Happy Birthday to me-Happy Birthday to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
26 years old todayand sooooooooooooooooo glad to be alive--ive learned so much from going through what ive gone through, and although im not happy or proud of alot of it, i am gratefull to have the knowledge and wouldnt change most of it beacuse i would not be who i am right now and love my simple little life as much as i do if not for shooting dope and being homeless on the streets of california begging for my dope $ on the side of the highway--wow--no one who knows me now would ever guess that used to be me standing at the end of the exit ramp with a homeles and hungry sign--THANK YOU to all those nice people who gave me $ day in and day out--y'know i struggle with whether to give to those people myself because i know what they do--but these days i just give if i can because i know that they do eat and they do need clothes and while 95% of it goes to drugs and alcohol, id rather give them 2 bucks and get my blessign anf feel good than not and wonder if i shouldve and feel bad for the rest of the day cuz well maybe that guy was really hungry!!! and its not like they are having such a great time and living it up--y'know--maybe im wrong but i always feel better if i do (when i can) than if i dont--call me dumb--but i like to feel good--anyway Happy birthday to me!!!!!!!!!!!!! really i hate birthdays because i always have a preconcieved notion that i should be treated all special and people should really care and plan stuff--and thats always a let down-- i dont remember the last birthday where i went out or had a party--coming right after the holiday doesnt help--but anyway im trying not to be a spoiled brat and expect anything from others-- i just get let down--thats reality, i just have to love myself and tell myself how glad i am that i am on the earth--and i truly am!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy Birthday to you....Happy Birthday to you....HAPPY BIRTHDAY Dear Ammmmmmnnnniiiitttyyyyyyyy.....Happy Birthday to Youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu !!!!
I know whats its like to have bday so close to christmas, mine is 2 days before it :) :) ENJOY the DAY !!!! :)
I know whats its like to have bday so close to christmas, mine is 2 days before it :) :) ENJOY the DAY !!!! :)
Happy birthday!!! Mwah!! Big birthday kiss!
What you were saying, about giving money to down and outs. you know, I really hate people who get on their high horse and moralize, oh, I don't give, coz they're only gonna spend it on drink and drugs. Which is probably exactly what the twat who wouldn't give is gonna do with it anyway. And all this "Get a job" business. Yeah, like some tramp is gonna walk into MacDonalds, with s***-and-puke stained rags on, and they're gonna say, yeah, you can start next Monday. I say give a or two to the down and outs, and it's no skin off your nose if they buy a sandwich or a flagon of cider. Unless you happen to be perfect, who are we to judge. I mean, we don't say, I wish I was a tramp, then I could sit in the pissing rain and get drunk everyday. For most, it ain't exactly a lifestyle choice, it's a combination of circumstance, and as all us in recovery know, there but for the grace of God go I...
have a great birthday, 26 is a fantastic age to be, especially clean!
love
diff xxxx
What you were saying, about giving money to down and outs. you know, I really hate people who get on their high horse and moralize, oh, I don't give, coz they're only gonna spend it on drink and drugs. Which is probably exactly what the twat who wouldn't give is gonna do with it anyway. And all this "Get a job" business. Yeah, like some tramp is gonna walk into MacDonalds, with s***-and-puke stained rags on, and they're gonna say, yeah, you can start next Monday. I say give a or two to the down and outs, and it's no skin off your nose if they buy a sandwich or a flagon of cider. Unless you happen to be perfect, who are we to judge. I mean, we don't say, I wish I was a tramp, then I could sit in the pissing rain and get drunk everyday. For most, it ain't exactly a lifestyle choice, it's a combination of circumstance, and as all us in recovery know, there but for the grace of God go I...
have a great birthday, 26 is a fantastic age to be, especially clean!
love
diff xxxx
OHHHHH!!!!!!!Amity....26....nice one girl...as Differ said 26 is a wonderful age....i had a ball when i was yer age.....wella drug fuelled ball....E,speed&coke combined with lots of dance music took most of my teens&twentys...away but i dont really regret it....as i said i had a laugh with good people.....then in my late twenties H entered for 10yrs.Enough of my old war stories....yer 26 and clean ...am really proud of ya you are doin so,so...well.
Take care and many happy returns.......lotsa love...........Davey
Take care and many happy returns.......lotsa love...........Davey
thanks guys--i was feeling really god earlier but now i dont know...........
I feel an overwhelming sadness--i dont know if its my birthday or what--life goes on i feel like i miss someone but i dont know who...........whats that about??confused am I
I feel an overwhelming sadness--i dont know if its my birthday or what--life goes on i feel like i miss someone but i dont know who...........whats that about??confused am I
Happy, happy birthday, Amity! You have come so far, seen and done so much, it's not unusual to feel a bit confused and melancholy without really knowing why. You are struggling with your mum's issues, starting a whole new life, and raising a child - who wouldn't be a bit addled?! My goodness, honey, take a few deep breaths and send those feelings packing. Feel them, observe them, and let them go...just like that. The world is yours and you are clean to enjoy it all. Bless you, Amity, and take care of you. So glad you are here - here in the world, I mean.
Happiness~MomNMore
Happiness~MomNMore
Amity, look on every day as a birthday.......a chance to start a whole new year, looking forward to the next day, also a birthday........See what I mean?
I'm sooooooo much older than you are honey, and each day is just one more reason to be happy that you are where you are, that you know much more than you did the day before, and that there is so much to look forward to tomorrow, that there is not room for melancholy or regret.
Happy birthday today, Miss 26 yr old, and happy birthday tomorrow too.
rita
I'm sooooooo much older than you are honey, and each day is just one more reason to be happy that you are where you are, that you know much more than you did the day before, and that there is so much to look forward to tomorrow, that there is not room for melancholy or regret.
Happy birthday today, Miss 26 yr old, and happy birthday tomorrow too.
rita
Happy birthday amity!! I think we all get a little excited about our birthdays cause it's our special day, and it's okay for you to be dissapointed if you feel like your celebration wasn't celebatory enough, I do every year, I've tried not to think or make a bi deal out of it anymore, but I think it's a good thing that you still aknowledge your day in such high spirits and you should! So don't let others or lack of others get you down, you've got you, and who could be happier about your b-day than you right? Go treat yourself today, you deserve it girl!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SISTER!
We are all glad you are alive as well, babes.
Hope it was a good one.
We are all glad you are alive as well, babes.
Hope it was a good one.
thanks guys-Mom N More--such a nice person--how do you remember all that--and thanks to all of you for being so very kind
Mom&More is like one of the bestest ladies on earth........ain't she?
Hope the birthday was good as possible, honey.
Hope the birthday was good as possible, honey.
Happy Belated Birthday Amity. I hope you had a great day!
Oh I missed your birthday...I've been a little absent lately! Hope you had a great day and are feeling good and positive about your future.
Love Maddy x x x
Love Maddy x x x
yes--Bryn Mom is the bestest lady, shes kinda like the "mom"f the board--always kind but real and caring to all on all forums--thanks to you mom--you definately have "more" of that magic than most!
maddy--bump--thanks guys--everyone is so kind here--you all are like my family these days--i really look towards all you for advice and to keep me going through hard times or just for a little laugh when life gets boring!!!!!!!!!!
THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
maddy--bump--thanks guys--everyone is so kind here--you all are like my family these days--i really look towards all you for advice and to keep me going through hard times or just for a little laugh when life gets boring!!!!!!!!!!
THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
