some crazy late night babbling this is
Do u gys feel like u still have mad crazy fun?
I can associate with missing all the excitement of scoring and ( I don't know if i'm goin 2 far but i was thinkin of it so i have 2 mention it ) actually administrating the drug into myself, and yeah, i think i don't have as much fun at the moment because the people i hung out with whilst bein a user were good aquaintances and now i've moved 300 miles i don't know the people aswell. A s 4 wild sex, i could only dream of havin wild sex whilst bein a user ( i think i did a couple of times ha ha ) icouldn'n b that bothered most of the time, especially my partner. When i'm straight " often " whilst using" as good as never". speak u soon, herman.
Do you think the pot or the wine are going to create fun....NO....go to a meeting, and share that....if you haven't already.
That's what we know as "picking up before we pick up".....I hope other people respond to this.....cause you know I never smoked pot....so I can't relate.
You have your PC now so create a nightmare on it...I mean a fun time...LOL.
If you smoke a joint...then what's next.....you know....then you'll have to sell your brand spanking new PC....you worked too hard for it literally...watch as your co-workers slip into oblivion and you're clean, and straight....fun is coming.
That's what we know as "picking up before we pick up".....I hope other people respond to this.....cause you know I never smoked pot....so I can't relate.
You have your PC now so create a nightmare on it...I mean a fun time...LOL.
If you smoke a joint...then what's next.....you know....then you'll have to sell your brand spanking new PC....you worked too hard for it literally...watch as your co-workers slip into oblivion and you're clean, and straight....fun is coming.
