Where has everyone gone??Am I the only one with no life here? Should I stay here or bag this for the night??
I am here--do you know hot to join the chat room ?
I just got back on....... that baby is sleeping and now I have some free time. Although I am not sure you will want to hear what I might say to you. LOL
do you know how to get into the chat room ? Sometimes I see people talk about the chat room--but not sure how to get in
lay it on me tina.......and no i have no idea how to get on a chatroom......is that the thing to do???
Oneill...that question for me....I don't know how to get in....Some on here belong to recovery friends.....don't know if that is where they go to talk....It is a group out of msn.....(I do alanon msn....I had to join the alanon group to get in it is like a big chat room but they do meetings)
I told this to my husband when things were really bad about 3 months ago. He was sick and tired of being sick and tired.......That he had no control over the drugs and that he never would.......that he was a junkie, I know harsh but the truth.......and that no matter how bad the pain he had to try to find a better way for himself because it was going to kill him in the end.......
Tina,
Thanks for the info---also I have not talked to you before--but you are doing so well with your husband, I hope he is doing ok...
Thanks for the info---also I have not talked to you before--but you are doing so well with your husband, I hope he is doing ok...
guess i'll just have to dig real deep and find the strength to conquer this.....i'm under 40 I sure don't wanna cash in yet. Life must be a test.......why else would all the things we desire lead to our destruction? thanks for your honesty tina...i can take it
He is hanging in and sober.....about all I can ask for at this time.....Just as long as he keeps working hard for himself and does what he knows he has to do for him....not me at this point just him. I think all will work out...and boy do I do a lot of praying!
Oniell, I have been watching what you have been writing, haven't spoken to you till today because I don't think I was ready to.....don't know if that makes sense but I still find a lot of this confusing. I am so proud of all your hard work as I am of everyone on here. You all deserve a lot of credit....this addiction stuff is nasty.
Still can't believe 120 meetings in 90 days....do you know that you made Sammy's day big time......lol........as for many others on here to. May god keep you safe this holiday. Enjoy it all......every tiny moment you deserve to!
Oniell, I have been watching what you have been writing, haven't spoken to you till today because I don't think I was ready to.....don't know if that makes sense but I still find a lot of this confusing. I am so proud of all your hard work as I am of everyone on here. You all deserve a lot of credit....this addiction stuff is nasty.
Still can't believe 120 meetings in 90 days....do you know that you made Sammy's day big time......lol........as for many others on here to. May god keep you safe this holiday. Enjoy it all......every tiny moment you deserve to!
yeah I guess 120 is alot--but I had to---I really wanted to stop using---and I did not know how, and meetings and this board was all I had. I have met so many great people at the meetings, and for me--I need to be with people that understand what is happening--I wanted to do it alone--and just stop--but I soon found out, it wasnt just about not using--but a much bigger issues---
Your post are always so nice, and written with concern---I read everything you write---
Your post are always so nice, and written with concern---I read everything you write---
tell me about your much bigger issues please?
Thanks Oneill......keep reading the rest is for majorproblemo....
See your life that was my husbands...name a drug any drug and he used, abused and put it all down.......mostly before we got married 20 years ago.....Needles the whole 9 yards before he was 20...... Yeah some stuff came back over the years to excess at times but nothing really took hold.....the pain pills did and took every part of him.....down to his very soul. You know what I watch it all happen. I knew there was a problem but he didn't so I had to wait.....He was so bad at one point he was going to kill himself because he couldn't think of any way out.......Guess what I did, I gave him the keys to his truck and told him to go for it.......He wasn't really here for us anyway, he was stoned all the time.......But I also told him what a cop out that was and that I thought he was stronger than that and that started this whole journey we are on now going......
See your life that was my husbands...name a drug any drug and he used, abused and put it all down.......mostly before we got married 20 years ago.....Needles the whole 9 yards before he was 20...... Yeah some stuff came back over the years to excess at times but nothing really took hold.....the pain pills did and took every part of him.....down to his very soul. You know what I watch it all happen. I knew there was a problem but he didn't so I had to wait.....He was so bad at one point he was going to kill himself because he couldn't think of any way out.......Guess what I did, I gave him the keys to his truck and told him to go for it.......He wasn't really here for us anyway, he was stoned all the time.......But I also told him what a cop out that was and that I thought he was stronger than that and that started this whole journey we are on now going......
I wish you the best on your journey tina. Seems all that you give to others on here should also help you to be stronger....such a wonderful thing. So if I read what you wrote correctly are you telling me that pain pills are worse than any other drug out there???? I need an answer to this......an honest one from your husband.....I have to know the reality of this. Seems I didn't have the respect for these things i should have and got myself in a little mess I would say..........
Well the answer to your question and this comes from my husband who is half asleep on the couch WITHOUT A DOUBT!
Now what I was going to tell you to do is to give all the info that you got on here some hard thought. Read the stories, you can go back on this site for months.....see what these drugs have took from people....where the drugs led them. You go back a to the end of Oct you will find where I first posted and see my desperation to understand....you go back to Sept you will find where Oneill posted.......Noneforme is farther back....but all the people who talked have a story....Some stole, went to jail, lost their spouses, jobs kids all to this drug.....Didn't you notice that there where the most post on this board....that because this s*** is bad.........Hate to tell you this but I am always honest the pills got you by the balls!
Now what I was going to tell you to do is to give all the info that you got on here some hard thought. Read the stories, you can go back on this site for months.....see what these drugs have took from people....where the drugs led them. You go back a to the end of Oct you will find where I first posted and see my desperation to understand....you go back to Sept you will find where Oneill posted.......Noneforme is farther back....but all the people who talked have a story....Some stole, went to jail, lost their spouses, jobs kids all to this drug.....Didn't you notice that there where the most post on this board....that because this s*** is bad.........Hate to tell you this but I am always honest the pills got you by the balls!
well that's great news. now why are the docs giving us this if this outcome is inevitable????Well I wonder what my chances are of staying on at the prescribed dose?? We shall find out very soon and I will have much to tell. Guess if i can't handle it I best get away from it completely......it sounds evil and feels that way too. I'm a total wreck.....should be in the hospital as we speak......gonna be a rough night..........
I just don't have all the answers yet......is why i am here.....I can accept being an addict.......but can I handle it so i never run out.....never abuse ??? This monthly withdrawal has got to stop........
No worries tina......I'll win........I promise.......thanks for being here.....all of you
I just don't have all the answers yet......is why i am here.....I can accept being an addict.......but can I handle it so i never run out.....never abuse ??? This monthly withdrawal has got to stop........
No worries tina......I'll win........I promise.......thanks for being here.....all of you
I am going to leave you tonight with this thought......I am on East Coast time so it is getting late and the 6am wakeup is closing in.....others will be on soon and you will be able to get more support as the night wears on.......
(this is for any of you who read)
Know that in your heart you can do anything, beat anything, and overcome anything that life presents you. It is just a matter of knowing and believing in yourself. It never matters what hand you are dealt, what you have been through, what horrors you have seen or what haunts you day to day....We all have a chance to live a life that feels nice to us, comfortable and peaceful........Find the inner strength that lives deep inside you, muster it all up and use it.......
This is how I get through everyday, no matter how good or bad!
Take care tonight......
(this is for any of you who read)
Know that in your heart you can do anything, beat anything, and overcome anything that life presents you. It is just a matter of knowing and believing in yourself. It never matters what hand you are dealt, what you have been through, what horrors you have seen or what haunts you day to day....We all have a chance to live a life that feels nice to us, comfortable and peaceful........Find the inner strength that lives deep inside you, muster it all up and use it.......
This is how I get through everyday, no matter how good or bad!
Take care tonight......
For some of us it is all about getting thru each day, one at a time. That was nice i hope lots of people read it......anyone out there to talk to now that Tina is going to bed..........????????
WERE are you from I live in oregon glad to meet you.. so whats up dear
well i'm up dear and feeling like a truck run over me . I be in montana and it is butt cold here, windy, and I can't stand it anymore. The cold goes right to my bones and hurts.
