a funny thing happened. my husband has an infection ( i won't go into details in case any of you are eating) and he's on this heavy duty antibiotic and can;t drink for the next 10 to 12 days which means he won't be tempting me either. this could be an opportunity for both of us to see what life without alcohol is like. Maybe we'll like it better.
i wrote a few posts back that we are going to Hungary in June to visit my husband's family, and that i didn't think i could make it through that vacation without drinking. mostly because i'm bored when i'm there because i don't speak the language very well. anyway, i decided to tryto keep it up on the trip, too. i think i can do it. if i go the next two weeks dry with my hubby, why throw it all away? At least, why plan to throw it all away?
you guys are helping me wrap my mind around the fact that giving up drinking means for life. and you know, i'm starting to really believe that alcohol isn't adding anything of value to my life. i used to think it did. it was that reward that kept me going in an otherwise stressful and mundane life.
so i have a lot of re thinkig to do, to make my life less stressful and less mundane. and i need to find a new "reward". it's not going to be herbal tea, either. I hate it when people tell me, "instead of wine, drink tea." Would that have been a good substitute for any of you when you were quitting?
For me early on I couldn't think of not drinking forever, for life, I only could stay in today, and just take it one day at a time w/o a drink and I still pretty much do that today as well. Just for today, I will not drink, no matter what. Substituting beverages, my choice was coffee, which I am now proud to say I only have about one cup or two, at the most, a day.
